++the one piece

ive been busy watching the one piece
and i miss that little rascal above.
the way she always sneaked in between us
and kissed.

currently listening to:no promises
currently feeling:mengantuk gila
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one who mimpi kawen

malam tadi mimpi ngeri.
ni semua gara2 teringat kisah kawan aku ituh.
aku mimpi aku kawen! tp dgn lelaki yg langsung x kenal dan x cinta.
haaaamek ku. T________T
entah macamana dtgnya, tp, dia pon x cintaa aku.
wujud pula watak2 yg lain, juga x dikenali, bertaanya pada sang suami.
"kenapa dowh, kau pilih dia? nak kate lawa, x lawa ponnnn"
dia menyeringai menunjukkan barisan gigi sambil garu2 dagu.
"aku, hnm, entahla, aku kesian kot"
dan diorg tgk aku dari jauh, sambil gelak mengekek.

cibai lah. dlm mimpi pon org gelakkan aku hodoh.

:(

yg sedih lagi, org kata (bukan aku kata), mimpi is the opposite of what's gonna happened.
oh, adakah aku takkan kawen?

wow. duduk dibirai katil menguis kain cadar sambil air mata meleleh perlahan.
begitu.

currently listening to:the sound of silence
currently feeling:weird
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with family's arrangement

tiba2 aku teringat kisah kawan aku yg satu tu.
dia yg bercinta bagai nak rak dgn lelaki lain (jejaka A), tp dipaksarela berkahwin dgn lelaki lain.
it is not that she dont love the one she is supposed to marry, but, she loves the former bf more.
saat2 akhir bertelingkah dgn keluarga, setelah byknya ya amat ya, rintangan dan dugaan, dia akhirnya redha dan pasrah je.
sbb malas nak bertekak dan pertahankan cinta agung dia tuh.

its not helping that the former bf has alot of minus points in the family's eyes.

selepas itu aku mula kenal the now husband. dia. katakanlah jejaka B. baik juga orgnya.
from what i gather, he is also accepting her, not because she is his lover, but due to the family arrangement jugak. he is just mangsa. mcm tu. kesian, i pity him so much. sbb dia pon mcm takdela nak kawen sgt kan, tp terpakse kawen due to usia yg dah meningkat and family push gegila, tp lagi kesian bila dia dpt tau pompuan tu ade former bf yg dia sgt sgt syg, so, dia mcm trapped in a situation but trying to be husnuzon begitu.

aku tataula akhirnya aku kesian kat siapa, but she is my friend, a good friend, so i have to be on her side lah kan.
on the 1st few phase of that arrangement, my friend rebelled alot. (betol ke ni ejaan aku? lantakla)
i had to, once, help her lying to the parents & jejaka B too.
not that i enjoyed lying, but, being someone's 'A team' was kinda kinky that time.
aku ckp dia ade dgn aku, tp sebenanye dia keluar dgn jejaka A.
aku kesian sebenanye. ko syg orlen, ko kene kawen dgn orlen.
altho she didnt hate the future husband (jejaka B) pon, but, the heart wants what the heart wants kan.
and she kept asking me, what if i was in her shoes, what would i do.
i hesitated long enough to finally said that, i'll kill myself.
haha drama sungguh aku, bebuat mcm ade pilihan tp takdo sapo nak kat aku kan.

sehinggalah suatu hari, jeng jeng jeng....

tbc...

currently listening to:fireflies
currently feeling:cranky
i wanna be:a supermodel