++the one with the list of updates

LISTING OUT THE POST/myEvent i want TO write IN this BLOG (with no alpha/numerical order):

TRIPS:
2. padi.box gateway
4. tawau2017
6. osaka japan trip
8. singapore-JB 2017
9. krabi-hatyai trip
10. tawau2016!

13. taiwan & Taipei
14. Canada (x abis lagik)
15. Jakarta tai-tai trip

17. bukit batu putih
18. cameron highland 2018
tb lembah temir
19. tawau and bohey dolang (mid year)

24. treasurehunt JB
25. tawau2018 (krismas)

30. langkawi perlis kedah

tb genting highland

35. Thistle, PD
36. th penang
37. edinburgh trip (baru intro)

NONTRIPS:
1. diving experience (DSD)
3. ml8 the company
5. friendship is magic 20th reU
7. aidilfitri2016 2017 2018 2019
11. M-day the company
16. digital content creation workshop
20. what to do if accident happened
21. cooking competition TOS jandabaik
22. occupational first aid
23. majestic lunch
26. newyear 2019
27. aia vitality and healthy team
28. new hair
29. dewa 2019
31. bobbt
32. merdeka
33. blastacars
34. AZ grad LC
38. bday 2019

++Day 28 of 30T30D

Day 28 - 10 ways to win your heart
finally! a question that i like! hehehe
1- be wangi & clean & wangiiii. is it hard? to be just wangi? jgn kepam2 plis.
2- sing to me. or strum. sing pon dah cukup memadai, but with strum, i'll never let u go. i dont care if ur voice is not like JT or jason wade or anyone, as long as tak out of tunes sudeyyy...
3- or atleast, always like/suggest/forward to me great songs. at least i know we are on the same wavelength.
4- feeeeeeeeed me. i am fat liddat. no equation can ever justify this. i am not a materialistic type, a gift once in a while is forever lovable, but, if u r not rich, just feeeeeeed me. thats all im asking for.
5- but ofcourse, accepted me. accept the fact that i am lousy at diet & will never look down on food. accept the fact that i am fat. and kelamkabut. and nosy at times. and cengeng. and very very gedik. and many moreeeeeeee.
6- not shy to introduce me to his friends. vice versa.
7- tidak takbor/riak/menunjuk2. a very down to earth profile lah kirenye.
8- be exclusive. if u r a kind who always always updated fb statuses or insta or anything liddat, urgh, u simply an easy person. i mean its good that u r easy going with everyone but i prefer an exclusive types.
9- witty. who doesnt loves a witty person kan? jgn lah serious sgt all the time.
10- bright. (hehe like me ahahhahaha). jgn bodoh & lembab sgt. tapi x perlu genius sgt mcm si imah tuh. tihihi.

currently listening to:taylor swift back to december
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a supermodel

++i NEED vacation

i NEED a vacation!
its funny how i said those words every other months like i really didnot attend any vacation just recently.
*macam kau byk DUITTTTT!!!!*
*tak payah nak poyo sgt haslfah*
in my defense, i dont know if it is the stupid unmarried cough*spinster's*cough adrenaline rush
or it is because i am really tired of my works or my heartbreak or my loneliness
or it is actually nafsu semata mata that i NEED vacation like every month!

speaking of spinster, a new fren recently told me i look 25.
oh wow!
yay melompat2 setempat!!!

and then, a good friend of mine posted some aurora pictures on her wall (not recently).
and boy, it was really breathtaking! mind blowing! orgasmination!
actually, klin & kzarina pernah discuss about all this aurora thingy before this, that was before i went down to them when i really need a vacation b4 pergi perth dulu tuh..
kzarina told us that she wanted to tour the Scandinavian countries, with a package tour that'll cost her around 20k (kalo x silaplah). which will include the artic circle's aurora watching plus pijak line from bawah ke atas arctic tuh. menarik gila kan? pijak sempadan.
but i didnot gave it a thought pon sbb mahal nak mampos.

now that i've revisited the idea of watching aurora borealis again, i have a 2nd thought lah kiranya.
gittew.
but without the total package.
maybe aurora alone (aurora watching require 2-3 days staying at the north part of norway),
or maybe combine dgn Oslo's visiting plus Switzerland, with budget-ted itineraries.

