++ a silence i can't ignore ++: November 2009

Monday, November 30, 2009

++451the one who was once a 15

and this is the original video (yg tiada embedded version) :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cKosW0b8J5M
and this one acoustic version yg bestttttt (pon xde embedded version):http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cKosW0b8J5M

please take note that i was/am rewinding the 'taylor swift - 15' song while i wrote this
and to those lyrics, i tried to imagine wat was my 15years old sounds like *omg* 13 years ago *omg*
i mean ofkos it was nothing compared to taylor swift's, it is wayyy back from her 15years old..
i was all nerd and naive and stubborn and stupid and wearing those big very big tshirts with lousy trackbottom and ahaha yeah sgt sgt sgt stupid indeed.
i think her 15 years old time happened when i was 20 kot. lagging giler.
when people that i know of had already know how to melancap already, i dont even know what fuck is. err mcm tipu je? but seriously, not really know kot.. just a little imagination from "something wonderful" judith mcnaught's novel je kot.
ahh well, i had my first period pon during this age je pon, what more can i say kan..

i was in an all-girl school, ofkos i was nerd. and naive. and i remembered i was one of them who anti-lelaki. :)) was the president or somesort. wateva lah kan. it all started when one(or many) from some stupid all-boys school wrote some F.O.D. words and that sorts in a letter and the hiatus goes on for awhile jugak (altho at that time i already started a crush towards some pakcik lab and serious crush keatas jonathan brandis sampai kantoi tulis notes kat mazni about lovebite ahahaha.. talking about being defensive kan.. nak gak ngaku anti lelaki tuh kan..)

and i remembered clearly how at one time we girls had to befriended with some small students from watever school in KL (i think they were 13 or maybe even 12!!!) and i dunno what we became? kakak angkat? entahlah.. but one day tuh, we had a suka-suki basketball game with them, and tah cemane tah one of them TER-hugs me from behind. dia mcm tgh lari2 rebut bola and tersadung ape tah dan prapppp i was the closest human being and he couldnt stop from accidentally hugs me from behind.. yeah, that was my first ugly touch from man. poorly captured. damn. i was nerd!! and people are laughing, what more can i say???

and then there was this 'history' subject test where the garang-teacher threaten us, if u got lower than 80 (ke?), u have to berjemor at the 'padang-hitam' till school ends.
padang hitam is a padang ber-TAR yg sgt panas dan ditengah2 diantara bilik guru dan bilik2 darjah. everybody in the school can see u there. being all sympatatic and silly, we all had this lousy aggreement between us, we all promised each other to help each other by re-adjusting the answers of the paper we have to mark. so then, there, everybody kawtim lah to tipu ini. AKAN TATAPI, adelah 2 or 3 people who were not cooperating and with that, terdapatkan 2-3 org yg dpt lower than 80 so those 2-3 people had to berjemurlah ditengah panas tersebut.
again, being all sympatatic and silly, we all had another discussion among us to mengaku buat salah. dan mengaku telah menukar jawapan2 kawan2 kami supaye semorg dpt A.
miahahahahhaha. maka, selepas itu, kami semua telah dihadapkan ke muke pengadilan. :)) lawakkk sehhh..
pastu glemer sekejap kelas 3jaya tuh. kene lecture dlm meeting room selame i dunno howlong, tp, mcm ade sesi menangis2 gak kot sepam. mcm bodooooooooooooo~

and then there was the internet story. jaring was first introduced during this time. 1995 tau. and we were hanging out at the internet room sokmo. chatting with ntah siapa2 ntah from oversea. quite some times i think one of us had some saiko talk with some other continents who spoke about islam and suchs.
tahapehape je. and that days, i was more obsessed with actors pictures kot. like bradpitt. hence the first time of looking at gambar b0gel. gamba b0gel bradpitt indeed. nerd tak saye? :D heeeee. dont even talk about porn ok. i was naive.

wat else happened at 15 ya.

and ohyeah the komuter system. was 1st introduced during that time kan. we were all jakon, naik komuter pergi carrefour kat subang :))
dan yeah carrefour pon mcm baru2 nak up time tuh kot...
tempat lepak pula, mcm biase, ialah mcD the Mall.. or else, dewan makan :))
boohooo~

and statistically speaking, 15 was the year when i turn into giant! i turn from a 144cm kid to 164cm. i think mostly because sudah akil baligh :D:D
..and if i could write how my weight turns into the figure it is today, i would diee to go back to this year!!! it was like the differences of an elephant to a goat.

here goes some pictures for remembrance. kohkohkoh.

taylor switft - 15
You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way

It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
"You know, I haven't seen you around before"

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We'll be outta here as soon as we can

And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one
And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin 'round
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind and we both cried

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors