++ a silence i can't ignore ++

@ihatequotes, 1/28/12 3:00 AM

2012-01-28T04:12:00.001+08:00

ihatequotes™ (@ihatequotes)
1/28/12 3:00 AM
It may seem like the wrong thing to do but you have to forget about the guy who forgot about you. #ihatequotes

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@GirlDictionary, 1/27/12 3:52 AM

2012-01-27T08:52:00.001+08:00

The Girl Dictionary (@GirlDictionary)
1/27/12 3:52 AM
No, I'm not single, I am in a long distance relationship. Because my boyfriend lives in the future.

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2012-01-26T21:32:00.001+08:00

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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@GirlDictionary, 1/25/12 10:04 AM

2012-01-25T10:39:00.000+08:00

The Girl Dictionary (@GirlDictionary)
1/25/12 10:04 AM
When people walk out of your life, let them. You might miss them, but remember that you are not the one that gave up.

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++doa

2012-01-20T15:47:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah… gantikanlah di tempat keresahan ini dengan kedamaian,
di tempat kedukaan dgn kegembiraan
dan di tempat ketakutan dgn keamanan

Ya Allah, sejukkanlah gejolak hati ini dgn salji keyakinan
dan padamkanlah bara dijiwa dgn air keimanan..
dan letakkanlah di jiwa yg goncang ini kedamaian,

Ya Allah… halakanlah kebingungan pandangan hatiku kpd nur cahaya-MU
dan tindakan-tindakan ku yg keliru kpd jalan MU yg lurus..
dan palingkanlah org2 yg menyimpang dari jalan MU
kpd hidayah MU

Ya Allah... hapuskanlah jiwa yg resah dgn falak kebenaran,
lenyapkanlah dukacita ku, hilangkanlah kesedihanku,
sembuhkanlah kesakitanku.. dan halaulah keresahan dari jiwaku…

Ya Rabb…Ya Tuhanku… Daku berlindung kpd-MU
dari rasa takut,kami bersandar dan berserah hanya kpd -MU,
Daku tdk meminta tolong melainkn kpd-Mu

Engkaulah pemelihara ku, sebaik2 pelindung dan penolong…
Ameen...Ya Rabbal 'Alameen....

++the one with 2012

2012-01-19T11:00:00.000+08:00

dear diary,

i hope im not a lil bit late to list down my 2012 resolutions.
actually not much.
but i think im gonna focus more on the faith part this year (dan tahun2 mendatang, insha allah)

tahun ni, gue rasa nak berhenti merungut dan comdemning other people, berhenti complaining dan ranting.
i hope to focus more on improving myself, dari segi keagamaan. its all about towards syurga.

but, can i start from march onwards?
i know i can be keji sometimes. but something's gonna happen on early march, and i cant guarantee i wont do sinful things.
keji.
saye janji, after that, i'll start!
baby steps.

and,
and if nothing happen, as in the job grade and the life grade (kalo x nampak2 jugak mcm jodoh nak sampai),
i promise myself i'll start looking for a better opportunities oversea nextyear.
i really think i need to migrate.
(sekarang rase mcm tu, tataula nextyear rase cemane haha).
NO, not because of the money. but i just want a new fresh air.
and NO, im not like other malaysian yg suke condemn malaysia tuh,
merungut2 psl malaysia itu, malaysia ini, psl tax, pasal government,
mcm kawan saye yg sorang tu, kondem mcm nak rak, tp, ptptn pon xnak bayar, pastu x boleh keluar negara, saye ckp dgn dia, airasiaXL ke london etc tu dah dibubarkan, jgn sampai nanti airasia dah bankrap baru awak dpt pergi luarnegara! :D

and so, 2012 will be a challenging year for me.
in order to migrate, i want to spend more time with my family
& also my closest friends this year.

nextyear, nextyear we will see.
ini hanya impian, tak salah kan kite punya impian?

currently listening to:zikir munajat on utube.
currently feeling:calm
i wanna be:a supermodel

++menghapus jejakmu

2012-01-17T11:07:00.000+08:00

terus melangkah melupakanmu
lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
kucoba untuk terus menjauh
perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
kucoba untuk lanjutkan hidup

engkau bukanlah segalaku
bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

lepaskanlah segalanya
lepaskanlah segalanya

++u belong to me

2012-01-16T22:37:00.000+08:00

See the pyramids around the Nile
Watch the sun rise
From the tropic isle
Just remember darling
All the while
You belong to me
See the market place
In old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember
When a dream appears
You belong to me

And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean
In a silver plane
See the jungle
When it's wet with rain
Just remember till
You're home again
You belong to me

++That karaoke place

2012-01-13T11:13:00.004+08:00

ive been meaning to blog about 'that karaoke place' everybody's talking about..
i mean, about the people who went to such place..
i read it in chic's blog,
and also i have a friend who told me that his chinese-colleague (who is married with 2 kids) always, ALWAYS, ajak him to tag along to that kinda karaoke place..
(lucky this friend of mine ni jenis baik, pfufff)..
plus, a friend of mine pon ade citer gak..
plus, erm.. takpela.. i dun want to mention names.. tsk tsk...
and this is not a normal karaoke place, where we can choose songs to sing,
we can also pick a girl who will do anything, ANYTHING! that u like her to do to you. ANYTHING!
(and of course, one can do anything he likes to her too)
(ya Allah, ngilunya)

but then, i realized. i am not good either!
i have alot of sins.
bukak tudung, pastu insaf, pastu 'ter'bukak balik especially during 'sosial' gatherings or when i go to the nearest mall, dgn alasan malas, or baru bangun tido tetibe ajak kluar, so on so forth. me with my alasans. sigh~
solat pon koyak sane sini, especially subuh's prayers, especially when i went outings, especially itu, especially ini..
i have alot of sins!
melonjak gembira when malaysia scored a goal against our biggest opponent at bukit jalil stadium, and hugged each other joyfully(the other gender).. in public. tapi pakai tudung.
whr did your kesopanan dan kesusilaan went to hasifah?
watching sinful movies.. doing sinful things..
mengumpat almost everyday!
awholelot of other sins. ya allah!

i am not saying 'yes, its ok' to the people who went to such service.
they will get their 'balasan', di dunia or di akhirat, wallauhualam..
but, i am looking at how sinful i am. a sin is a sin, no matter what kind of it.

i better be improving myself.. insha allah.

*new year's resolution numero uno:
stop condemning other people, start improving myself. amin.

currently listening to:a thousand years - christina perri
currently feeling:sad :(
i wanna be:a good muslimah. amin.

++the one with the new year eve cum bday celeb

2012-01-11T17:31:00.003+08:00

*might contained inappropriate pic for sore eyes, and also inappropriate grammar mistakes.

wat happen on new year's eve?
went to huda's private party at the zone hotel & residences, near KLCC.
so, we got to view fireworks from up there, instead of watching it from below (as to what i normally did, biaselah miskin kan, join the crowds tgk kat dataran2 yg menganjurkan aje sokmonye)(not that i am rich now, x langsung pon)(kenape kene explen ni???)...
why do i need to blog this?
sajeje nak meriak kat stalker2 yg sokmo google aku tuh.. kau ado?
(ok saye rase saye akan dilit ni after some times, sbb akan insaf, haishhh)

ok back to the party.
i was up there before elle and the gigs.
and when she arrived, i was the one who open the door, and i closed back the door after both elle and her fren nih masuk dalam.
that was it, that was the 6 of us. complete entry.. tibe2, the door bell rang. just after i clsed the door. aik??
dewi, who already sat down and waited on the sofa even before i arrived shouted:
"che pahhhhhhhh, ko tutop pintu tak kasi kawan elle masuk!!! ahahahhahahahha"
ahahhahahhahahhahaha
rupenye elle dtg ber 3, not ber 2 only :))))))))))))))))
so, i open back the door and sorryyyyyyyy.. mamat tu dah gelak2 dah kat luar..
and that was that.. jugak.

after that, i went inside the room to get slippers to wear,
when i got back to the living room, elle tgh bukak a box of red velvet cake,
and its for me!!!!
"che pah, happy birthday!"
boy, was i shocked!
elle and her surprise-cake, tidak dpt dipisahkan.
(lastyear (2010), she surprised me (together with niesa and mirul & halu & encik boss tuh) with a cake gak on my birthday at JB, we went to karaoke at one of the superstar's club that nite, tetibe waiter tu dtg bawak a whole cake.)
pehh, sgt menangissssss. i love u elle!!!