aurora, on the other hand, specifically borealis, "is a natural light display in the sky particularly in the high latitude (Arctic and Antarctic) regions, caused by the collision of energetic charged particles with atoms in the high altitude atmosphere (thermosphere)." (source-wikipedia)

the question is, will i ever have the money to travel to the north or norway.
flight tic to oslo, then to troms (or any other city on northern norway) plus foods plus hotel.
hnm....

currently listening to:jordin sparks - no air
currently feeling:kenyang
i wanna be:a supermodel

++In training

But my mind goes on a trip..
Why is it when im away from home i felt like there are so many things need to be done at home, but when im home, i just lay down on bed do nothing every fucking day.
List of things need sort:

1.Sort out those bills and letters and reciepts yg dah stacking tooo high. And find that epf statement asap! An show imah and apply trust fund quickly!
2. Buy frames and photo albums and sort the pcitures
3. Delete pictures from phone!
4. Sort and pick and delete photos for printing! (I gave up photo-booking dah. Penat dan i ll definitely campak2 dan do lastminit jobs on that)(true story)(my last 3 photobooks suffered this).
5. Must sort back all old tshirts and bribg back to hometown as per mom's wish.
6. Must dump all of the ex's shirts and stuffs too.
7. Clear up the store room!! Shit! Dont go there yet, focus on my room first!
8. Must clear up the fridge!:((
9. Tukar air akuarium!! Ya allahhh kesian nyaaa thise fishes!!
10. Byknyaaaa lagi!!!!! Dem!

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++the one with the half year achievements

hish
its been 6 months and i didnot achieve any of the resolutions!
i wanted to stop complaining, but i didnot stop at all. setiap hari mengeluh. adussss...
i wanted to focus more on the faith part, and i failed too. but actually, ade lah sedikit pembaik-kan kot..

6 more months to go!
aiseh...

currently listening to:someone like u
currently feeling:miserable
i wanna be:a supermodel!~

++the one with the bucket list

so i heard nadia's (flyfm) bucket list before turn into 30 this morning..
and i was thinking, i didnot set any target before turn into 30.
and i am already 31 now.. sigh*
lets make a bucket list before i turn to 35!
here goes...

++ my bucket list b4 December 2016:

*find a decent husband secara seriously. (i'd settled for the facebook single man's hunting if i must to, but i havent have the time yet..)
not necessarily rich or handsome. Just someone at my average, someone who loves me and my family and loves musics too.
*travel to either 2 of these : usa, australia, new zealand, hongkong, japan, germany, cambodia, india
*own my own home (almost accomplish)
*buy a new semi-pro digicam
*buy a macbook
*buy ipad (whichever is the latest)
*try skydiving
*buy/learn guitar professionally..
*lose atleast 20kg of current weight.
*stayput in celibacy if still havent achieved no.1..

currently listening to:chasing pavements - adele
currently feeling:seram
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with 2012

dear diary,

i hope im not a lil bit late to list down my 2012 resolutions.
actually not much.
but i think im gonna focus more on the faith part this year (dan tahun2 mendatang, insha allah)

tahun ni, gue rasa nak berhenti merungut dan comdemning other people, berhenti complaining dan ranting.
i hope to focus more on improving myself, dari segi keagamaan. its all about towards syurga.

but, can i start from march onwards?
i know i can be keji sometimes. but something's gonna happen on early march, and i cant guarantee i wont do sinful things.
keji.
saye janji, after that, i'll start!
baby steps.

and,
and if nothing happen, as in the job grade and the life grade (kalo x nampak2 jugak mcm jodoh nak sampai),
i promise myself i'll start looking for a better opportunities oversea nextyear.
i really think i need to migrate.
(sekarang rase mcm tu, tataula nextyear rase cemane haha).
NO, not because of the money. but i just want a new fresh air.
and NO, im not like other malaysian yg suke condemn malaysia tuh,
merungut2 psl malaysia itu, malaysia ini, psl tax, pasal government,
mcm kawan saye yg sorang tu, kondem mcm nak rak, tp, ptptn pon xnak bayar, pastu x boleh keluar negara, saye ckp dgn dia, airasiaXL ke london etc tu dah dibubarkan, jgn sampai nanti airasia dah bankrap baru awak dpt pergi luarnegara! :D

and so, 2012 will be a challenging year for me.
in order to migrate, i want to spend more time with my family
& also my closest friends this year.

