++

Worrying is a waste of time. It doesn't change anything. It messes with your mind and steals your happiness.
CoTweet • 29/04/2011 09:51

++alhamdulillah 2nd part

Alhamdulillah!!! part2 completed.
u've just made my day, my entire week actually!!!

*this is rentetan part 1: http://videl-kuchiki.blogspot.com/2011/03/alhamdulillah.html
currently listening to:s07 - dan
currently feeling:happy sebentar dehhh
i wanna be:a supermodel

++All You Wanted

i'm sinking slowly, so hurry hold me!!
your hand is all i have to keep me hanging on




*it was 6pm yesterday and another hour to go before breakfasting, when, then, i realized yg aku bejottttttttt!!!!!!!!!!

++the one with life

at first it was about the lacking of something
the lacking of love?
or education?
or lights?
or faith?
or money?
or sex?
and it drifted people to do something alienate
to go haywire?
or the ability to fast (fast as in fasting because no money to eat)
or the eagerness to conduct a murder
or the curiosity of tasting the 'crack'
or self consiously committing suicide
or drowning with the flow.

hidup ini payah.
satu hari, kita gembira, duduk diatas,
mungkin diatas as in the hierarki of departmental organisation
or maybe di atas yg di awang awangan. yg rasanya mcm boleh je nak capai bintang dan bulan, rasa mcm boleh melompat2 diantara awan mcm son goku dalam dragonball.
kemudian, shit happens.
kita rase, kita jauh sangat di bawah.
perasaan selepas terjun kedalam air yg dalam, dunia sunyi sangat,
yg kita dengar hanyalah bunyi cungap nafas di dada.
atau,
perasaan semasa kite hampir accident.
derau darah kering, mengucap semangat. sambil dada berombak sgt kencang.
atau perasaan selepas kita rase kita buat dah betul dah, tp, cikgu ckp kita salah dan marah kita depan kelas.
perasaan malu yg macam kalau kita terselak kain baju kurung semasa naik/turun motosikal kawan kita didepan budak2 laki didepan dewan kuliah.

counting days.
lagi 25hari, genaplah setahun.
i dunno what was i thinking.
manusia disekeliling, kawan2, family members, officemates, yg rapat mahupon x penah aku suke selame ni,
ada yg melatah. ada yg menasihat. ada yg bertanya2. dan masih ada yg menganggap ini permainan.

semalam mase aku duduk dgn mak, mak tanye juga. pasal dia. pasal mak dia. pasal org lain..
"kesiannyeee dia. suami dia dah kawen?"
aku ckp dah...

pastu mak ckp benda yg paling aku tanak dengar.

andai itu takdirnya...

*hari ni aku emosi, drpd pagi takde mood nak kerja,
dan tak concentrate buat apapapon. adakah nak period?
haizzzzzzz
currently listening to:eman - i shut down
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a supermodel

++Dear john

Dear John,
it's been almost five years
since l wrote a letter with
an actual pen
on an actual sheet of paper.
But l thought maybe l could
write you now and tell you
all that's happened
since l saw you last.
A few weeks
after you showed up here,
Tim received
an anonymous donation.
A donation that was enough
to give him
what the insurance
companies wouldn't:
Time.
Time to finally come home.
Time to spend with his son.
Time to say goodbye.
The problem with time,
l've learned,
whether it's those first two weeks
l got to spend with you
or those final two months
l got to spend with him,
eventually time always runs out.
l have no idea where you are
out there in the world, John.
But l understand that l lost the right
to know these things long ago.
No matter how many years go by,
l know one thing
to be as true as it ever was.
l'll see you soon, then.

++NEWS:Junk - Prayers answered, INCUBUS hits Malaysia

Junk - Prayers answered, INCUBUS hits Malaysia

++Wish You Were Here

mark up your calender girls!
incubus is coming on 23rd july, at stadium merdeka..
im not sure what's gonna be up, whether i should go or not,
whether i can go or not, because the compromises are, therell be the handsome brandon boyd and mates, and also fellow incubus-ians, to which ofcourse them are mostly my age.
(teenagers, pls stick with justin bieber ya!!)
but then, i tend to be over emossional with these tiny2 little memories lah,
rindu tahun 2004 ituh.

ah! jgn pikirkan nya. but then, this song came up to my mind after adolescent (incubus new release)
huhuhu T_T sedih...


