Tuesday, February 28, 2012

++Shake It Out

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around

Our love is pastured, such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues strong
But it's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
'Cause I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It's a fine romance but it's left me so undone
It's always darkest before the dawn

Oh whoa, oh whoa...

And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me

Monday, February 27, 2012

++the one with hati

mungkin sebab terlalu byk buat dosa..
atau terlalu byk makan atau minum bende haram..
membuatkan hati kite gelap dan hitam..
sampai tahap, kite tidak sedar yg bila kite lakukan kesalahan2 yg menyakitkan hati org lain,
kite rase tidak bersalah, dan tidak langsung menyesal..
kite sentiase rase kite yg betul. org lain yg salah.

mungkin kite nampak ia kecil (sbb kite buat byk lagi dose yg lebih besar dari itu), tp bila ia melibatkankan mak kite, ianya sgt besar
mungkin kite lupe, syurga itu dibawah tapak kaki ibu..
kalau ibu sendiri rase kite sudah berubah
sudah tiada hati dan perasaan
sudah tidak kenal erti penyesalan dan rase bersalah..
ssampai ibu kite rase yg dia tidak diperlukan lagi..
itu tandanya tidak mustahil suatu hari akan datang
that u'll kill your own blood and doesnt even feel sympathize or doesnt even feel the need to apologize.
and most heartbrokenly, u wont feel regret at all.

jgn sampai hati kite keras mcm batu.
yg tidak bisa dilembut2kan lagi..

nah ambillah sejadah itu...
sujud lah kehadrat illahi,
bersihkan hati mu hasif4h..

masha Allah!

currently listening to:amir jahari - tanpamu
currently feeling:tensyen
i wanna be:a supermodel

Saturday, February 25, 2012


You and I
Two of a mind
This love’s
One of a kind
You and I
We’re drifting
Over the edge
And I will fall for you
And I will fall for you
If I fall for you
Would you fall too?

You and I
Learning to speak
With kisses on cheek
We’re lifted
Over the edge
And I will fall for you
And I will fall for you
If I fall for you
Would you fall too?

Thursday, February 23, 2012

++the one with evanescence

insanity is when u were given only 8 minutes to find a partner to go to a concert with u, LAST MINUTE! FREE! at KL Live! malam ni!
concert evanescence lak tuh! :(( sakit jiwa!
"bring meeeeeeeee to life!!!!!!!!!!"

xyz is surely bz, his mom coming today
sue nak p jumpe ex boss malam ni <---kecoh bende nak jumpe boss???
i called elle!! 3 kali aku call x angkat!!! tensyen ni!!!
called tj, she's otw home dan tanak patah balik :((
called kakzarina, her parents ade dtg KL tonite.
called pojan, she also not picked up :(

whattttttttttttttt an epic loser am i? tade geng pegi konsert.

damn u takeru =p

currently listening to:coldplay paradise
currently feeling:tensed!!!
i wanna be:a rokstaaaa
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++the one with the bucket list

so i heard nadia's (flyfm) bucket list before turn into 30 this morning..
and i was thinking, i didnot set any target before turn into 30.
and i am already 31 now.. sigh*
lets make a bucket list before i turn to 35!
here goes...

++ my bucket list b4 December 2016:

*find a decent husband secara seriously. (i'd settled for the facebook single man's hunting if i must to, but i havent have the time yet..)
not necessarily rich or handsome. Just someone at my average, someone who loves me and my family and loves musics too.
*travel to either 2 of these : usa, australia, new zealand, hongkong, japan, germany, cambodia, india
*own my own home (almost accomplish)
*buy a new semi-pro digicam
*buy a macbook
*buy ipad (whichever is the latest)
*try skydiving
*buy/learn guitar professionally..
*lose atleast 20kg of current weight.
*stayput in celibacy if still havent achieved no.1..

currently listening to:chasing pavements - adele
currently feeling:seram
i wanna be:a supermodel

++share vs loan

did my own calculation for the current share price vs my loan interest of 4.6%

rugi berganda2. T_T

Tuesday, February 21, 2012


6.06 !!!!!!!!!!

Monday, February 20, 2012

++Skinny Love

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt we were never here
My my my – my my my – my my my my – my my...
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My my my – my my my – my my my my – my my...
Right in the moment this order's tall

And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind
And in the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different kind
And I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love, what happened here?
Suckle on the hope in light brassieres
My my my – my my my – my my my my – my my...
Sullen load is full, so slow on the split

And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind
Now all your love is wasted
Then who the hell was I?
Cause now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?

Come on skinny love
My my my – my my my – my my my my – my my...
My my my – my my my – my my my my – my my...

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

++the one with the cake

Selamat berkasih sayang2 an di hari kekasih!!!

Monday, February 13, 2012

++My love is your love is my love

nah lagu best dlm kete pagi tadi tuh.

"My Love Is Your Love"
(clap your hands, yall its alright....)

If tomorrow is judgement day (sing mommy)
And I'm standin' on the front line
And the Lord ask me what I did w/ my life
I will say I spent it withyou

If I wake up in WW 3
I see destruction and poverty
And I feel like I want to go home
It's okay if youcommin' with me

Cause your love is my love
and my love is your love
It would take an eternity to break us
And the chains of Amistad couln't hold us

If I lose my fame and fortune
And I'm homeless on the street
And I'm sleepin' in Grand Central Station
It's okay if you're sleepin' with me

As the years they pass us by
we stay young through eachother's eyes
And no matter how old we get
It's okay as long as I got you babe

If I should die this very day
Don't cry, cause on earth we wasn't meant to stay
And no matter what people day
I'll be waiting for you after jusdement day

Sunday, February 12, 2012


Nah lagu bes dlm citer "teman tapi mesra (BFF)" itu tadi

Friday, February 10, 2012

++greys anatomy 8.14

There are times in our lives when love really does conquer all. Exhaustion, sleep deprivation, anything. And there are those times when it seems love brings us nothing but pain
We’re always looking for ways to ease the pain. Sometimes we ease the pain by making the best of what we have. Sometimes it’s by losing ourselves in a moment and sometimes, all we need to do to ease the pain is call a simple truce.