nextyear, nextyear we will see.
ini hanya impian, tak salah kan kite punya impian?

currently listening to:zikir munajat on utube.
currently feeling:calm
i wanna be:a supermodel

++That karaoke place

ive been meaning to blog about 'that karaoke place' everybody's talking about..
i mean, about the people who went to such place..
i read it in chic's blog,
and also i have a friend who told me that his chinese-colleague (who is married with 2 kids) always, ALWAYS, ajak him to tag along to that kinda karaoke place..
(lucky this friend of mine ni jenis baik, pfufff)..
plus, a friend of mine pon ade citer gak..
plus, erm.. takpela.. i dun want to mention names.. tsk tsk...
and this is not a normal karaoke place, where we can choose songs to sing,
we can also pick a girl who will do anything, ANYTHING! that u like her to do to you. ANYTHING!
(and of course, one can do anything he likes to her too)
(ya Allah, ngilunya)

but then, i realized. i am not good either!
i have alot of sins.
bukak tudung, pastu insaf, pastu 'ter'bukak balik especially during 'sosial' gatherings or when i go to the nearest mall, dgn alasan malas, or baru bangun tido tetibe ajak kluar, so on so forth. me with my alasans. sigh~
solat pon koyak sane sini, especially subuh's prayers, especially when i went outings, especially itu, especially ini..
i have alot of sins!
melonjak gembira when malaysia scored a goal against our biggest opponent at bukit jalil stadium, and hugged each other joyfully(the other gender).. in public. tapi pakai tudung.
whr did your kesopanan dan kesusilaan went to has1fah?
watching sinful movies.. doing sinful things..
mengumpat almost everyday!
awholelot of other sins. ya allah!

i am not saying 'yes, its ok' to the people who went to such service.
they will get their 'balasan', di dunia or di akhirat, wallauhualam..
but, i am looking at how sinful i am. a sin is a sin, no matter what kind of it.

i better be improving myself.. insha allah.

*new year's resolution numero uno:
stop condemning other people, start improving myself. amin.

currently listening to:a thousand years - christina perri
currently feeling:sad :(
i wanna be:a good muslimah. amin.

++saya mohon maaf

saya mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd cikgu2 sekolah saya yg andartu..
yg dulu saya bangge2 becerita "alah dia tu andartu, tu psl garang semacam tu"
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannnya menjadi andartu..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye pula yg andartu..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd ex ex saya yg saya pernah kecilkan hatinya..
yg dulu saya pernah dump.. yg saye tetibe hilang dan tinggalkan begitu sahaja..
yg saya pernah kutuk dgn kawan2 saya..
saya kini tahu bagaimana perasaannya di dump juga..
perasaan ditinggalkan mcm tu sahaja.. perasaan bile dpt tahu sesuatu yg memedihkan hati...
perasaan bile saye pernah dikutuk juga oleh ex saye..
mungkin ini balsannye, saye pula yg di dump..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd orang2 gemok yg dulu saye mungkin pernah kutuk..
yg dulu saye bangge sgt saye kurus walaupon makan byk giler..
yg dulu saye suke laser kat mereka "buat ape nak diet2, aku xde diet2 pon"
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannya jadi org gemok,
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannye dah diet pon tapi x kurus2 juga,
makan lagi sikit drpd org kurus, tp, still gemok juga..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye pula yg gemok..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd orang2 yg x berapa nak cantik
yg dulu saye tak pandang sgt pon
saye kini tahu bagaimane perasaannye bile xde org pandang saye..
saye kini tahu bagaimane perasaannye bile dah takde org ngorat pon saye.. mcm dulu2..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye dah tak cantik mcm dulu..
(dulu kau cantik sgt ke nyah????)

saye mhon maaf sangat
maaf kpd watak2 drama/realiti yg suaminya kahwin 2..
yg dulu saye kutuk gile2
yg dulu saye dgn beraninya berkate "bodoh nye perempuan ni, minta sahajalah cerai"
saye kini sedar, cinta itu tidak mudah..
saye kini tahu, tidak mudah meminta cerai dan memulakan hidup baru..
saye kini tahu, letting go is as hard as waking up at 5am everymorning and jog around the house..
mungkin ini balasannye.. walopon x kawen lg, tp dia x kawen dgn saye :(