The world's a roller coaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air saying:

I wish you were here
I wish you were

++the one with twitter

I
is
like to flood the twitter timeline with quotes & RT from which i find interesting & worth keeping,
every morning & before sleeping.

hehe. jgnlah nangih.

currently listening to:incubus - adolescent
currently feeling:screwed up! & miss someone badly :((
i wanna be:a supermodel

++paperweight (dear john)

Been up all night
Staring at you
Wondering what's on your mind
I've been this way
With so many before
But this feels like the first time
You want the sunrise
To go back to bed
I want to make you laugh
Mess up my bed with me
Kick off the covers
I'm waiting
Every word you say I think
I should write down
I don't want to forget
Come daylight
Happy to lay here
Just happy to be here
I'm happy to know you
Play me a song
Your newest one
Please leave your taste on my tongue
Paperweight on my back
Cover me like a blanket
Mess up my bed with me
Kick off the covers
I'm waiting
Every word you say I think
I should write down
I don't to forget
Come daylight
And no need to worry
That's wastin time
And no need to wonder
What's been on my mind
It's you
It's you
Every word you say I think
I should write down
Don't want to forget
Come daylight
And I give up
I let you win
You win 'cause I'm not counting
You made it back
To sleep again
Wonder what you're dreaming

++Quotes of the day

Every girl has that one guy she goes back to, heartbreak after heartbreak and nobody knows why, not even her. And she just can't let go.
TweetCaster • 17/04/2011 00:07
retweeted by @shell

++Kaer - Izinku pergi

Pergilah rinduku, hilangkan dirimu
Tak sanggup menanggung, derita dikalbu ku
Pergilah sayangku, bermula semula
Semangat cinta ku, membara, kerana dia, tiada niatku

++Where'd You Go?

"Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, and I'm plannin' to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

++the one with TV series

dear TV series
why is it so long to wait for an update? its been like 4weeks already!!
i am boring now.
currently stuck at these episodes:
1) brothers & sisters season 5 episode 16
2) californication season 4 episode finale
3) chuck season 4 episode 19
4) cougar town season 2 episode 14
5) glee season 2 episode 16
6) gossip girls season 4 episode 17
7) greys anatomy season 7 episode 18
8) How i met your mother season 6 episode 19
9) No ordinary family season 1 (baru tgk sampai episode 10)

*ralat: b&s ep 17&18 dah keluar semalam. & himym ep20 & chuck ep 20
YAY they are back!!!
currently listening to:so7 karna aku setia
currently feeling: kenyang
i wanna be:a supermodel

++hoobastank live @ twin tower concert 2011

i think hoobastank sang almost 15 songs, or more.
and if it is not because i parked at kl central, and going home alone, and LRT extended until 130am, i would stay until the end!!
but alis i got the purpose slashed up tremendously. well, that's 'the reason' i went to this Twin tower live concert anyways. love love love 'the reason'.
and i went back a song after 'the reason', 10mins to 1am.
and, this morning i heard that they actually sang 'crawling in the dark' too! :( alaaaaaaaaa :( cry cry.
if only i stayed a lil bit longer. :(
and here's to you.


photos grabbed from http://www.azrinarizz.com/2011/04/hoobastank-twin-towers-live-2011-kuala-lumpur.html & http://www.tianchad.com/2011/04/hoobastank-twin-towers-live-2011-kuala.html

currently listening to:the reason
currently feeling:sad :(( sangat
i wanna be:a supermodel

++life's a story

a friend is in love with somebody's husband
another friend is divorced
another friend is getting a divorce
another friend is supporting the whole family including her husband and swearing if she could say 'i want to divorce u' everyday
another one is occupying hospital for her father's chemo
another one is already a lesbian
another one doesnt hv the idea that her sibling is drinking much
another one is having a newborn and crying seeing his wife deliver, but sleeping with the ex, the next day.
another one is enjoying GRO's service everyweek
another one is fired this week
another one will be watching bruno mars tomorrow :((
another one is having an affair with her own friend's bf, how could she?
and this one, this big size little heart one right here, is having a diarrhea..

its amazing what this world can bring in a blink of an eye.

really amzing and scary at the same time.

life is such a true story. for some of us.
dont do unto others what u dont want done unto u.

currently listening to:the reason
currently feeling:sakit perotttttt
i wanna be:a supermodel

++

Tears is a way how your eyes speak when your mouth can’t explain how things made your heart in pain. #ihatequotes

++Would u?

