Sunday, January 30, 2011

++im not with u

isnt anyone tryin to find me? wont somebody come take me home??
its a damnnnn coldddd niteeee
im trying to figure out thissss lifeeee
wont u, take me by the hand take me somewhere new..
i dunno who u are, but i,
im with u...

Thursday, January 27, 2011

++letter 2

stop reading my blog, there's gonna be lots of unhappy thots from now on until next year. im not gonna go sober at all. timecih.

*spoiler's alert*
this letter was written when becca had no longer show interest on her father, hank, and hank, oh man, u gotta see his expression when he went to his closest buddy, runkle, and he said "becca hates me" and he really meant it. he was this close to suicide to see his only daughter hates him.
he was charged with statutory rape btw.

from hank moody to becca

To my dear beautiful daughter.
I'm writing you a letter, that's right, a good old fashioned letter.
It's a lost art really, like handjobs... Shit.
I have a confession to make:
I didn't like you very much at first
You were just this little annoying little blob,
You smelled nice, most of the time.
But you didn't seem to have much interest in me.
Which of course I found vaguely insulting.
It was just you and your mom against the world,
funny how somethings never change.
So I cruised along, doing my thing, acting the fool,
not really understanding how being a parent changes you.
And I don't remember the exact moment everything changed.
I just know that it did.
One minute I was impenetrable, nothing could touch me,
the next my heart was somehow beating outside my chest,exposed to the elements.
Loving you has been the most profound, intense and painful experience of my life.
In fact it's been almost too much to bear.
As your father, I made a silent vow to protect you from the world.
Never realised I was the one who would end up hurting you the most.
When I flash forward my heart breaks.
Mostly because I can't imagine you speaking of me with any sort of pride.
How could you?
Your father is a child in a man's body,
he cares for nothing and everything at the same time.
Noble in thought weak in action. Something has to change, something has to give.
It's getting dark, too dark to see.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

++Breathing

i miss listening to the guitar's strumming~



Let me feel one more time what it feels like to feel alive
And break these calluses off of me, one more time

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside your door
And listen to you breathing, is where I want to be, yeah

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for the scraps
To fall off your table to the ground
'Cause I just want to be here now

Monday, January 24, 2011

++Dear god

DeAr god, please make me sleep now!!!
Theres no use looking back and wonderin.

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Sunday, January 23, 2011

++still the one with californication again

here's to the end of season 3 of californication
*angkat botol beer and cheers yo!!*

again, sad ending, crappy big crying out loud, but serve the hero right!!
i love karen, i love becca, i fucking hate hank moody, oh well, but i dig those retarded bastard afterall. talking about humanbeing being humans.

and here's to 3days of camping on my bed, marathoning this stuff, and to the new desease that came after, FLU! bad FLU! pening kepala and i think i am down with the FLU. how many flu lah.

but, i cant wait to dlod the 4th season.
hey u guys, i wish i can watch them with someone else.
tlg la tgk californication.

*but the side effect is, i might want to try smoking weed now. huhu
currently listening to:rocket man (end of season 3 bgm)
currently feeling:demam.
i wanna be:as gorgeuos as karen!!!

++the one who loves sad series

*spoiler's alert*
what if
one day, there's a random gun-shot to a class full of student
and u are among the other parents or siblings waited in the hospital lobby for all the victims of the terror
and when being called out by the policeman "who is here for mr.xyz?"
u stand up curiously towards the policeman to hear the news of your son's situation or any small status updates of him in the operation theatre

only to being told later, that your son is the shooter

i dunno why i cried so loud for this plot.

grey's anatomy is a definite must watch for a soap-opera's digger like me.

currently listening to: bunyi kipas
currently feeling:saddddddddddddddddd
i want my life back!!!!!!

Saturday, January 22, 2011

++still the one with californication

again, *spoiler's alert*
one of the best letter i read in my whole life.
sit still and cried out loud, this one is really something.

Dear, karen...
if you're reading this, it means I actually worked up the courage to mail it.
So, good for me.
You don't know me very wel but you get me started,
I have a tendency to go on and on about how hard the writing is for me.
But this...
this is the hardest thing I've ever had to write.
There's no easy way to say this, so I'll just say it.
I met someone. It was an accident.
I wasn't looking for it. I wasn't on the make.
It was a perfect storm. She said one thing. I said another.
Next thing I knew, I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation.
now there's this feeling in my gut.
She might be the one.
She's completely nuts...
in a way that makes me smile -- highly neurotic.
A great deal of maintenance required.
She is you, karen.
That's the good news.
The bad is that I don't know how to be with you right now.
And it scares the shit out of me.
Because if I'm not with you right now, I have this feeling we'll get lost out there.
It's a big, bad world full of twists and turns,
and people have a way of blinking and missing the moment...
the moment that could've changed everything.
I don't know what's going on with us,
and I can't tell you why you should waste a leap of faith on the likes of me...
but, damn, you smell good -- like home.
And you make excellent coffee.
That's got to count for something, right?