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf juga kpd watak2 drama/realiti yg mencintai/merampas suami org..
yg dulu saye mmg kutuk dan anti gila..
yg dulu saye dgn beraninye berkate "bodohnye takde ke laki lain dia nak cinta"
saye kini sedar, cinta itu tidak mudah
saye kini sedar, bile2 mase Allah boleh turunkan ia sbg bala kpd saye,
sbg balasan sbb suke kutuk org,, lalu dilimpahinya cinta yg membuak2 dihati saye keatas lelaki yg telah dimiliki.. (nauzubillah min zalik)

ya allah hentikanlah hukum karma mu ini..
aku menyesal...

++the one who wants to retire and have fun travelling

how i wish i can be a rich girl
who, can travel & take pictures & learn something new everyday...
without having to think about all the expenses.
and i am truly envied towards this person (yg i read his blog from pojan's i think)
i wish to be him! huhuhu

http://stillwahdi.blogspot.com/2011/10/quick-update.html


currently listening to:broery marantika angin malam
currently feeling:mengantuk yg sgt
i wanna be:a supermodel

++happy + susah hati

do u know that u can be happy but susah hati at the same time?

for the 1st example i can think of is car..
i think its not about how i can afford or not a new car
by affordable, i mean something i can pay monthly (the installment, the maintenance, fuel consumption sbb aku mmg taksuke taksuke taksuke naik public transport eventho the office is located at kl sentral)
i KNOW that i can be very2 beyond happy if i buy an expensive car, handsome giler berkilau2 dipanah matahari..sedap giler bile drive, pergi memane org pandang hehehe
but i can be susah hati at the same time, given my daily parking place is not very secure and ofcourse with no roof, i'll be like cacing panas in the office thinking that something might happened to him. which might dragged one's personal opinion for me to buy the roof-ed parking in kl sentral, which for me, i dont think they still have vacant monthly passes, and daily tickets are around rm40. yeah, times that to 24days. jyeah!
and then, there comes the 2nd problem, my apartment. we dont have any roof parking space/s. so, there. how do i translate susah hati into this position of mine?
susah hati, takut kene curi is one. susah hati takut calar, panas, rosak, hujan, kotor are the whole another reasons..

its like when u're dreaming of getting a very handsome and gentleman husband..
i know i can be very susah hati thinking someone can kinda steal him away from me, yelah, kalo dia handsome, takkan dia handsome kat mate kite je, mestilah dia akan handsome juga dimate perempuan lain.. dan kalo dia gentleman gila, takkan dia brutal/cruel towards other woman?
chances are, some other woman might fell in love, eventho he doesnt mean to be a nice guy.
eh?
sbb i have a friend who fall head over heels towards this one husband org, yg kemudiannya dipanggil 'mr nice guy', bermula dgn eeee sweetnye dia ni, baiknye, lame2 she couldnt help praying everyday that he would ditch his wife and marry her. doa doa doa... hnmmm...

*kalo dia handsome kat mate kite je, org lain x rase dia handsome pon, tu bukanlah handsome name nye yeh.

should stop dreaming about getting a handsome+gentleman husband now..

currently listening to:only one yellowcard
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with the laptop selections

should buy the ones yg ber gayak?:

or agak affordable (pon still kena swipe wang keras) but more features (like the hdd capacity & dvd/rw) like these?

or shud buy the damn camera first?
ah pokaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii lah ahkakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

currently listening to:adele-someone like you
currently feeling:tensi
i wanna be:a supermodel

++234 the one who called for eja

ejaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
calling for ejaaaaaaaaaaaaa
ejaaaaaaaaaaaa
kalau yuh ingat, yuh pernah janji ngn ai dulu, walau apapa pon yg terjadik, walaupon umor yuh dah 88 tawun, yuh akan same2 ngn ai gi tgk avril lavigne kan kan kan???????

*tapi, skrg mcm dah hilang sparks lah kat avril, kalo coldplay ker aku teruja lah kot. ke?
currently listening to:creed one last breath
currently feeling:lapar
i wanna go to coldplay concert tp bile dia nak dtg malaysia???