Wednesday, June 30, 2010

++selamat malam

Biarkan berlalu
Semua kepedihanmu
Lelapkan matamu
Biarkan mimpi membawamu
Ke mana kau mahu
Selamat malam
Tidurlah sayangku
Siang kan tiba bercahaya
Bermula baru semua untukmu

Biarkan berlabuh tirai kisah semalam
Yang indah itu ada padamu
Dengan setiap impian dan harapan
Selamat malam
Tidurlah sayangku
Siangkan tiba bercahaya
Bermula baru semua untukmu

Kan ku menjadi arjuna dalam mimpi-mimpimu
Kan ku panah tepat ke jiwamu atas nama cintaku
Pari-pari ku utus bawa kau ke sini lagi
Terhapus semua air mata dengan senyuman

Selamat malam sayang
Selamat malam kasih
Selamat malam sayang

Selamat malam sayang
Selamat malam kasih
Selamat malam sayang
Tidurlah sayangku
Siangkan tiba bercahaya
Bermula baru semua untukmu

Selamat malam
Tidurlah sayangku

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

++the one who menggelupor~


my car broke down today, not something like 'in the middle of nowhere tragedy' but disaster enuff to make me cry instantly.
i was trying to start the car after works, but, setiap kali hidupkan enjin, dia tidak hidup, dia terus bebunyi2 alarm.
menggelupor menggelupor
*read: badan menjadi lembek seperti agar2 yg helpless*
i was panicked, alarm tidak bejaye dimatikan, kereta tidak bejaye dihidupkan. walopon telah tekan punat kecemasan tuh..
selepas penat.. ok lah dia behenti bebunyi.. legaaa..
tapi sejurus selepas saye memusing kunci untuk menghidupkannye, ia kembali menjerit bunyi alarm tuh..
panic attack.
"nak call sape ni?? nak call sape niiiiiiii????"
susahnye takde bf:((
takkanlah nak call OAg yg jauh di sgbuloh tuh lagi?
(i had to be admitted to the clinic the other day and i couldnt drive, i couldnt even speak to begin with, so, i called and had to dragged oa down all the way from sgbuloh to muti4ra d4mansara and urged her to hurry to even left her 6months old son for me. huhuhu sori menyusahkannnnn ko OA!!! only to teringat yg i had kwn who live nearby who can help bring me to the nearest clinic, another story in another entry)
so, back to the car incident.
there are no bengkel that i know of nearby, and it was already 730pm.
dah setengah jam dah kereta bebunyi, kang mati pulak beteri!!!!!!
menggelupor menggelupor..
kalau kat area rumah, ofkos i would drag my ass of to the bengkel kaler kuning tuh.
jeng jeng jeng, keluarlah my knight in the shining armor..
*yg sebenanye ialah suami isteri india yg kebetulan lalu.
rupanya, my battery is weak. they both sgt baik hati, help me jump the battery from their car.
sekian sahaja masalah remaja saye hari ini.
saye harap saye ade boifren segera supaya saye tidak betindak menelepon org2 yg tidak anda ingini.

currently listening to:-
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a supermodel

++when i look at you

Everybody needs inspiration,
Everbody needs a song.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's so long.
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy.

Yeah when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.

When I look at you,
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth.
You love me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon,
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.

Yeah when my world is falling apart,
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.

You, appear just like a dream to me.
Just like kaleidoscope colors,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't you know you're beautiful!


When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I look at you, Yeah, Woah.

You, appear just like a dream to me.

Monday, June 28, 2010


this song has never failed me..
it helps me cry. eventho the lyrics doesnt signified lovebreak.. lantakla, janji boleh layan meraung..

Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello I am the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Sunday, June 20, 2010

++after month

she didnot always talked about the future,
but whenever she did talks, he took her hands, and hold tight and said
"kite kumpul duit dulu ye sayang"
poor poor, she didnot reckon a false hopes.

ya allah kenape rinduuuuuuuuu sgt niiiiii
please make me strong, please.

im sorry, i just had to let this out.
couldnt resist.

currently listening to:your song
currently feeling:this is utter sadness
i wanna be:really2 strong

Saturday, June 19, 2010

++leap year

May you never steal, lie or cheat
But if you must steal, steal away my sorrows
If you must lie, lie beside me all the days of my life.
And if you must cheat, cheat death.
Because I could not live a single day

without you
-Leap Year

++bye bye bye

What's gonna happen to you?
You have woke up too soon and found the world rearranged.
And now your feelings have changed.