so, new year's eve turned into my birthday celeb too. really thanxalot elle and huda and dewi and lynn and toppo and appy!

appy (or elle?) got me the most precious bday present ever, the one i long for setiap kali kite jumpe kan?hehh.. vitamin w. so well, hnm.. nothing happen.
i am basically demam (mc the the day before), i finished 2 rounds of antibiotics supply from 2 different clinics, 2 bottles of cough syrup, tp batuk mmg non-stop, even until today pon nya.. and, i got athma attack (very very minimal), so i said avoid walking/jumping/i nak rest je, if they want to go out, hrc or watch fireworks, i wanted to stay in the room.
diorg sporting, all of them stayed in the hotel aja. tayah aku sempot2 nak kene begerak kemanemane.
so, i wd say, my immune system was quite heavy that nite. baru telan pil antibiotik yow.
ade kenemene ke? or maybe vit w terpakse menyeberangi kahak2. dunno. but nothing happen.
i managed to sleep well at 5am. i think i am normal. kan? tatau lah.

and then, there were alot of pictures. i posted them in fb, instagram, tumblr, semua tempat aku nak show off. i was happy that nite, and i dun want to forget that there are people who can make me happy instead of remembering the 1 person i dun want to.. (but still seeing)(literally)..
ah abaikan. and here, ofkos i'll upload here too. its my blog maa..

*and there goes my new year's resolution utk tidak menerbangkan bebende yg takboleh diterbangkan lagi... huhuk..

currently listening to:adele set fire to the rain
currently feeling:sad pulop
i wanna be:a rokstaaaaaaaa

++the one with karaoke

2012-01-11T15:44:00.000+08:00

this is new
went to a karaoke place last weekend, the name is loudspeaker.
basically, we planned to go to our normal karaoke place, kbox at ss2.
but the place is closed.
so we went to this loudspeaker at kota damansara.
the choices is not as many as kbox or redbox or neway, but it sure got more new songs compared to them. and many chinese song.

one of the jakonest moment is the way we can choose the song to sing.
remote control is a way, but there is also this small screen beside the sitting place where we can touchscreen it, even slide mcm gune iphone/tablets.
pehhhhhhhh.
ok tu je nak citer.
gamba menyusul.

currently listening to:set fire to the rain
currently feeling:mengantuk
i wanna be:a supermodel!

++Break Your Heart

2012-01-10T14:11:00.001+08:00

lagu yg player2 suke nyanyikan. thanxalot! korang mmg akan dpt karma nye, ko tunggu aje lah turn ko!
(mode: geram ==" tududu)

Now listen to me baby
Before I love and leave you
They call me heart breaker
I don't wanna deceive you

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
Imma tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart

Theres not point trying to hide it
No point trying to evade it
I know I got a problem
Problem with misbehavior

And I know karma's gonna get me back for being so cold
Like a big bad wolf I'm born to be bad and bad to the bone

If you fall for me I'm only gonna tear you apart
Told ya from the start.

++

2012-01-09T14:14:00.000+08:00

Repost this in instagram today.
Dunno if u can eat this type of ginger cookies!

++Set Fire To The Rain

2012-01-09T11:03:00.001+08:00

this song stucked really hard into my brain.
been replaying it whole day.

I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you here forever
You and me together
Nothing is better

'Cause there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say,
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Where I felt something die
'Cause I knew that there was the last time, the last time!

Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.

++

2012-01-07T21:18:00.000+08:00

Kalo nak happy, hati kena kering..
Takmo sedih2 okeh!

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++Doa Solat Dhuha

2012-01-06T13:59:00.000+08:00

Still cant help falling in love with this doa & bergenang airmata each time playing it.
mashaAllah!

“Ya Allah bahawasanya waktu duha itu waktu duhamu, kecantikan itu ialah kecantikanmu , keindahan itu keindahanmu, kekuatan itu kekuatanmu ,kekuasaan itu kekuasaanmu dan perlindungan itu perlindunganmu “. ” Ya Allah jika rezekiku masih di atas langit , turunkanlah dan jika ada di dalam bumi, keluarkanlah, jika sukar mudahkanlah, jika haram sucikanlah. ,Jika masih jauh dekatkanlah. Berkat waktu duha, keagungan, keindahan, kekuatan dan kekuasaanmu, limpahkanlah kepada kami segala yang telah engkau limpahkan kepada hamba-hambamu yang soleh”

++10 tips melupakan

2012-01-06T10:10:00.000+08:00

source: http://scaniaz.blogspot.com/2011/06/tips-melupakan-orang-yang-dicintai.html
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10, semuanya aku gagal!

Jika putus cinta atau bercerai tentu ramai yang merana kerananya. kecuali jika anda seorang yang kuat semangat.Ataupun jika anda merasa senang untuk mendapatkan pengganti.Bukan mudah nak mengambil keputusan untuk bercerai terutama jika ada anak-anak yang akan menjadi mangsa perceraian ibu bapa.

Tetapi jika sudah tidak boleh lagi nak dielakkan maka anda harus berusaha untuk melupakan bekas kekasih atau bekas suami.Yang paling susah adalah memadamkan kenangan yang bersarang dihati sebab setelah lama hidup bersama tentu sudah banyak suka duka yang dilalui.

Cara-cara berikut mungkin boleh membantu anda untuk melupakan bekas kekasih atau bekas suami :

1. Anggap dia tidak pernah wujud.
Ini mungkin susah sikit jika anda mempunyai anak. Maksudnya walaupun anda mempunyai anak dengan bekas suami anda mestillah kuatkan hati dan anggap semuanya tidak pernah berlaku. Bukannya untuk menidakkan hak suami untuk bersama dengan anak. Lebih mudah untuk melupaka bekas suami atau bekas kekasih jika dia yang melukakan hati anda terlebih dahulu.

Berhentilah berangan yang dia masih lagi milik anda dan janganlah anggap mereka sempurna dan jangan terkena pujuk rayunya, maka hubungan anda akan terjalin kembali sedangkan hati sakit mengenangkan setiap perbuatannya. Aggap sajalah dia tidak pernah wujud dalam hidup anda, dan kalau anda masih sanggup menerima perbuatannya yang menyakitkan hati maka anda kembalilah..! Tapi jangan harap dia akan berubah 100%.

2. Tutup buku.
Tutup serapat-rapatnya semua perkara yang pernah anda lakukan bersamanya jika anda benar-benar mahu berpisah dengannya. Anda harus ingat bahwa anda mahu menamatkan semuanya, anda mungkin akan bertemu dengan orang lain yang lebih tepat untuk anda, itu tidak mustahil. Jangan sesekali bertemu dengannya lagi jika sudah berpisah.

3. Jangan hubunginya lagi.
Ini satu perkara yang mesti anda amati, apabila anda memutuskan untuk menamatkan sesuatu perhubungan ambil perkara ini sebagai sesuatu yang serius. Jangan sesekali hubunginya lagi kecuali jika anda ingin rujuk kembali, tetapi biarlah anda fikirkan semasak-masaknya segala keputusan yang akan anda ambil nanti.
Memang susah untuk melupakan seseorang yang sudah terlalu lama hidup bersama kita yang pernah kita cintai tetapi ianya bukan mustahil. jangan ber SMS atau email atau telefon dan jangan bertanya dengan kawan-kawan yang mengenalinya.

4. Sibukkan diri.
Anda akan punya banyak masa untuk diri sendiri, anda boleh sibukkan diri dengan pergi gim atau berjoging atau boleh juga mengikuti bengkel atau kelas yang anda minati yang anda tak berkesempatan untuk ikuti dahulu. Jika anda rajin ke gim tubuh badan anda akan jadi lebih sihat dan cantik, dan tak mustahil anda akan dapat pengganti yang lebih baik dengan lebih cepat. Kalau takpun sekurang-kurangnya anda akan merasa sentiasa sihat dan cergas.

5. Lupakan semuanya.
Memang kadang-kadang anda harus berhati kering untuk melupakannya. Ini semua untuk kebaikan anda juga, membuang semua memori agak sukar jika anda adalah seorang yang melankolis. Tetapi sampai bila anda nak berkeadaan seperti itu? Mungkin dia sedang bersenang-senang dengan orang lain apagunanya anda bersedih dan menyimpan memori cinta luka lagi. Belajarlah menjadi orang yang kuat pada hati dan tubuh badan.