Call me.

Unfaithfully yours, hank moody.


currently listening to:kejoraku bersatu
currently feeling:saddddddddddd
i wanna eat burger leleh :(

Thursday, January 20, 2011

++californication

have u watch californication yet?

DJ:
What's your latest obsession?

Hank:
Just the fact that people seem to be getting dumber and dumber.
I mean, we have all this amazing technology, and yet...
computers have turned into basically four-figure wank machines.
The internet was supposed to set us free, democratize us, but...
But all it's really given us is Howard Dean's aborted candidacy and...
24-hour day acces to kiddy porn.
People... They don't write anymore. They blog.
Instead of talking, they text... No punctuation, no grammar, L.O.L. this
and l.M.F.A.O. that.
It just seems to me that it's just a bunch of stupid people pseudo-communicating with a bunch of other stupid people in a protolanguage
that resembles more what cavemen used to speak than the king's English.

DJ:
Yet, you're part of the problem. You're blogging with the best of them.

Hank:
Hence my self-loathing, you know.


oklah i must admit that i may did no justice for quoting a not so good conversation in 'californication' tv series.
but, if u were a total s.a.t.c fan (without those branded and shiny shoes/accesories/clothes obsession)
and didnot being critical about being so transparent with the woman's body /or man's /or both's in any of the scene, now, go watch californication already.
plus, the soundtrack are really awesome and rocking. like seriously!
i wish i had the guitar hero already, who am i kidding right?

californication is now airing the 4th season, not too late to catch up all those 1,2,3 season because they all contained only 12 episodes each.
currently listening to:ok baru tgk season 2 dah kecohhhhhh!
currently feeling:lapar
i wanna be:hank moody's wife already, but urm... NO thanx!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

++the one with sponsoror

rumours has it that i gave money a.k.a sponsored my ex-bf especially during his study.
me?? yg kedekut ni?? sponsoring him????
ya allah!! i couldnt blink my eyes.
i was shocked, couldnt react to the gossip
or should put it as a fitnah.
diorg ingat aku ni org kaye ke ape???

i cant even eat anything but maggi for these past few days due to the car-incident (/robbery), how can i sponsor someone else??

mashaAllah mulot manusia!
and for the record, the fitnah just came out last weekend. after all those 8years, i just knew about their gossip tuh last weekend.
as if i am that ugly to be with him. huhuhu. teruknyaaaaaaaaa.

oh well. mulut manusia!

currently listening to:airplanes
currently feeling:sadddddddd
i wanna be:a supermodel

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

++Spacebound

for those who lost themselves in someone else
*words!, chehhh

Spacebound - Eminem Dance Cover

++B'z - Konya Tsuki no Mieru Oka ni

shit aku dah jatuh chenta kat brother ni!!
(bro palotak aku, budak kot ni!)



shit i miss jdroma beautiful life !!! & i miss takuya kimura!!!


original video from original singer

Monday, January 17, 2011

++Tapi Bukan Aku

sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma
sebab rasa ku tlah mati untuk menyadarinya
semoga saja kan kau dapati
hati yg tulus mencintaimu
tapi bukan aku


these guys are funnny! yes i watched all of their videos.
Tapi Bukan Aku Koq by Anas feat Akbar

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

++Denting

i still think ada apa dgn cinta is the best indo movie ever



Denting yang berbunyi dari dinding kamarku
sedarkan diriku dari lamunan panjang
Tak terasa malam kini semakin larut
Ku masih terjaga

Sayang kau dimana aku ingin bersama
Aku butuh semua untuk tepiskan rindu
Mungkinkah kau disana merasa yang sama
Seperti dinginku di malam ini

Reff
Rintik gerimis mengundang kekasih di malam ini
Kita menari dalam rindu yang indah
Sepi ku rasa hatiku saat ini oh sayangku
Jika kau disini aku tenang