Say goodbye to before.
"Bye, bye, bye."
You are not welcome anymore.

The door's been shown to you.
"Bye, bye, bye."
But only if you go through.

You run into the night.
No sound, no vision, no sight.
And no words to explain, just smell; tints of change.

Whats gonna happen to you?
"Bye, bye, bye."
You have woke up to soon.
And the world is rearranged.
And now your feelings have changed.

Oh, today I saw a shadow.
And I had the feeling there would be another.
One in the wintertime and one in the summer.

"Bye, bye, bye."

When the river was still, we would not help ourselves.
It's very easy to do.
We never needed to.
And the birds are high.
"Bye, bye, bye."
Started a fire in the forest.
Can you remember the day-
"Bye, bye, bye."
We had to separate?
And nobody knows what's tearing us apart.
Cause we're part of one another.
A son and a father, a mother and a brother.
When the river was still.
"Bye, bye, bye."
We would not help ourselves.
"Bye, bye, bye."
It's very easy to do.
We never needed to.

Oh, today I saw a flower.
And I had the feeling there would be another.
One in the wintertime and one in the summer.

Whats gonna happen to you?
What's going to happen?
What's going to happen?
What's going to happen?
What's going to happen to you?
You have woke up too soon.
What's going to happen to you?
You have woke up too soon.
What's going to happen to you?
You have woke up to soon.
What's going to happen to you?
"Bye, bye, bye."

Friday, June 18, 2010

++bintang by anima

Kan ku abaikan
Sgala hastratku
Agar kamu tenang dengan nya
Ku pertaruhkan
Semua ragaku
Demi dirimu bintang

Biarkan ku menggapaimu
Tidurlah kau di pelukku
Di pelukku
Di pelukku

Biar ku tunda
Segala hasratku
Tuk miliki dirimu
Karna semua
Tlah tersiratkan
Dirimu kan milikku

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

++bila cinta

Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Yang ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Bila engkau pergi

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Ternyata memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan
Dalam harapan

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


Tgk wayang alone... Huk huk huk
its been a while...

or isit i had never watch movie alone in the cinema before ek?

Monday, June 14, 2010

++Day 24

That has taken quite a lot from my life. Maybe I'm not that prepared after all

currently listening to:coldplay - in my place
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:be a supermodel

Sunday, June 13, 2010

++i'll stand by you

Oh, why you look so sad? Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now.
Don't be ashamed to cry, let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you, you don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess could make me love you less
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
So, if you're mad get mad, don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide? I get angry too
But I'm alot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads, don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along, cause even if your wrong
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
Take me into your darkest hour, and I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you.
And when, when the night falls on you baby, you're feeling all alone,
You won't be on your own, I'll stand by you. I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you. I'll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour and I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you.
currently listening to:i'll stand by u
currently feeling:unwell
i wanna be:superstar

Thursday, June 10, 2010

++why does it still feel like yesterday???

i knew that i had wrongly misdefine quotes from the shawshank redemption.
'some things best left unsaid'
now i that i've learned, it is better not to kept quiet.

i mean how would u react to the fact that he doesnt love you
and had been meaning to leave u?
from other people's mouth?
i mean how can u possibly take that very important objective in your relantionship for granted? that is not some 'some things', that is the most important thing to tell. that is not to be kept left unsaid. that should be told.
have i said that is important?
and hearing it from the least likely person u ever wanted to speak to?
that was atrocious.

oh god, this is looooooong healed process, isnt it?
i felt like i wanted to hold blades real tight to cut my eyes open so i dont have to see future.