6. Jauhi kawan-kawannya.
Anda perlukan pengorbanan jika serius mahu melupakan semuanya. Hal ini mungkin agak sukar terutama jika kawan-kawan dan keluarganya memang rapat dengan anda. Tetapi ianya baik untuk diri anda sendiri, dan jauhi juga tempat-tempat yang biasa anda pergi bersama. Hal ini memerlukan masa tetapi jika anda cekal anda mampu melakukannya. Biarlah hal ini berlalu dan anda jangan jadi orang yang lemah semangat dan jadi gila talak. Anggaplah semua yang berlaku ada hikmah yang tersembunyi disebaliknya.

7. Jangan simpan barang-barangnya.
Apabila anda sudah maju kehadapan jangan sesekali berpatah balik atau menoleh kebelakang lagi. Apabila anda mulai mengingati kembali kenangan-kenangan bersamanya, apa sahaja barangan yang diberikan atau gambar-gambar ia akan mengingatkan lagi anda kepadanya. Simpan saja gambar-gambar kenangan tersebut disebuah tempat yang berkunci dan jangan sesekali melihatnya kembali.

8. Keluar bersama kawan-kawan atau anak-anak.
Kenangan seringkali membuatkan kita terbuai-buai dengan perasaan. Apabila kenangan datang menjelma kita takkan merasa kuat untuk menahannya. Tetapi hal ini dapat diatasi jika anda benar-benar mahu melupakan segala perbuatannya yang menyakitkan hati anda. Keluarlah dengan kawan-kawan atau ajaklah anak-anak pergi bercuti ketempat-tempat yang anda tak pernah pergi. Mungkin hal itu akan dapat membuatkan anda melupakannya, jangan pulak menjadi sedih kerana anda tak dapat lagi bercuti dengannya. Buang jauh-jauh bayangan dirinya, dan hadapi hidup yang baru. Anda mampu melaluinya jika anda mahu dan anda harus bersedia untuk itu.

9. Pergi beriadah.
Mungkin sewaktu anda masih bersama dengannya anda tak pernah atau jarang beriadah. Maka inilah masanya untuk melakukan semua itu. Pergilah beriadah dan bersukan supaya anda merasa senang tidur dimalam harinya. Jangan peruntukkan masa untuk berangan lagi dengan bekas suami atau bekas kekasih.

10. Selalu ingat perkara buruk dan hal yang menyakitkan yang telah dilakukannya.
Jika anda masih selalu memikirkan dirinya mungkin susah untuk anda meneruskan kehidupan baru tanpa dirinya. Jangan sesekali mengenang segala kemanisan sebab nanti anda akan sakit menanggung rindu dan menjadi gila talak pulak.

Yang berlalu biarlah berlalu, jodoh anda mungkin tidak panjang dengannya tetapi bukan bererti hidup anda sudah berakhir disini. Jangan fikirkan ini yang anda dapat setelah segala cinta dan pengorbanan yang anda berikan padanya, jika anda berfikir demikian anda akan mengasihani diri sendiri dan anda tidak akan dapat meneruskan kehidupan yang masih panjang.
Semua yang berlaku ada hikmah disebaliknya…

currently listening to:dev - in the dark
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a supermodel~

2012-01-05T16:42:00.000+08:00

rm 5.55 !!!!!

currently listening to:taylor swift the story of us
currently feeling:kenyang, literally
i wanna be:an artist

++It Will Rain

2012-01-05T14:01:00.001+08:00

If you ever leave me, baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.

'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday, it'll rain, rain, rain

Oh, don't just say (don't just say) goodbye (goodbye),
Don't just say (don't just say) goodbye (goodbye)
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right

Happy birthday!!!

2011-12-31T00:00:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to meeee
Happy birthday to me

And here i am, berbungkus didlm selimottt..
Demam yg membencikan..

Happy new year
Xoxo

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++ngiloo

2011-12-29T20:06:00.002+08:00

Sesungguhnya waktu demam ialah waktu yg plg susah..
Susah hati kalau sakit dihari tua nanti, siapalah nak tgk2kan nanti.
Waktu yg paling ingin bermanja juga.
Hehe.
Mungkin anda tidak,
Tapi saye rase ye..

Haissssshhhhhhhhh susah hati.

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++

2011-12-28T14:23:00.002+08:00

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here

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++the one with the angst

2011-12-22T21:59:00.001+08:00

funny thing about being mad at someone is, they dont even know that u're mad at her/him.. so stop je lah the madness tuh, tak dapat ape pon..

currently listening to:rose bgm
currently feeling:gerammmm hehehe
i wanna be:a supermodel!!!!!!!!!!!

++hikmah

2011-12-22T13:25:00.004+08:00

orang kate, setiap yg berlaku itu ada hikmahnya.
alhamdulillah atas semua yg telah berlaku.

currently listening to:wali band - org bilang
currently feeling:mengantuk giler babi
i wanna be:a supermodel!!!

++testing

2011-12-20T17:02:00.002+08:00

++Tonight

2011-12-19T16:55:00.004+08:00

Excuse me
And I might drink a little bit more than I should tonight
And I might take you home with me if I could tonight
And baby imma make you feel so good tonight
Cause we might not get tomorrow

Tonight I will love love you tonight
Give me everything tonight
For all we know we might not get tomorrow
Let's do it tonight

Don't care what they say
All my girls they play
Nothing is enough
Till they handle love
(lets do it tonight)
I want you tonight
I want you to stay
I want you tonight

Grab somebody sexy and tell em' Hey!!!!!!!

Give me everything tonight

++the day that i die

2011-12-19T15:28:00.002+08:00

We took a drive and
We drove through DC
To see the places we lived
Long conversations
We talked of old friends
And all the things that we did
Summer nights
Drunken fights
Mistakes we made
Did we live it right?

You know the happiest day of my life
I swear the happiest day of my life
Is the day that I died

++

2011-12-19T15:02:00.000+08:00

ya allah apsal aku mengantoknyaa nihhhhhhhhhh

currently listening to:wali band org bilang
currently feeling:sleepy!!!
i wanna be slim!!!! :((

++

2011-12-16T21:43:00.001+08:00

Words. Simple as they are in all their diversity. It fails us when we need it the most. And only one thing remains, its silence.

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++My Heart Cover

2011-12-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

calming but giving me goosebumps same time..

++gerimis mengundang

2011-12-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

Bukan sekejap denganmu
Bukan mainan hasratku
Engkau pun tahu niatku
Tulus dan suci
Senang benar kau ucapkan
Kau anggap itu suratan
Sikit pun riak wajahmu
Tiada terkilan

Hanya aku separuh nyawa
Menahan sebak di dada
Sedangkan kau bersahaja
Berlalu tanpa kata
Terasa diri amat terhina kau lakukan

Sia-sia kukorban selama ini
Jika kasihku, jika hatiku
Kau guris oh oh oh...
Dalam tak sedar ku menangis

++sampai bila

2011-12-14T11:59:00.001+08:00

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
'i cannot live without him"??

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"better dpt laki panas baran, drpd dpt yg kaki perempuan"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"i cant find anyone better than him"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"he's the best, org lain sume x best"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"saye mmg mcm ni, cpt kesian kat org"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"tapi saye mmg baran, awak tau kan saye mmg mcm ni"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"dah mmg bukan jodoh"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"kite ade byk pilihan, try dan tgk lah dulu"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"keturunan saye mmg kedekot, x boleh nak watpe"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"i am too big to run, i am too heavy to run"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"belom puas enjoy, kite masih muda"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"sorry, henfon saye mati/x nampak henfon/ x cek sms/etc"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"saye kawan mcm biase je, dia yg concern lelebih, saye layan je"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"bini dia tu x keje, obsess sgt dgn laki dia, kitorg bukannye buat apepe"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"dia yg start, saye treat dia mcm kawan je"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"aku tanak rase sunyi je duduk rumah sorang2"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"for the sake of the children"

sampai bila??????????
kalo bukan kite sendiri yg mengubahnya.
no body is perfect, but, we can always try.
jgn jadi selfish sgt.

currently listening to:may-sendiri
currently feeling:tekanan
i wanna be:a supermodel

++tercabarnya

2011-12-13T15:46:00.001+08:00

siapalah aku ini untuk memintal buih yang memutih
menjadi permaidani sepertimana yg tertulis dlm novel cinta
juga mustahil bagiku menggapai bintang dilangit
menjadikan hantaran syarat utk milikimu
semua itu sungguh aku x termampu

silap aku juga kerna jatuh cinta
insan sepertimu seanggun bidadari
seharusnya aku cerminkan diriku
sebelom tirai kamar aku buka untuk mengintaimu

++the one with cleanliness

2011-12-12T14:55:00.001+08:00

Org tua2 bilang, kalo nak tgk anak dara tu pembersih or not, tinjau toilet dia.
If bersih, konfemmm..
Ni toilet pon bekulat, ade hati mengaku kau pembersih... Hek eleh.