- Meredith Grey (Season8, Ep.14)

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

++the one who met online

an awkward conversation between a stranger and a good friend of mine. rather absurd.
(of course, after few introductory norms at the beginning...like a/s/l etc etc etc)

stranger: do u believe on a love at the first sight?
friend: hnm, i do. but i think it depends on each and every cases.
stranger: how about if it happens to u?
friend: at this age? if i am still young i dont think i'll take a risk, but at this age, err, ok kot, hahahaha..
stranger: i dont understand why people always make awholelot of fuss about getting what they want
friend: err.. im not being fussy. i just, i think im ugly. so, i'll say, the guy's a jerk for lying.
stranger: :p 1st, u r not ugly. 2nd, everybody's beautiful on their on way.
friend: true that. ahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahhahaa.
stranger: do u believe on the love after marriage?
friend: yes. saw alot of movies with that trend hahahhaa. but seriously, why not? as long as there is communication between both parties to work it out, kan?
stranger: do u believe in arranged marriage?
friend: of course i do. i saw alot of succesful ones. why not? sometimes its for the best cause. as long as it doesnt involves someone's someone.
ok kot.
stranger: so then lets get married.
friend: hoh??? *melopong*
stranger: yea serious. why not? we can work it out after we are married.
friend: hohhh?? *but blushes anyways*
stranger: why?
friend: this is new.
stranger: my mom, dah bising. i am 32. i have a decent job. decent pay. working on my new home to be. what say u?
friend: i dont expect this sudden request.
stranger: u said u dont mind love after marriage.
friend: u gotta be kidding me.
stranger: i am deadfully serious!
friend: what can i say?
stranger: i have like 10k in the bank right now. that should work for the hantaran part. how about u, how much do u have in the bank right now?

there was a long silence.

friend: huhu, i have only few bucks. i dont do saving.
padahal dlm hati dia rase
"shittttt, penipu, kau ingat aku nak pecaye ni tipu helah ko nak tipu duit aku lah kan ni???? pundek, u had me at lets get married kot tadi!!!!!!!!!"

pundek indeed.

my friend didnot entertain him anymore after that last sentence. bebuat DC dan nothing happen lah. the guy hilang, hopefully no one's decent got tricked by his sweet mouth, too.

girls be careful,
especially girls my age (+-), who take almost all the impossibilities to be with someone.
it might sound mellowing at the beginning, but TRUST NO ONE!
hehe especially guys.
mulot manis mematahkan tulang.


*they talked online at the social network website, btw.
**those conversation are not exact. lebih kurang mcm tu la bunyi dia.

true story.
currently listening to:one republic - secret
currently feeling:happy (sekejap je)
i wanna be:a supermodel

Sunday, February 5, 2012


I want bestfriends like ted! And barney! And lily and marshall and robin!!!!!

How i met your mother season 7 episode 12 has really struck me, really bad. Danggg~

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Friday, February 3, 2012


so much with one republic's song these 2days.
love this part only: tried to sing it and failed miserably. kihkihkih.

"And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Send it straight to gold"

maddi jane being maddi jane, as usual, sedapppppppp~

Thursday, February 2, 2012

++Edon - Good Life (OneRepublic)

ya allah lemak berkrim nyeeeeeeeee suara kamoooooooo!!!!

Woke up in London yesterday
Found myself in the city near Piccadilly
Don't really know how I got here
I got some pictures on my phone

New names and numbers that I don't know
Address to places like Abbey Road
Day turns to night, night turns to whatever we want
We're young enough to say

Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life

Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life

To my friends in New York, I say hello
My friends in L.A. they don't know
Where I've been for the past few years or so
Paris to China to Col-or-ado

Sometimes there's airplanes I can't jump out
Sometimes there's bullshit that don't work now
We are god of stories but please tell me-e-e-e
What there is to complain about

When you're happy like a fool
Let it take you over
When everything is out
You gotta take it in

I feel like there might be something that I'll miss
I feel like the window closes oh so quick
I'm taking a mental picture of you now
'Cuz hopelessly
The hope is we have so much to feel good about

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

++the one with the problematic marriage

Whats the best advice for a dear friend who is crawling silently towards the divorce?
Should we encourage (knowing for sure whats the husband's attitudes all this while)
Or should we try to talk to the husband and gives help?
Or should we keep silent?

Makan racun mungkin boleh kite ubati, mungkin ya, dgn ubat..
Tp makan hati, susah nak digambarkan..
Tambah2 dalam keadaan sudah punyai anak..

The moment she told me about their final conversations, i was choked.
Tertelan bijik gula2 yg sdg dihisap.

Ikot hati, mahu saja berlari ke sana dan hug her tights.. Biar kami nangis same same.. Apakah malangnye nasib kite ni kan, kawanku.. Dapat lelaki yg same perangai dan tabii..(bukan luar tabii ya kawan2 lain)...
Tapi the husband is there rite now..
Aku pengecut.

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