++Thinking Out Loud

So honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are



When your legs don't work like they used to before
And I can't sweep you off of your feet
Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love?
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?

And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am

When my hair's all but gone and my memory fades
And the crowds don't remember my name
When my hands don't play the strings the same way
I know you will still love me the same

'Cause honey your soul could never grow old, it's evergreen
And, baby, your smile's forever in my mind and memory
I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it's all part of a plan
Well, I'll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you'll understand

But, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
Thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

Oh, baby, we found love right where we are
And we found love right where we are

++the one who is 34

34.
i'd laugh at my old entries, proudly announced that of course i'll be married at this age,
but still i am not.
actually, i wrote 35. if i havent, im gonna adopt a child.
but looking at me now, altho i still have 12months left, i dont think i can achieve that.
financially, or emotionally.
my money wasnt saved, i spend it away. i know i know. but paralel-ly, i am satisfied with what i've accomplished with those money wasted. (shdnt call it wasted anyway, but anyways!)

to be honest,
my doa s have been shorten, and shorten each year.
i no longer hope and i no longer putting any expectations.
names have been erased,
takkesah lah the names that i loved, or the names that i dont want to be in love.
it goes out openly now, takkesah siapa dan takkesah lah ade ke takde.
jika ada jodoh, ada lah.
que sera sera.

and by this age, i finally accepted the fact that, i am all yours, Allah.
if he is in fact is not here, di dunia, perhaps, he is waiting for me di pintu syurga.
so be it...
que sera sera.

currently listening to:ed sheeran - thinking out loud
currently feeling:calm
i wanna be:kurus without doing nothing.

++The one with 2014

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Sikit gila likes huhu xglemer la katekan, but Syukurlah nak, Alhamdulillah for all the good things happened in 2014, and Alhamdulillah too for the lesson learnt from all the bad things. 2014 has been my most travelled year (except during studies) starting from tokyo japan in february, to ireland in may, to lundu kuching in august, to morocco in october and tawau in december. May 2015 brings greater joy and more rezekis to give more. Ya Allah permudahkanlah. Aaminnn.
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ayat diatas dikopipes sahajos from my insta. click the image to open my most like pictures in insta in 2014, sikit gila tp cukopla tu kot utk org yg jarang2 publickan insta & x gile byk hashtag sampai penuh satu screen tuh.
(belom abis seminggu pon 2015 dan start mulot laser dan sarkastik kekdahnye hish hish insoflahhhh)

and btw, once again, alhamdulillah for 2014. i achieved atleast 3 outta 6 of my wishlist before 2015.

++ my bucket list b4 2015

• TRAVEL TO (PICK 5): USA, AUSTRALIA, GERMANY, HONGKONG, JAPAN, ANGKORWATT, KOREA, OSLO, ISTANBUL, ATHENS, PRAGUE, IRELAND

• my own home

• a husband :))

• macbook

• latest ipad

• skydiving

actually, mostly, i am grateful i still have close friends who are still strong enough to travel and melagho and tough (or maybe tahankan ajo) enough to hear me ranting, or merepek, or joking, or being silly&stupid, still.

and for 2015, it goes without saying, i wanted to lose weight (zzzzzzz) & get married (zzzzzzzzz) and yadayadayada, but actually, i hope, i dont lose anymore friend/s, and keep getting closer to them.

instead of, yaknow, being someone i used to know.

yup, mostly i meant, my close friends who are married. they kept getting further and further away from me.

and i dont blame them, but, life goes on.