++happy + susah hati

do u know that u can be happy but susah hati at the same time?

for the 1st example i can think of is car..
i think its not about how i can afford or not a new car
by affordable, i mean something i can pay monthly (the installment, the maintenance, fuel consumption sbb aku mmg taksuke taksuke taksuke naik public transport eventho the office is located at kl sentral)
i KNOW that i can be very2 beyond happy if i buy an expensive car, handsome giler berkilau2 dipanah matahari..sedap giler bile drive, pergi memane org pandang hehehe
but i can be susah hati at the same time, given my daily parking place is not very secure and ofcourse with no roof, i'll be like cacing panas in the office thinking that something might happened to him. which might dragged one's personal opinion for me to buy the roof-ed parking in kl sentral, which for me, i dont think they still have vacant monthly passes, and daily tickets are around rm40. yeah, times that to 24days. jyeah!
and then, there comes the 2nd problem, my apartment. we dont have any roof parking space/s. so, there. how do i translate susah hati into this position of mine?
susah hati, takut kene curi is one. susah hati takut calar, panas, rosak, hujan, kotor are the whole another reasons..

its like when u're dreaming of getting a very handsome and gentleman husband..
i know i can be very susah hati thinking someone can kinda steal him away from me, yelah, kalo dia handsome, takkan dia handsome kat mate kite je, mestilah dia akan handsome juga dimate perempuan lain.. dan kalo dia gentleman gila, takkan dia brutal/cruel towards other woman?
chances are, some other woman might fell in love, eventho he doesnt mean to be a nice guy.
eh?
sbb i have a friend who fall head over heels towards this one husband org, yg kemudiannya dipanggil 'mr nice guy', bermula dgn eeee sweetnye dia ni, baiknye, lame2 she couldnt help praying everyday that he would ditch his wife and marry her. doa doa doa... hnmmm...

*kalo dia handsome kat mate kite je, org lain x rase dia handsome pon, tu bukanlah handsome name nye yeh.

should stop dreaming about getting a handsome+gentleman husband now..

currently listening to:only one yellowcard
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a supermodel