++what happened in a week before this..

i had a rough week during raya hols.
eh not all the time, but at some, and it really got to me.
eh takdelah sgt, but hnm, okla i dun remember what really happened.
but we went to 'merisik' for my brother.. and i am happy for him, but i felt like i didnot see any future!!!!
and this is because of something else too.. not important.

so, i was seeking for a vacation. seeking solace katanya.
we discussed. me and some besties. we chat until there was no conclusion at all, from perhentian to boracay to starcruise to cambodia to hi-tea only.
when 8 fickle minded girls talk at the same time, it went berserk.
dont misunderstood me, they were fun and i felt like ive been lifted up too but that stayed for a while there. no one got really serious in organizing.

did i not say i reallyyyyy neeed a vacation?

then i started looking for perhentian packages,
found a good deal at rm500++ for a 3days 2nites vacation, including bf+lunch+dinner, including the snorkelling trips, including the welcome drink, including the boatfare (return) from jetty to the island, including return bus fare from KL to the jetty.
wow kan.

i was at the office that time, had hard times thinking and i went downstairs to discussed the deal with kaklin & kakzarina, whom, are going to cambodia sooner. and instead of me luring them to pulau perhentian, they lured me to cambodia pulak.
arghhhh!!

and then, i dunno whr it came from, i started to search for air tickets to ireland.
i suddenly feel like wanting to play with hana (kakcin's daughter).
wahhh. it felt like everything else is really coming in.. started to whatsapp kakcin too, and i am really thissssss (aclick) close to buying the ticket ok..
then someone else talked me out, about going some times later, and i bought it. i mean i bought the idea..
and then i started to find air tickets to germany pulak... tiket mahal nyaaaa...
(actually sameje harga dgn tiket ireland, tp, with eja is coming back to malaysia and all, entahlaaa, the feeling is not really there..)

so, then i was clueless again. my fingers were still clicking on the emirates & etihad & KLM & MAS websites still.

then, my colleague, R came approaching from far.
exclamation mark "R!!!!" i said sambil tangan mendepang for a hugggg..
she really came like an angel gituh. i swear i can see halo on her head that time ahahhahaha.
"R! jom pergi perhentian! i really need a vacation!!!"
and again, instead of me luring her to perhentian, she lured to perth!
seriious sangat pening kepalakuh..

but i began to search air tickets to perth regardless..
the price was beyond her ticket price, 2 kali ganda, but i started to feel to give it a shot..
i felt like it was a right thing to do lah pulak..

so, it was a tight fight in mind that moment...
it was between pulau perhentian or ireland or ikot kaklin & kakzarina to cambodia, or ikot R to Perth.
i told them, give me a nite, i want to see my dream first.
i started to call imah too. she went to aussie before. but not perth.
yada yada yada.
and.. finally, i bought the ticket to perth...
and i quote kakzarina & R, u tayah pikir2 sgt, u swipe je, and once u bought it, u will feel legaaa and u'll go with the flow.
and i did it!
went to kl sentral for the visa settlement, and tadaaaa~

u know, those kind of things i'd always spontaneously did when i'm stressed. or not stressed. but spontan. adhoc. melulu. malas pikir. go with the flow. everything about it.

besides them, i only told mom and dad.
ayah terus cakap "takdo tiket laie ko?? ayah nak ikotttt"
(my father always wanted to follow me travel hehehe but i dun find it is a good idea.
the last time when i told him i wanted to go to germany visiting eja there, he said he wanted to go too, tp akhirnye kitorg tak jadi pegi ponn germany tuh..)
and
i cant do anything, kesian ayah :(
but R made me promise not to bring anyone because she's gonna crash at her bespren's place.

currently listening to:neon buzz
currently feeling:sadddddddddddddddddd
i wanna be:a supermodel