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Holes inside :(

2011-12-11T22:24:00.001+08:00

When all that you've tried, leaves nothing but holes inside,
It seems like you're wired, to stay here held in time,
Cos nothing seems to change, oh no.
No nothing's gonna change, at all.
I can see it in your face, the hope has gone astray.

But if you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
Oh cos sometimes, fate and your dreams can collide.
So don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me.

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++K, I miss you!!

2011-12-10T17:27:00.001+08:00

Dear k,
I really deeply impatiently miss u!!!
I miss u i miss u i miss u :(((((((((

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++the one who forgive easily

2011-12-09T11:28:00.001+08:00

we talked alot lately. me & s.
the other day, we talked about depressions.
how we had handled depressions.
some people cant control themselves, they went higher than just crying. they went over cutting themselves up, wrist cutting for instance. sleeping pill. drugs abuse. drinking much. fighting over the urge to jump off a cliff.

some people like s, they isolated themselves in the room. they cant eat. tak lalu makan katenyer. they locked themselves up and they cried million tears. dont even have the appetite to watch tv.

me, on the other hand, eat, eat and eat. i eat, drink, sleep infront of the TV, on the couch. thanx to the iphone. no need to walk anywhere. one moment im awake, ill go digging the refridgerator to find foods. if im hungry i cant sleep. sleeping is the fastest remedy towards thinking which literally strucking migrain to the head. tv is always on the music channels mode. no heavy csi drama can do justice to the heart.

s said, maybe u r not being that broken, maybe the palat the ex did was not that max.
i said, oh man! u dont know. the palat he did was the palatnest of all the palats in the world. u'll commit suicide to these types of palats (literally again). its just that i am a person who handled it slowly. not extremely. and actually, its because i am already kebal to his palats. mcm hati kering gituh.

should i be able to feel hati basah?

i was asking myself, one day, a new man will make me happy, i promise. but, can i give him a wet heart.
am i gonna became this hati kering always?
and forgive people easily as always?
what will happen if he knows my weakness, at forgiving?
will he treat me like the ex treat me?

"Dan bersegeralah kamu kepada ampunan dari Tuhanmu dan kepada surga yang luasnya seluas langit dan bumi, yang disediakan untuk orang-orang yang bertakwa. (Yaitu) orang-orang yag menafkahkan (hartanya), baik diwaktu lapang maupun di waktu sempit, dan orang-orang yang menahan amarahnya dan memaafkan (kesalahan) orang, Allah menyukai orang-orang yang berbuat baik. Dan (juga) orang yang apabila melakukan perbuatan keji atau menganiaya diri sendiri, mereka ingat akan Allah, lalu memohon ampun terhadap dosa-dosa mereka, dan siapa lagi yang dapat mengampuni dosa selain Allah. Dan mereka tidak meneruskan perbuatan kejinya itu, sedang mereka mengetahui. Mereka itu balasannya ialah ampunan dari Tuhan mereka dan surga yang mengalir di bawahnya sungai-sungai, sedang mereka kekal di dalamnya, dan itulah sebaik-baik pahala orang yang beramal. (Qs. Ali Imran 133-136)."

insha allah. wallahualam.

plus, i'm always at the lowest confident mode all the time.
a friend said, 'ko mmg suke rase org taksuke ko, rase org benci ko, rase itu rase ini'
truth is, yes, im always feeling small. like im ugly. im slow. im poor. im this im that. i have very low self esteem. i always felt like people dont like me.
how some people can look into a mirror and said 'cantiknye saye or hemsemnye saye'
and asked me "lawa tak saye? or hebat tak saye?"
confidently.
bukan main2 or gurau2.
is beyond my capabilities.

++the one with hrc

2011-12-08T12:51:00.001+08:00

saya tulis mengenai keinsafan pada 1december tapi saya kalah
pergi semuala ketempat berdansa itu pada 3december.
saya kalah! dgn godaan.. dan hiburan.
lagipon housemate saya pergi tidur dgn org lain.

currently listening to:pokok
currently feeling:nada mood
i wanna be:a supermodel

++Romeo Juliet Part 1

2011-12-07T11:33:00.000+08:00

bagus banget ni donk

and find the continution at youtube...

++

2011-12-07T08:02:00.001+08:00

one part of love is sweet and easy, something we fall into and are swept away by. But the other part is hard: it requires discipline, willpower, and opening your heart again and again to someone with whom you are angry, can't stand, and do not like.

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++selamat hari raye

2011-12-06T19:05:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah
Selamat hari raya!
Syukur dah selesai bayar hutang2 puasa utk tahun ini dan esok akan beraya
Sudah terbayang yong tau fu di sooka.

Alhamdulillah..

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++

2011-12-06T18:58:00.000+08:00

"If you should ever need me Unfailingly I will return to your arms And unburden your heart And if you should remember That we belong together Never be ashamed. Call my name tell me I'm the one you treasure."

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++masa

2011-12-05T11:48:00.001+08:00

masa...
masa utk menjadi diri yg suram
yg mencungkil2 hujung alas tilam
dan menahan rindu kepalang
masa utk sering termenung sendiri
menyedari byknya tipu helah dan rayuan dan kejadian2 susulan
dan cercaan dan kejian dan umpatan dan gelakkan
dan sesalan

masa
masa untuk jalan terus lintasi masa itu
dan lawati masa yg baru yg indah yg bahagia yg riang
yg tak memperlekehkan keadaan

masalahnya dgn masa ialah
samada selama 9 tahun kami telah bersama
atau selama setahun kami berpisah ini..
ialah it took courage to finally set down the glass..

i am becoming u now. L.

currently listening to:adira hafis ombak rindu
currently feeling:rindu sgt sgt sgt
i wanna be:a supermodel

++Ombak Rindu

2011-12-02T15:53:00.000+08:00

Adira :
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Hafiz :
Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku

Adira :
Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hafiz :
Hujan bawa air mata ku
Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku
Agar dia tahu ku terseksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hafiz & Adira :
Hanya mampu terserah
Moga cahaya di penanti

Hafiz:
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya

Adira:
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Read more: http://www.liriklagumuzika.com/2011/10/lirik-lagu-ombak-rindu-hafizadira.html#ixzz1fMUOMXsl

++

2011-12-01T11:47:00.003+08:00

read this on sham's wall, cant help thinking, ya rabbi, insha allah, i'll do my very best...

Sham Kamikaze
'Masih segar dalam ingatan kita peristiwa Tsunami di Acheh pada 2004. Setelah berlakunya peristiwa tersebut, sekumpulan hamba Allah secara sukarela telah membuat usaha mencari mayat. Setelah selesai kerja pemburuan mayat,mereka ada masalah utk mengecam mayat tersebut adalah orang Islam/bukan Islam. Akhirnya, mereka bermesyuarat & membuat keputusan utk mengebumikan mayat mengikut pakaian yg dipakai. Jika pakaian org Islam, maka ia akan dikebumikan mengikut cara Islam. Sama kes di Bopal, waktu malapetaka kebocoran gas ribuan mayat bergelimpangan. Yg Hindu nak dibakar, yg Islam nak di sembahyangkan. Keputusannya, lelaki berjanggut disolatkan yg lain dibakar. Bayangkan jika berlaku letupan bom di kelab2 malam atau di pentas tarian (zumba, ballet dan sebagainya) di negara kita. Bagaimana untuk mengecam mayat tersebut kerana pakaian wanita Islam dan bukan Islam sama sahaja. Moralnya, pakaikanlah pakaian orang Islam kpd kita dan anak2 kita dan mohonlah kepada Allah agar dimatikan dalam pakaian orang Islam.'
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baby steps hasifah...
salam maal hijrah & awal muharram to all..
marilah kite same2 behijrah..