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

++tolong ingatkan aku :(

okla, after being chronicly addicted to this song,
i think it deserve the place for the 'juara lagu'.
the lyrics crushed my heart just simply, this one.
(*eventho i still think the singer's voice sucks),
but its an anugerah juara lagu, bukan anugerah juara suara, or anugerah juara persembahan majika for that case. oh well.
semalam while watching she sang this sheet, aku tak nampak sgt ape bes sgt lagu ni (i havent heard this one before, slap me now, but i dont think fly.fm had flied this one on air before this, kan?).
pagi2 tadi kat ofis, googled it, and ok terus bederai ayor mate ahkakkk
dan terus telepon si bengkeng.
dia mmg bagus sbg penyelesai masalah org2 cengeng.
oklah, for those who still wimps alot about why ana raffali won that juara lagu this year, sit back and listen and read the lyrics already. oh, dan tlg watch the vclip. pergh, sedihs.
hehehe.

Jangan disusun kata-kata penamat
Jangan disebut baris ayat keramat
Biar lenyap diserap sunyi
Biar senyap yang tak menyepi

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa

Mari patahkan papan markah lama
Mari padamkan buku tiga lima
Biar luka sembuh sendiri
Biar lupa dimakan hari

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa
Kau dampingi aku
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu

Bila marah merasuk minda
Kecewa menyelubungi jiwa
Aku lupa

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa
Ku teringatkanmu
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu

Tolong ingatkan aku kisah kita
Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kita

Ana Raffali – Tolong Ingatkan Aku

Monday, January 10, 2011

++foreva eva? foreva eva eva?

is this taking foreva???
how long longer this one is taking?
erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

currently listening to:grenade bruno mars
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:happy

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Saturday, January 8, 2011

++invitation

jom pi tgk AJL kat bukit jalil nak?

currently listening to:californication
currently feeling:lapar
i wanna be:a supermodel

Friday, January 7, 2011

++the one who mengidam anak already, what???

b to s:
I've been acting like I'm okay, but I'm not.
What if I never get over Chuck?


ps: i am SO gonna name my son charles!!
like seriously
charles bin *err*alfonso d'albuquerque*erk*

*shrugs*
currently listening to:mxpx do your feet hurts?
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a supermodel

++New Found Glory - Dressed To Kill

this song reminds me of 2005 and tw1ntech and eja so much
i miss those days when we listen to this shizznit!

i. miss. u. singing. me. to. sleep!

++Arctic Monkeys A Certain Romance



But I said
No! Oh no!
Well you won't get me to go!
Not anywhere, not anywhere
No I won't go
Oh no no!

Well over there there's friends of mine
What can I say, I've known 'em for a long long time
And yeah they might overstep the line
But I just cannot get angry in the same way
Not, not in the same way
Not in the same way
Oh no, oh no no

Thursday, January 6, 2011

++the cougartown

oh kenapakah budak2 muda ni sgt hemsem2 belaka,
but they are 4-5 years younger than me?????
(meng-refer kepada bebudak kat menara mostly)
some are even younger than my own brother T_T
berdarah mata dan telinga

adakah kita akan bertukar menjadi cougar skrg?
tranform?
patotkah membela anak ikan sedangkan diri sendiri pon tidak cukup duit?
hahaha desperet nye ahkak~

and oh, ya, i love the tv series cougartown too.
i love the son, boo-yah!

currently listening to:3days grace-break
currently feeling:gatal2 hati
i wanna be:a supermodel

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

++chuck

at first, i thought chuck was just another csi plus bones plus heroes plus etc etc etc drama series
boy, was i wrong
i havent even finished season 3 T_T
and what made it worst is that i dont have all the episodes.
the internet is my ex-malaysian made motorcycle slow
and people already talked about the ending of the 4th season.
(exaggerate)

currently listening to:hijau daun - suara ku berharap
currently feeling:sejuk
i wanna be:a billionaire!!!

Monday, January 3, 2011

:((

i was just wondering,
did u cry watching chuck?
because, i did
i did.

currently listening to:in my sleep
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with penghutang

kalo bab bergaya semua nya laju dan tanak kalah..
baju nak branded branded..
bile mintak hutang, kemain lah susahhhhhhh nak bayar!!

tensyennnnnnnnnnnye!!!

currently listening to:hijau daun - suara ku berharap
currently feeling:tensyen!!!
i wanna be:a supermodel

Saturday, January 1, 2011

++Suaraku berharap

suara dengarkanlah aku
apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

suara dengarkanlah aku
apakah aku slalu dihatinya
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

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