"has no one told u she's not breathing? hello"
currently listening to:evanescence - hello
currently feeling:depressed
i wanna be:a supermodel

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

++the one with b&s season 4 finale

**spoiler's alert**

OMG robertttttttttttttttttttttttt :(((((

i know i'm late, but OMG to the ending of bothers & sisters season 4.
why robert??? whyyy???
uwaa mengapakah semua tv series harus ended secara kejam (read: greys anatomy + bro n sisters)


the song that rocked our years in vista kan nih?
i suddenly rindukan zaman kegemilangan tahun 2002 when listening back to this song.
i miss being happy and all naive and innocent and sweet and
the most important thing is
i miss those butterflies in the stomach moments.
i miss bukit bangsar
(not like i didnot pass-thru the bukit everyday afterworks, but being alone in the car is never the same)
i miss midnite movies
i miss weekend's movie marathon
i miss skipping classes
i miss doodling in the class too.
i miss all the single friends, i can just click and pick, everyone was so available to go out with.
i miss nokia 3310
i miss wearing baju kurung selepas kuliah and window shopping at mng midvalley megamall.
i miss working at the flowershop at midvalley tuh.
i miss mapley bangsar
i miss irc, i miss #exsbp, i miss temankan jjay to her blinddates
did i mention i miss midnite movies?
and, i miss u.

"Graduation (Friends Forever)"

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Sunday, June 6, 2010

++the one with skin

"The skin is the largest organ in the body.
It protects us.
Hold us together.
Literally lets us know what we are feeling.
The skin can be soft and vulnerable...
Highly sensitive... easy to break.
It takes delicacy and sensitivity.

No matter how thick-skinned we try to be...
there's millions of electrified nerve endings in there...
Open and exposed...
And feeling way too much.
Try as we might to keep from feeling pain...
Sometimes, it's just unavoidable.
That's the only thing left.."
-meredith grey, 623-

and. i hate april kepner, i wish she was shot in episode 23. butthen, as usual, bitches will always stay long.

currently listening to:your song
currently missing the weekend of funs
i wanna be:lisa surihani:))

Friday, June 4, 2010

++penang 2010

i didnot go to work at all lastweek. accept on wednesday, itupon pergi dan main2 bejeweled blitz from morning till evening without wanting to think of anything especially about work!
i felt numb.
so came friday morning, i did the most gamble thing i've ever done.
i packed my stuffs,
drive nearby my office
(only to find out that they had wesak celebration going on around that area, where there were packed! with cars, ah tension giler carik parking),
grabbed the taxi to puduraya
(only to find out that puduraya telah ditutop since last err 2 months? for renovation)
and quickly asked the taxi to hentian duta
and prayed hard enuff to get a ticket to penang.
actually, all the tickets were sold out, but i managed to get ticket for an extra bus. pfuf. but have to wait there for another 2 hours. yes rite, tunggu selame 2 jam di hentian duta yg panas.
demi sebuah pelarian drpd KL/PJ yg murung.
alone. seorg diri. dang~
but, thank imah & rakan2 in penang for entertaining me there.
we went for swimming at pisa, sesi makan2 here and there, and quickly conquered karnival air di alor setar near rasa sayang resort.
it was such a wet holiday indeed.
i couldnt thanx less, once again, thanx imah & rakan2!!!
yea i know, even that couldnt erase my sadness & emptyness, but alis, i had the opportunity to observe and think about migrating to that north side of malaysia.
hnm, i'll think again. just maybe. i dunno.

as usual, pictures attached.

currently listening to:howsitgonnabe
currently thinking, when will this feeling stop??????????
i wanna be:a supermodel

Thursday, June 3, 2010

++ella USA

when u r sad and broken, u tend to imagine all the baddest thing could happen to u.
u blame yourself for everything
u lost ur confidence all over again
u wish u could turn back time
u wish u r somebody else
u wish u could shut other's mouth as if they didnot experienced enuff
u wish they would just listen and didnot comment anything
and they would just let u do what u wanted to do
u wish u can fly to just anywhere
u felt as if every sad songs are pointing at you
and what if, i mean what IF the sad song is this song below and u felt as if the person u love the most singing it to u?

currently listening to:ella - aku kau dia
currently feeling:numb
i wanna be:home