++Prettiest Friend

2011-11-29T10:42:00.000+08:00

++the one with sorry & thank u

2011-11-28T02:59:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we seek impression so much that we tend to be kind to a stranger or people we dont even know sometimes dont even meet yet, more, than we do to the people we know or be friends with.
Sometimes, thank u and sorry seems to be the hardest words.
Instead, Bodoh, bongok, or bangang seems trending.
We strive hard to not look arrogant but we failed at being one to the people who is actually around.
Sometimes its not easy to just say thank u or sorry, it doesnt sounds right at the time or at the place or it sounds weird or sometimes maybe just because it is too comforting or too constants that we tend to forget to thanx or apologize..
But sometimes, really, we are just being too arrogant.
I do hope and pray that i will not forget to thanx and apologize, or Ignorant about it.
Especially to the ones i love.
Baby steps..

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++Sedih

2011-11-26T20:08:00.001+08:00

Rase mcm nak ke perpustakaan atau kafeteria batu keras
:(
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++the one with bengang ness

2011-11-24T18:00:00.001+08:00

sape tahu cara nak hilangkan bengang di telinga?
(rase tekanan dlm telinga ketika naik tempat tinggi/ketebang tuh)
kejadian di telinga kiri sahaja.
pelik sungguh, i didnot went to a highland nor menaiki a plane recently pon...
done lompat2, ketuk2, masukkan air, tutup hidung mulut dan hembus, ubat titik from klinik.
all xde kesan.

im on MC today.
cuti i love.
but not this bengangness.

currently listening to:fantasia bulan madu
currently feeling:sad sikit, bengang byk
i wanna be:a supermodel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

++google me!

2011-11-23T23:52:00.001+08:00

helohai~
siapa tu yg google 'yance mmu sabahan'
yg menggunakan digi dan safari 1.3 (mungkin iphone user?)
oh dan ialah org yg same meng google 'hasifah videl cp'
hai, boleh berkenalan?
yup u found the right website..:D

*ade jugak org yg google 'videlkuchiki' lagi. 1 of them mmg yg kwn kpd kwn yg mmg suke bace blogni. so, im ok with that.

currently listening to:bunyi generator :))
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a rokstaaaaaaaaaaa

++saya mohon maaf

2011-11-23T14:58:00.001+08:00

saya mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd cikgu2 sekolah saya yg andartu..
yg dulu saya bangge2 becerita "alah dia tu andartu, tu psl garang semacam tu"
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannnya menjadi andartu..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye pula yg andartu..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd ex ex saya yg saya pernah kecilkan hatinya..
yg dulu saya pernah dump.. yg saye tetibe hilang dan tinggalkan begitu sahaja..
yg saya pernah kutuk dgn kawan2 saya..
saya kini tahu bagaimana perasaannya di dump juga..
perasaan ditinggalkan mcm tu sahaja.. perasaan bile dpt tahu sesuatu yg memedihkan hati...
perasaan bile saye pernah dikutuk juga oleh ex saye..
mungkin ini balsannye, saye pula yg di dump..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd orang2 gemok yg dulu saye mungkin pernah kutuk..
yg dulu saye bangge sgt saye kurus walaupon makan byk giler..
yg dulu saye suke laser kat mereka "buat ape nak diet2, aku xde diet2 pon"
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannya jadi org gemok,
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannye dah diet pon tapi x kurus2 juga,
makan lagi sikit drpd org kurus, tp, still gemok juga..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye pula yg gemok..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd orang2 yg x berapa nak cantik
yg dulu saye tak pandang sgt pon
saye kini tahu bagaimane perasaannye bile xde org pandang saye..
saye kini tahu bagaimane perasaannye bile dah takde org ngorat pon saye.. mcm dulu2..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye dah tak cantik mcm dulu..
(dulu kau cantik sgt ke nyah????)

saye mhon maaf sangat
maaf kpd watak2 drama/realiti yg suaminya kahwin 2..
yg dulu saye kutuk gile2
yg dulu saye dgn beraninya berkate "bodoh nye perempuan ni, minta sahajalah cerai"
saye kini sedar, cinta itu tidak mudah..
saye kini tahu, tidak mudah meminta cerai dan memulakan hidup baru..
saye kini tahu, letting go is as hard as waking up at 5am everymorning and jog around the house..
mungkin ini balasannye.. walopon x kawen lg, tp dia x kawen dgn saye :(

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf juga kpd watak2 drama/realiti yg mencintai/merampas suami org..
yg dulu saye mmg kutuk dan anti gila..
yg dulu saye dgn beraninye berkate "bodohnye takde ke laki lain dia nak cinta"
saye kini sedar, cinta itu tidak mudah
saye kini sedar, bile2 mase Allah boleh turunkan ia sbg bala kpd saye,
sbg balasan sbb suke kutuk org,, lalu dilimpahinya cinta yg membuak2 dihati saye keatas lelaki yg telah dimiliki.. (nauzubillah min zalik)

ya allah hentikanlah hukum karma mu ini..
aku menyesal...

++the one with companionship

2011-11-23T14:54:00.001+08:00

companionship - the state of being with someone; "he missed their company"; "he enjoyed the society of his friends"
fellowship, society, company
freemasonry - a natural or instinctive fellowship between people of similar interests; "he enjoyed the freemasonry of the Press"
friendly relationship, friendship - the state of being friends (or friendly)

relatively relevant.

how far, u, as a person, without specific degree in law, define a companionship?

forces of nature has it, it wont do justice to both parties..
one will step over the border and overlook and finally fall to other side of the fence.
the other one will try to avoid the other's side overflow by sliding away and run.

in the news today, the problem with the humanity is, the ones with the less feeling didnot slides, nor run. they don't bother. they're just being selfish..
they normally are the selfish types but doesn't realize it..
it is the job of the ones who overstep the border to stop and come back down.
but normally they too, doesn't realize it..

so they just stay. for the sake of the companionship.

dont let me start on the ones who suddenly fly on the fence and poop.

i was feeling that this need more elaboration, but in the end, no one agrees with anything.

currently listening to:scent of a woman
currently feeling:sad but happy but calm but urm..
i wanna be:happy. thats all.

++laugh

2011-11-21T19:17:00.001+08:00

How long have u been laughing at me?
*sudah berapa lama kah kau mentertawakanku?
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++greys anatomy season 8 ep 6

2011-11-19T12:04:00.001+08:00

As babies we were easy.
One cry meant you were hungry, another you were tired.
It’s only as adults that we become difficult.
We start to hide our feelings, put up walls.
It gets to the point where we never really know how anyone thinks or feels.
Without meaning to, we become masters of disguise.

…

It’s not always easy to speak your mind.
Sometimes you need to be forced to do it.
Sometimes its better to keep things to yourself though, even when your hole body’s aching to come clean.
So you shut your mouth, keep the secret and find other ways to make yourself happy.

- Meredith Grey (Season8, Ep.6-Poker Face)

currently listening to:p801 astro arena
currently feeling:scared
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with the reward points

2011-11-18T10:23:00.001+08:00

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
i totally ignored and didnot redeem any of my hsbc reward points my whole life!!!
and the last i checked (actually baru je check for the first time semalam),
and i found this (picture above), i have around 15k points expired already..
and that, i think, is the point from 2 years spending kot, kan?
oh man!
and now i wonder how many more has expired before before this???
since ive used the card since 2003.

*shud be more berkira from today onward!!!, every little penny spent must make and outcome back!

**dont let me start on the bonuslink points, mmg tak penah redeem or check. :((

***the current reward points + the expired ones, can give me a nice watch,
now that it has expired, i can only redeem perfume :(((((((((((((((

currently listening to:lagu kita
currently feeling:sadddddddddddddddddddddd
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with a soulmate

2011-11-17T09:39:00.001+08:00

while waiting in a qeueu for our popcorns, i ask a friend (A)...
i: "pelik kan, cemane sebiji corn tu boleh betuka bentuk menjadi sebiji popcorn tuh"
A: "sebab dia gunakan temperature yg sgt tinggi so the corn pop and betuka jadi popcorn:
...
of course lah i know they use a very high temperature pot to pop the corn.
plus, i am standing in front of the popcorn popper (alat membuat popcorn?)(wateva) tuh when i asked A.

then, the other day, while waiting for a movie to start (while eating the popcorns lah), i ask a soulmate (B) pula..
i: "pelik kan, cemane sebiji corn tu boleh betuka bentuk menjadi sebiji popcorn mcm nih"
B: "tulah kan! dia mcm sebiji kecik camtu, pastu jadi kembang camtu tuh"
i: "ya ya, dia mcm cemane ek, isi dlm jagung tu bermutasi dgn hot temperature tu boleh kembang jadi gitu"
B: "tuh ah, pawer org yg memula discover popcorn ni"
i: "mesti dia mcm tgh buat bubur jagung, tp tehangus, then aik, apo bondo bende kembang2 ni, eh eh sedap la puloppp"
*ketawa ketawa*

so, tell me now, how can people live with a total-opposite-chemistry-mate,
i mean yeah we can live with a total antagonist in such a way that we can actually be friend to each other,
eg: maybe with different cultures, different background, different jurusan in life, different character, or political views.
but not with different chemistry, especially if it is with regards to the conversation we have to face day to day.
without chemistry, i dont think i can lepak longer than 8hours with that person. maybe she/he can be a friend, but not a soulmate.

if u dont understand this entry, maybe we are just a friend...

currently listening to:flyfm radio (tgh iklan)
currently feeling:hungrayyyyyyy
i wanna be:a supermodel

++A Thousand Years

2011-11-16T09:28:00.002+08:00

couldnt stop wondering what would be my reaction to receive your wedding card in hand.. :(
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

All along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

++Decorate just in case u show up :(

2011-11-15T17:21:00.001+08:00

listen to the lyrics! listen! listen! yes you!

