++395 the one who dunno what married is?

i've been meaning to write this entry for quite some attemp actually, tp, adalah tehenti ditgh2 berpikir, kerana takut menyinggung mana mana pihak.

people, not only once, not only twice, but almost trillion times have been asking the same very question, that, u sure know. "When am i going to get married."
that, i dont bother sgt lah kot (kdg2 mcm buat bodo sudeyyy).
butt, precisely then, came this 2nd top off question above that later question, which is, "kau dan atuk tu bile nak kawen"

for fast, i think only one, people has been meaning to know when we'll be breaking up (again). because we broke off like what? 888times?
why people want to exactly know when we'll be getting married?
are they 'muak' melihat kami? or they are already tired of all the dramas in our life? or simply because they tak sabar nk dengar kitorg break?

i dunno why i felt emo this time that i dare to write this one out.
tp, adalah rasa terhina sometimes.
especially when people are judging. ofkosss, i, too, was being all curious of when will we get married, but then, adakah wajib apabila kita telah bersama berdua kesana kemari berdua utk akhirnya berkahwin berdua?
ofkosssssssss, i wanted to marry him. if he ever propose.
tapi, dont lah put the pressure on my shoulder by questioning about us, sometimes, about the religion tuh sume.
poning la kopalo ayo ni aaa.
kdg2 rase malu dgn soalan2 mcm tu. its like people are laughing at me, like people are trying to prove to me that we will never gonna work out. that we wont succeed in whatever we are trying to accomplish.
its not like they were asking the man, ask me buat ape?

ah kalo kawen, kawen. kalo x kawen, kite beli dildo je nanti.
muahahaha.
(*tak tak, tu ayat tu tipu, aku nak kawen! ok! nak ade anak nak ade femili!)

currently listening to:colbie callait - bubbly
currently feeling:ashamed
i wanna be: