++the one with the ipad

oh OUR god!!!
the XXX company will be launching ipad soooooooooon
i vant! i vant!
whats becoming me???
i still have the iphone 3gs monthly deduction scheme(6more months to go)
iphone 4g 1st purchase (for my bro)
iphone 4g 2nd purchase (for me)
..to pay monthly. (thats roughly 600++ a month)
and now, ipad????

seriously???
i need an angel-guarder to tight me around the neck now,
before i click and submit for the ipad. god please help. T_T
but the ipad is pretty handsome awkward kan? :(

i've come to notice these 'membazir' lots because i cannot see any future of marrying anyone soon. my heart scream 'MUST SPEND ALL THE MONEY!'.
and now, im gonna do defisitness 2weeks before gaji.

currently listening to:debaran cinta, what???
currently feeling:greedy
i wanna be:a supermodel

++Eating

WHATS happening to me????????
i cannot stop eating (now eating 3rd meal of the day)
and i am very very very lazy to do any work
and i am very utterly lazy to even move

very nih!
aiyark..
felt like want to go home and sleep on the bed watching greys anatomy but the new episode havent come out yet.
currently listening to:freestyler
currently feeling:laaaaaaaazy
i wanna be:nothing

++the one with narcissist

"they were all the classic narcissit.
nobody is more fun at a party,
but, u know, they're incurable.
and u should never, ever get in a relationship with one.
-brothers and sisters s04ep08-

currently listening to:estranged aurora
currently feeling:better
i wanna be:kurus!!!

++the one with high heels

i've been thinking alot lately about shoes
one, i had not enuff shoes. i mean, i do own few, but not all are comfy and i need lot of working shoes or sandals or nice fancy wedges.
but i hate to confess that i am a stingy at spending for something that we would finally step on it. huhuk. beli murah2 sudahlah. nanti akan pijak tahi juwa. ok, slash that.
and when it comes to heels, i like it less than an inch. 1.5 the most. i have heightophobia (ok, i just made that one up), but yeh, i cannot wear high heels. cuak + oh kamon, plis respect supermodel like me, we are already tall, jgn lah suruh kami menjadi seperti zirafah pula.

the problem with today's trend is, they wedges, all the nice and fancy and cheap wedges (like the one at the curve or gerai2 murahan di tesco muti4ra d4mansara), are made and sell with 2inch high. sigh yg sgt panjang~
where can i get fancy2 plus cheap2 wedges at less than 1inch high eh? :( so sad.
currently listening to:all my life
currently feeling:sad :(
i wanna be:effortless

++the one with clinic attack

*outdated entry, the event below happening on June2010*

the other day, i was having a movie date with kakak palmspring dan kakak damai at 1145pm and there's a spain game at 10pm. but around 8-ish, terjadilah sebuah tragedy october yg mengerikan. kepedihan yg tidak dapat diceritakan.
*sakit yg tidak akan diberitau kpd sesiapapun, stop asking*
i was panicked.
ask these 3 people: kakak palm spring(PS), kakak sg buloh(SB), dan kakak muti4ra d4mansara(MD). i couldnt speak, couldnt breath easily pon. i cried histerically. oh ya, kakak housemate(HM) also.

1st, i called kakak housemate(HM), she's in KL and in the middle of something. OMG :((
2nd, i called kakak sgbuloh(SB). yaAllah i love her, jauh2 drpd sg buloh tuh, she said "sabar2, ko tahan!!! aku dtg sekarang!!! tapi aku kat rumah ni"
but i was in pain! and i dont think she can reach me in 30minutes time.

so then i called kakak palmspring "PS, tolong kiteee PS!! kite sakit sgt ni!!"
*insert cakap secara tersekat2 for breathing adjective here*
kakak palmspring cannot help, she didnot has a car that time..

i sticked to kakak SB then. waited for her sampai mengerang2 kesakitan. menangis. called kakak SB few times to check her location, and asked her to lupakan her son. SORRYYYY kakak SB!!
only to terfikirkan later that i had a kakak MD nearby.

ya allah, aku terus call kakak MD. "MD!!! to longgg aa kuu MD *still becakap secara tesekat2.. to.. long.. hantar..aa..ku.. gi.. kli.. nik"
"ok ok CP aku, aku dtg skrg, rumah ko yeh? aku gi situ skrg"
drama giler ok.

off we went to the nearest clinic, i was wearing, oh god knows what, pendek sampai peha, tshirt tido sudah, rambut kusot masai mcm org preknen.:( very the mak lampir.
there were 2 guys! waiting for their turn there! ohmaifuckingfuck!!!
korang tau je lah begitu buruknye aku kalau didlm keadaan yg digambarkan seperti 4line diatas nih kan :((
the guys seriously looking awkwardly at me, wadehelll minah ni? is she crazy or what?
yea yeah that sort of looks.
huhuhu.

i went to the counter and said, nurse, pleaseeee, please let me go in first!!!
the nurse pon turut sama tercungap2 melihat ku disitu kepucatan.
yeh, i was very very pale!!!
so, hnm, see the doctor, yada yada yada, kakak SB arrived 5mins later.
kesian kakak SB :( sorryyyyy, aku nyusahkan ko :(
i couldnt and wouldnt forget that moment. not until anytime.
jasamu ku kenang!!!

hehe, ok, entry ini tamat disini because i am a bad storyteller. tatau nak sambung ape. :))

currently listening to:putih-sampai mati
currently feeling:withdrawn
i wanna be:sihat dan kurus juga..

++the one with germany?

can we pretend that airplanes
in the night sky are like shooting stars?
i could really use a wish right now
wish right now, wish right now


and happy birthday dear EJA!!!
doakan aku kayeraye segera, semuge cpt2 ku dpt visit germany!!!
amin~!!!
currently listening to:-
currently feeling:i.cannot.sleep!!:((
i wanna be:kurus dan kaya!

++after 6 months

have u ever had to stare into something that u know u can't have?
but u have to remind yourself to resist it.
it was like a test.

its been 6 months!!
how time flies. i loved him before and i love him still.
that; i cannot change.
but i told u that i have given up rite. so hnm yeah, life goes on.

currently listening to:according to you
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:kurus!!!

++the one with i miss u

Where are you, and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I can not dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight,
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)

currently listening to:blink 182 i miss you
currently feeling:empty
i wanna be:a supermodel

++The one capricorn girl

i copypasted tis already in March 2004 in myold blog
and weirdly aggree to most of them descriptions rather than 6years ago. hnm, years made me wise?

CAPRICORN WOMAN

A tall slim, cool and quiet woman...
slim no more bebeh

Once she is mad she can be very fierce...
true true

She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman. In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at an office and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection..
dun think so..

She likes to control and hide her weak emotions
yeah maybe..

She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are
trying very best here..

If she does not like someone, she will not comments or criticize but she will
completely ignore that person
not true, i will definitely mengumpat him/her with the person im with. :-"

She hate plastic and an artificial flower because it make her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flower and its scent
true true

She loves a guy who wears after shave cologne. .
anything asalkan x busuk.

If you are a type of a guy >who wears your Jean one month before washing, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about her...
true true

She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise...
the very truest!!!

She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too...
is it? havent tried fishing for so many years..

She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K.
true true

Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like loosing face...
true sgt sgt

She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter...
make up what???? not true. i wear what i felt like wearing and comfortable with. thats it.

She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop...
true true

She does not like a dreamer who talks about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens...
especially when u jenis becakap jenis nak UP kan diri sendiri aje.
boleh blah!

Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should
Do it, it's good for you", because she will do what she wants to do only...
yeah dah betul plak kenyataan ini, the last 6 years i felt declined towards it. strange strange.

She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty, do not take her there
hehehe. applied to guys only, kalo rumah org pompuan aku ok sejjaaa :D:D

If you go out on a date with her, try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date
tidak busuk especially!!!

She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears...
yes yes betul betul!!!

She is a slow but sure type. ..
i am definitely a slow type :( thanx horoscope-writer :(

She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you loose your face...
true true!!!

If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do..
definitely..

She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. ..
oh well, some people might want to judge this..

If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint...
sedey sikit, but i'll move on..

She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in "Luck"
given the rate of goddamn badlucks happening in my life yearly, yeah yeah, i think yeah, true..

If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be please...
err not sure about the parents part.

She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after"...
perfect description ever!!! THANX horoscope-writer!!!

currently listening to:mika gracekelly
currently feeling:gatal2
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with avery

Biology sucks sometimes.
Biology says that we are who we are from birth,
That our d.N.A. Is set in stone,
Unchangeable.
Our d.N.A doesn't account for all of us, though.
We're human.
Life changes us.
We develop new traits...
Become less territorial.
We stop competing.
We learn from our mistakes.
We face our greatest fears.
For better or worse,
We find ways to become more than our biology.
The risk, of course...
Is that we can change too much...
to the point, we don't recognize ourselves.
Finding our way back can be difficult.
There's no compass, no map.
We just have to close our eyes,
Take a step,
And hope to god we'll get there.

grey's anatomy is such a himono-onna thing. i love it more when dr avery is in it. heheh.

currently listening to:here without u
currently feeling:monotous
i wanna be:a supermodel

++

rimas tak?

++if you go away

If you go away, as I know you will
You must tell the world to stop turning
Till you return again, if you ever do,
For what good is love without loving you?
Can I tell you now, as you turn to go
I'll be dying slowly till the next hello
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

++My Immortal

You used to captivate me by your resonating light,
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice has chased away all the sanity in me.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real,
there's just too much that time cannot erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
and I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.



currently listening to:my immortal
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:20 again

++pedih?

Happy. Sedih. Penat. Mengantuk

Watched you again with the girl on thursday(?ke wednesday?)
Watched the other guys the girl on friday
Watched megamind with the boys at nite
Watched red with the boys on saturday
Watched unstoppable with the boys on sunday
Managed to run for terry fox charity run too
Karaoke with the girl wednesday and with another girl on friday and with the boys on saturday

Happy sedih penat mengantuk

currently listening to:Arsenal vs newcastle
currently feeling:down!!!!
i wanna be:a supermodel

++3am

its 1057am here, but someone somewhere is at 3am, is him not?
whoever he is?
i dont know yet
im just feeling the coldness of this war here.
feeling empty too
wtf?

She say it's cold outside and she hands me my raincoat
She's always worried about things like that
She says it's all gonna end and it might as well be my fault
And she only sleeps when it's raining
And she screams and her voice is straining

She says baby
It's 3 am I must be lonely
When she says baby
Well I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
Says the rain's gonna wash away I believe it

She's got a little bit of something, God it's better than nothing
And in her color portrait world she believes that she's got it all
She swears the moon don't hang quite as high as it used to
And she only sleeps when it's raining
And she screams and her voice is straining

She believes that life is made up of all that you're used to
And the clock on the wall has been stuck at three for days, and days
She thinks that happiness is a mat that sits on her doorway
But outside it's stopped raining

++advices

there's no right or wrong advice/s.

i'm just gonna give up.