So you decided to see me out of the blue

Should I let you come over

I think you’re doing fine

That girl in your arms

Does she know where you come from

Almost made me move out of town

You don’t want me to be around

But I stayed anyway

Just in case

Finding reasons to hate you more than before

Like how you said you would call

But never at all

Got rid off your number that I know by heart

You left your things at my place

As if I have all the space

Cause you know I don’t mind

Just come back when you think it’s time

I’m all black and white inside

Monotonous from left to right

I decorate my house with things you love

Just in case you show up

In case you show up

++breathe

2011-11-14T19:10:00.001+08:00

my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you'd only try turning around.

currently listening to:anna nalick breathe
currently feeling:breathing
i wanna be:a supermodel

++Christina Perri - Arms

2011-11-12T19:31:00.000+08:00

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home

++

2011-11-11T18:09:00.001+08:00

Lololololllll

++the one with youtube

2011-11-09T16:31:00.000+08:00

uwaaaaaaaaaaaa:(( nangih bederai derai*
my youtube account has been suspended/terminated due to the copyright infringement...
i didnot check much this email huhuhu,
never had i thought that a video recorded by myself from a live concert pon is a copyright's infringement. :((
now, whr can i dig back alllllll my old videos, i tot youtube is already my external harddisk :(
ive already emailed them (mcm dah beratus2 emel) mintak recover balik :( tapi telah dibolayan (buat mase ini)

after youtubing back my name,
this all i can save:
my favourite playlist:
http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLF77A223C664CEAAE

currently listening to:megalomaniac
currently feeling:tensiiiiiiiii
i wanna be:rich and famos amos

++that little voice

2011-11-08T18:51:00.001+08:00

Tinyah banyunnn
Acak ayur..
God i miss that little voice!!!

(auntie ngah, bangun, masak sayur
Normally the order came from mom or sis, but new technology has it, use the little kid technique)
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++soalan

2011-11-04T18:11:00.000+08:00

What there's to complain about
ke
what's there to complain about?

*cube tgk lirik one republic-good life

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++the one who cant dance

2011-11-04T11:40:00.000+08:00

i can't dance!

yes, i was quite a little involved back at school (ahahaha sebenanye if compared to those tiny friends of mine je)
but that was techno. that was just some 'ace of base' simple moves, plus some other general senamrobik or cheerleading parodies.
i think it was quite basic, and i was so pissed with people who cant follow the steps, that time lah. i was that nerd.

but now? after almost 15years. i am a kayu. keras bediri teguh. kaki bangku.
i was out of the bits at all times, usually during HRC nite out or the equivalence.
berdiri tegak mcm menara klcc katenyer.

so, a few days back, someone cruel telah mengajak join this flash mob sort, and the theme is salsa dance.
they need 100 dancers.
mampooo?
imagine this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4l-agCzCUTE
ofcourse i said no (tp sebenanye hati ade mau. tp bile pikir mengenai the possibilities of the performance's wardrobe, aku pasrah)

but today, prem from flyfm mentioned that the top 10 jobs that must most definitely be avoided due to the highest possibilities of getting divorce is dancers!
pergh, terus perasaan nak join the flash mob tuh mencanak2...
adrenaline rush teruih.
gatalkah aku?

currently listening to:avril lavigne - smile
currently feeling: tah tatau
i wanna be:a supermodel

++hasifah yg sgt baik

2011-11-03T16:04:00.000+08:00

this entry akan memuji diri sendiri.

i had a chat with an old friend and she's a friend of him too.
we havent been talking since 3-4 years ago (i think), and of course the conversation would eventually came to the question about us (me & xyz).
(altho i tried hard to swerved away from that very topic)
basically these were something like what we've been talking..
(not in the same exact wording, tp, lebih kurang lah)

she: so, chepah dgn xyx bile lagi?
me: oh we were over. takde jodoh takkan kemane :))
she: omg?yeke? sory sory i mmg tatau, dah lame doh x jumpe korg etc etc..
she: bebudak mmu lain2 pon da lame x jumpe.. x sangke nye...
me: takpe takpe..
she: bla bla bla etc etc etc
me: hehehe
me: hnm kalo ade kekawan single2 tu kenal2kanlah :D:D:D
she: ala chepah mesti senang dapat jodoh, chepah sangat baik..

THERE!
i shall stop copying the conversation there.
i dont want to proceed any further. and pls discuss this.

*at the end of the conversation, i did mentioned to her that one of the criteria for the man i was looking for now is a virgin.
and she said this: "lelaki yg masih virgin ialah lelaki homo je"
LOL.

**ofcourse i was jokinh about that criteria.

***and i am asking S as i am typing this, "S, aku baik kan?"
and she is laughing out loud.

damn it.

currently listening to:jikustik tetap percaya
currently feeling:sleepy
i wanna be:a supermodel

++

2011-11-03T13:55:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you think you're already over the person but once you see him smile, you suddenly realize that you're only pretending to be over him in a desperate attempt to ease the pain

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Nicki Minaj - Super Bass By Sophia Grace Brownlee

2011-11-02T14:33:00.000+08:00

kepada S,
inilah video yg ku perkatakan sebentar tadi.
geram nak pelok budak ni keketat giler sampai dia xbleh begerak...

++california king bed

2011-11-01T08:22:00.000+08:00

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I been california wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My Californa king
Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
---oohhh next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I been California wishing on the stars
For your heart for me
My Californa King
Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused, when I asked you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming
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++ketam masak cos

2011-10-31T16:29:00.000+08:00

jalan2 tempohari, guek ngidam ketam pulak...
lalu, pergi membeli ketam2 di tepian jalan...

sebelom guek lagi terlupa..
ini ialah recipe memasak ketam ber sos yg lazat purr purrrr bunyi itik

mulanya,
tumis bawang putih dgn halia secukop rase
setelah naik baunya/garing, masukkan ketam2 yg telah dipotong ikot suke..
(gamba sebelom ketam betuka wane tidak diambilku pula nya pon)

masak dan tutupkan dgn penutup hingge ketam bertukar warne kpd warne merah sebegini...

then, masukkan sos (cili utk pedas, tomato utk yg kureng pedas) dlm 1/2 botol,
secubit garam
sesudu cuka
air tepung jagung
kacau2 kedlm kuali ketam tadi, dan masukkan 3 bijik telur...
dan, tadaaaaa....

serius sedap tak tipu!

currently listening to:keri hilson knock you down
currently feeling: mengantokkkkkkk
i wanna be:supermodel

++

2011-10-31T08:27:00.001+08:00

Some people just look so damn cool n kakkoi smoking/flicking their cigarettes!
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++the one with the public transport

2011-10-28T07:52:00.000+08:00

Busok shialllll amoi sebelah aku ni x mandi
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++

2011-10-28T07:48:00.001+08:00

#Capricorns may seem cautious and a bit cold but can be downright naughty

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++the one with pangkor 2011

2011-10-27T09:55:00.000+08:00

shhehhhhhhhhh enuff with the soap-opera-like entries already hasifah!

today's entry is regarding pangkor 2011

as most have heard, the initial plan was to hit redang or perhentian (i, for the record, havent been to any of those 2, some of the bffs dah pergi atlis one of them)

but, the monsoon dont do us justice, from mid october towards february is a no-no entry to the eastcoast beaches, jgnkan pulau, pantai2 tepi terengganu tu pon tidak digalakkan pergi nya.

so, we discussed and discussed: penang, langkawi, telok batik, pangkor, among other.

and we conclude pangkor would be the best selection among all.

plus, this is a gathering cum our dearest mazni's bachelorette party (per se)

and it is private (only for the ex-4 stooges +pojan +imah <-ofkos plus imah because she's one of the planner)

irina couldnt make it at the very last minute due to her mom's condition.so, there we go, only 5 of us.

i hope i make this clear to those who pm/ym/sms/email me why they wasnt invited. hehehe (diva sgt statement plis)

(read: sue, oag, lond, etc)

and then, here goes the itineraries of the trip:

1) RM50++ for the return bus trip from KL-LUMUT-KL

2) RM170 for the chalet for 3days2nites + jetty transfer + ferry ride lumut-pangkor-lumut + snorkeling trip + banana boat ride + jetski (tentatively kayak but we were tired so we exchange with jetski)

the chalet condition is OK noly, not tiptop i must say, but ok lah fot the price, but abit too small for the 5 of us to fit in only 1 chalet, i suggest 2 rooms nextime

(ofkos we dunno about this condition until we arrived, so, blasah ajelah, malas nak tuka2 etc)

3) RM120 for 5 for the 1st nite's seafood dinner (boleh makan 8 org ni sbb semua nya tak abih)

(telah disponsor oleh pengetua darjah cik imah)

4) RM100 for 5 for the 1nd nite's seafood bbq(pon boleh makan sampai 10 org ni sbb semuanya tak abis langsung byk gileeeee)

(pon telah disponsor oleh pengetua darjah yakni cik imah)

5) as usual there were awholelot of photossssssss and u can close this window now hehehh..

currently listening to:the fray - look after u
currently feeling:happy
i wanna be:a supermodel

++

2011-10-25T17:59:00.000+08:00

The reason he moved on so easily is because he never really cared.
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++

2011-10-21T15:57:00.002+08:00

halo there!
i'm on leave today!
happy XD

and will be heading north tonite, with the bffs
yay!!!~

currently listening to:rose online bgm
currently feeling:ok
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one who is playing the roseonline

2011-10-20T14:44:00.001+08:00

getting old is when u sleep at the rite time everyday,
but still, u cant resist feeling sleepy at works!
not even a lil bit.

the problem with my work-life-balance nowadays is im addicted to the online gaming
(yeah if u heard me before, ive been addicted to that game since 2005, but after awhile, i stopped, then addicted again at around 2007 or 2008 cant remember, and now, after 4-5years, the scenery is back! )

during the first few weeks unto this game, i slept around 2-3am sbb kiasu gile nak naikkan level until max.
(plus my in-game-partner, mr.xyz, ialah paling kiasu & langsi giler, dia sanggop berabih duit RM beli certain medals to double up the exp to make us levelling faster)
(and 4-5am during weekends that is..)
now that ive reached max (lvl 220 at this point), i only concentrated on the union wars,
which lasted 30mins and occurs every 2 hours.
oh i tell u wht, this war is very very addictive,
i didnot go to lunch (tapau only) semata2 to attend the war during lunch hour! ok!
so, to stick to my sleeping schedule, my last war is at 12-1230, so by 1240 i'll crawl back to the bed.
itupon sometimes i slept in between the wars, (the 2nd last war was at 10pm, abis at 1030, so i had 1 hour before the next war, kalo penat sgt, i'll nap in these hours lah)
(which i dunno what's so penat, nak kate aku keje buroh tak juga, i dont go to site/s, i work in an office, which dont require me to even walk (if i can tahan tak pegi toilet or lunch or buat air), tataula ape yg penat sgt, tp sgt penat, kdg2 i didnot drive pon pergi/balik kerja but still rase penat jugakkk,..).

this is calling for the body fitting.
i realised that my body is weak, day by day. letih without even making up.
i realised that the 10mins walk to-from lrt station - office, or sometimes, carpark - office are no longer enuff for me.
and i slept like an elephant. i dunno howwwwwwwwwww the hell that happen!
but i am stressed!

so, the solution is, i need to exercise.
oh dear lord. why is exercise is not as exciting as playing the online game?

currently listening to:train if its love
currently feeling:sakit2 badannnnn
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with the floor decoration

2011-10-17T11:56:00.002+08:00

i was just wondering, what happens when/if i/anyone else terpijak the decoration on the floor?
adakah aku akan dicincang?

currently listening to:my boo
currently feeling:wengggg
i wanna be:a supermodel

++Orang Bilang

2011-10-13T17:23:00.000+08:00

indahnya suara kamoooo!

++HANOI 2011

2011-10-13T13:59:00.000+08:00

this is an old entry.
as many had already knew, we fly to hanoi last 2 weeks and i would like to recap few important details about the trip here.

1. bodega hostel ~usd 26 for 4days 3nites.
yupp, this is just a hostel, actually i was imagining a dormitary,
but fortunately we got a big room with 2 queen beds! with aircond + free wifi!
and bath tub and hot water and daily breakfast.

2. 1day halong bay tour ~usd25
(includes: bus ride to halong bay, boat ticket, entrance fee, lunch, tour guide)

3. 1day haolu tamcoc tour ~usd25
(pon includes: bus ride, boat ticket, entrance fee, lunch, tour guide)

4. usd 17/4person for the airport transfer to hotel.

pictures on 1st day:

pictures on 2nd day:

pictures on the 3rd day:

pictures on day 4..

currently listening to:neyo one in a million
currently feeling:ngantok sgt2
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one who wants to retire and have fun travelling

2011-10-12T11:15:00.000+08:00

how i wish i can be a rich girl
who, can travel & take pictures & learn something new everyday...
without having to think about all the expenses.
and i am truly envied towards this person (yg i read his blog from pojan's i think)
i wish to be him! huhuhu

http://stillwahdi.blogspot.com/2011/10/quick-update.html

currently listening to:broery marantika angin malam
currently feeling:mengantuk yg sgt
i wanna be:a supermodel

++happy + susah hati

2011-10-11T14:42:00.001+08:00

do u know that u can be happy but susah hati at the same time?

for the 1st example i can think of is car..
i think its not about how i can afford or not a new car
by affordable, i mean something i can pay monthly (the installment, the maintenance, fuel consumption sbb aku mmg taksuke taksuke taksuke naik public transport eventho the office is located at kl sentral)
i KNOW that i can be very2 beyond happy if i buy an expensive car, handsome giler berkilau2 dipanah matahari..sedap giler bile drive, pergi memane org pandang hehehe
but i can be susah hati at the same time, given my daily parking place is not very secure and ofcourse with no roof, i'll be like cacing panas in the office thinking that something might happened to him. which might dragged one's personal opinion for me to buy the roof-ed parking in kl sentral, which for me, i dont think they still have vacant monthly passes, and daily tickets are around rm40. yeah, times that to 24days. jyeah!
and then, there comes the 2nd problem, my apartment. we dont have any roof parking space/s. so, there. how do i translate susah hati into this position of mine?
susah hati, takut kene curi is one. susah hati takut calar, panas, rosak, hujan, kotor are the whole another reasons..

its like when u're dreaming of getting a very handsome and gentleman husband..
i know i can be very susah hati thinking someone can kinda steal him away from me, yelah, kalo dia handsome, takkan dia handsome kat mate kite je, mestilah dia akan handsome juga dimate perempuan lain.. dan kalo dia gentleman gila, takkan dia brutal/cruel towards other woman?
chances are, some other woman might fell in love, eventho he doesnt mean to be a nice guy.
eh?
sbb i have a friend who fall head over heels towards this one husband org, yg kemudiannya dipanggil 'mr nice guy', bermula dgn eeee sweetnye dia ni, baiknye, lame2 she couldnt help praying everyday that he would ditch his wife and marry her. doa doa doa... hnmmm...

*kalo dia handsome kat mate kite je, org lain x rase dia handsome pon, tu bukanlah handsome name nye yeh.

should stop dreaming about getting a handsome+gentleman husband now..

currently listening to:only one yellowcard
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with the suami baran vs player

2011-10-11T11:10:00.001+08:00

i have a friend who has been abused by the husband
not literally abuse as in sampai dah nak mati dah minah tuh,
but we know the limit. her husband is a 'baran' type and everybody already knew it.
the problem is everytime that happend, she always protected the husband and always kept on saying 'better dpt laki baran, drpd dpt laki kaki perempuan'
recently, the husband's anger shown in a physical way.
we can see the lebams on her's. there's a broken chair too, and when i accidentally said "huhu kejamnye laki ko", she said
"better dpr laki baran, drpd dapat laki kaki perempuan"
(yeap, one of us is having a player husband/bf/etc)

i dunno what to say anymore..

currently listening to:titian perjalanan
currently feeling:sakit kepala & perot
i wanna be:a supermodel

++

2011-10-10T17:45:00.000+08:00

Letting go of someone special is hard but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder.

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++fix you

2011-10-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face

++

2011-10-06T10:46:00.002+08:00

We see a path, and we take it.
even when we have no idea where we're going.

++water retention much

2011-10-05T16:15:00.000+08:00

Ya allah!!
Setelah membancuh se mug besar air teh o from the pantry,
Baru ku teringat ade satu botol air yg blok diminum (yg telah dicampur dgn madu)!!!
Dan skrg ialah 415pm , esok ialah ku ambil cuti..
So, i have less than an hour utk abiskan a litre of air madu and a mug of air teh o when my stomach is actually still bloating sbb lepas lunch tadi ade sesi lepak2 diskas pasal forex sambil minum sparkling juice ditingkat bawah.
Matai!

++Bad Meets Evil - Lighters ft. Bruno Mars

2011-10-04T10:22:00.001+08:00

been trying to rap to this song, bapak susah giler!!!..
(shud stick rapping back to gangsta's paradise & alhamdulillah aahhahaha:)))

love the part eminem's higher angry mode during 2nd line this:"i wd never do nothing to let u cowards fuck my world up" when my mind imagining a lower tone of angst there.
ok, aku tatau camane nak terangkan nya pun.

Excuse me if my head is too big for this building
And pardon me if I'm a cocky prick but you cocks are slick
Poppin shit on how you flipped ya life around, crock-o-shit
Who you dicks try to kid, flipped dick, you did the opposite
You stayed the same, cause cock backwards is still cock!! you pricks!!

haha, love that part too.

++trauma menaiki kereta laju

2011-10-03T00:40:00.004+08:00

Tadi mengantok sgt, skrg xbleh tido pule..
Terbayang2 lagi keadaan kereta yg dipandu laju tahap sakit jantung mengucap panjanggggggggggggggggggggg sangat..
Mcm kene rasuk setan pemandunya
Aku x berenti2 pijak2 lantai seolah ade 2nd break pula..
Dlm kepala ligat pikir betape byknye dose aku x sempat bertaubat..
Terus rase nak botak kepale balik rumah nnti sbb baru lepas warnekan rambut..
Serious mmg dah byg kubur je..

Ape yg boleh aku buat?Nangis mcm biase.
Rase nk becakap dgn samwan tp tatau..
Bes sgt kalo ade org pelok and tell me everything's gonna be allright..Oh well...

++

2011-10-02T00:37:00.001+08:00

Tibe2 rase mcm xde mood..Hnmmm

++the one who has already grown up

2011-09-28T16:31:00.002+08:00

somebody googled the bbq picture in the link below and i read it back from the feedjit.
read this:
http://videl-kuchiki.blogspot.com/2009/06/one-with-last-bbq.html

and these are what happened nowadays:
1) karaoke are almost impossible. not even for once in3 months!
everybody with each/own's excuse/s. the most we can gather were like 4 people and the usuals. its either me xyz zhaf, or me xyz and pasangan suami isteri ama&nana.. itupon if only we had any makan2 session before and then we proceed to karaoke. jgn harap la nak ajak karaoke semate2.

2) jamming? make it once in a year! or maybe they didnot invite me anymore.

3) weekend gateway what? we hardly see each other even at the most middle mall of all the places in klang valley pon!!: midvalley megamall (i consider this is the center of all the places we live in: ampang/kajang/damansara/subang)

4) lepak, toksah harap.

5) online gaming. it was ages since then. cuma beberape hari ni we started again, playing rose-online.
i do hope it can kill boring times as i did recently subscribed the unifi package under the company.
so, there goes.

6) movies: only the few 5stars movies, if not, tgk je la sorang2 kat cineleisure tu.

currently listening to:nothingness
currently feeling:mengantuk giler
i wanna be:a supermodel

++home office

2011-09-28T16:09:00.003+08:00

kau mampoo?

++the marriages

2011-09-27T00:51:00.002+08:00

Even good marriages fail.
One minute you're standing on solid ground.
The next minute... you're not.
And there's always two versions...
Yours...
and theirs.
You...
I...
Both versions start the same way, though.
Both start with two people falling in love.

Nobody gets married
thinking it's gonna fail.
You think yours is the one that's gonna make it.
And so it always comes as a shock...
the moment when you realize, it's over.
One minute you're standing on solid ground.
The next minute you're not.

Do you have what it takes?
If your marriage is in trouble,
can you weather the storm?
When the ground gives way...
and your world collapses...
Maybe you just need to have faith...
And trust that you can
survive this together.
Maybe you just need to hold on tight...
And no matter what...
Don't let go.
When my mother left my father,
she didn't tell him she was leaving
and taking me with her
until we'd landed on
the other side of the country.
In those days,
it was called family troubles.
Today it'd be called kidnapping.

You think that true love is the only thing
that can crush your heart...
the thing that will take your life
and light it up...
or destroy it.
Then...
you become a mother.

from greys anatomy s8ep01&02

++the crying

2011-09-25T23:38:00.002+08:00

Menangis. Tiba tiba.
Padahal baru balik dari long vacation ke hanoi.
Seeking solace lah sangat!!!
Ni sume salah greys anatomy! I hate derek shepherd!

++the one with archie part2

2011-09-14T21:16:00.000+08:00

so i have very tight budget this month, and month after
and after after, and so on..
and i went to digital mall to fix archie (instead of replacing him)
and tadaa, here i am blogging on him. hahaha, hehehe..
had to buy a new adaptor (eh adaptor doesnt worth few penny only these days,
especially for the old model like archie tau) but alis, better than buying a new laptop.
hehe again. relief.

currently listening to:leona lewis better in time
currently feeling:better
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with the talk box

2011-09-14T19:16:00.001+08:00

We just discover the talk box apps today, and everybody was so jakon i wish i can upload their voices in the talk box above here!!

++the one with baju kurung same

2011-09-13T16:53:00.000+08:00

picture was taken on this year's aidilfitri.
the funny thing is, sue said that the baju kurung we wore that day (almost the same pattern of cloth) is an 'IN' thing now.
i bought that kain 4-5years back, and it cost me only rm20 (if im not mistaken).
tak funny eh?
hnm..

currently listening to:broery marantika-angin malam
currently feeling:T_T
i wanna be:a supermodel

++ANGIN MALAM

2011-09-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

someone is singing this song at an openhouse (or probably a kenduri, am not sure which)
at one of my fren's openhouse's neighbour..
it was giving me a goosebumps really, the sweetness voice plus the good musician, plus the tremendous sound system kot.
makcik rumah sebelah (the owner) siap lambai2 suruh dtg masuk rumah... erk + gulp..

to be honest, ive never heard this song before...
best la pulopp...

Berhembus angin malam
Mencengkam menghempas
Membelai wajah aku
Itulah kenangan yang terakhir darimu

Kudekati dirimu kau diam
Tersungging senyuman di bibirmu
Itulah senyuman yang terakhir darimu

Alam yang jadi saksi
Kau serahkan jiwa raga
Angin tetap berhembus
Tak henti

Walaupun sampai akhir hayatku
Tapi tak lagi kau berada di sisiku
Oh... angin malam bawalah daku
Kepadanya... oh... oh...

there! 3 posts in a row! sangap giler kot.

++mimpi sedih

2011-09-12T21:26:00.000+08:00

diiiiiiiiiiiiriiiikuuuuuuu
tak pernah lepas dari penderitaan..
mimpi yang kini terjadi...

kauuuuuuuuu pergi setelah aku serahkan kasi suci
itulah nasib diriku.....

++the one with the laptop selections

2011-09-12T16:48:00.000+08:00

should buy the ones yg ber gayak?:

or agak affordable (pon still kena swipe wang keras) but more features (like the hdd capacity & dvd/rw) like these?

or shud buy the damn camera first?
ah pokaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii lah ahkakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

currently listening to:adele-someone like you
currently feeling:tensi
i wanna be:a supermodel