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads



I love jennifer aniston!!
And i love u too adam sandler. I love "just go with it"

++the one with the reality show

this is a reminder that i'm gonna talk about Akademi Fantasia soon :D
i know some people getting pissed by the reality TV shows,
especially the ones malaysian made, kalau american idol or so u think u can dance, they are ok with it.
and me too, i do watched american idol n so u think u can dance too,
but i also watch malaysian's reality show like AF and mentor and gangstarz and even showdown..
not that i support it 100%, but im bored, is that excuse valid? hehehe
i just love music, as naive as that, so i just follow wateva the idiot box can deliver. nothing more nothing less.
not that im gonna go die hard or cancelled out any event/dates/dinner (if any) during one of the weekly concert or something pon.
but while i am at it, tgk aje lah..
so, there, i hope i make myself clear about this heh heh .

pluss
i think watching reality shows especially if u r living with your parents is a good medium of reconnecting or maybe just gathering.
i saw alot of family stayed together during the concert ofkos most of them condemning the whole thing, the whole contestant whatnot,
but then, they kutuk together-gether
hantam together-gether
or if puji, puji together-gether
tak good good ke tuh?

i for once, long time ago dig these AF sorts.
(maksodnye penahla alala die hard nih? KANTOI!!!)
it was during AF3. (so far i think thats the best AF).
maybe because we are so far away from the family and malaysia, or maybe because m nasir was the pengetua that time, or maybe because we r just plain boring and need entertainment non other than from malaysia?
every saturday evening around 3pm (UK time), we will gather at kak fidah's room at battersea court and watch the AF, streaming, yerrr kadangkala tu, the results doesnt comeout fast. buffering this, lagging that.
there was this one time that the internet is down or something so we all listen thru the phone, made to one of the siblings in malaysia.
it was lame to think aback, but thats how we gathered and laugh or scream or gaduh2 berebut nak minat felix or minat yazir or benci mawi?
and ofkos sometimes followed by agenda makan2, or jalan2 pegi tesco.

ahhhh the simplicity & the beauty of being a student.

currently listening to:plants and animals - bye3
currently feeling:kenyang nak mampos
i wanna be:a supermodel

++my neighbours

duduk di rumah flat mmg menchabar minda
there are alot of types of neighbours

downstairs, live an indian couple who likes to cook curry every single day
if u live closer, u would mind closing doors and windows at around 7pm every single day.
i know curry can smell tempting & inviting starve at the same time,
but this curry, thick and spicy and berempah giler babi type of curry, will make your home smell like kedai mamak!

another neighbour from across the block, she is a foreigner.
once a week, sometimes twice, sometimes thrice?, she'll call back to her hometown (i guess), with this very unfamiliar language of nevada or something (nevada???)
and she can make the whole block across her block heard her! i mean yes!
ya allah sgt saiko!! kuat giler ok!! geram nak mampos, i even imagine myself shout back "oiii diamlaaaa"

but then, there is always a good neighbour hehehe senyum sipu sipu
this one gang, they can really sing, and strum guitar
not the rempit duduk tepi longkang hujung kampung type.
theirs are soothing, kalau boleh, i want them to sing and play guitars everynite, singing me to sleep. *blushes*
dan kiasunye jiran mereka yg seorg ini, she recorded them singing. ahahaha giler stalker shialllllllllllll!!!!!!!
i hope u can play this one, sbb i had problem loading it. hnm.


currently listening to:-
currently feeling:sempitz
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with bumbu desa

for those who still miss bali & bandung, i wanted to recommend bumbu desa.
u can get a selection of most of padang or bali or bandung foods.
campur2. i love them.

currently listening to:30STM - the kill
currently feeling:nak teberak
i wanna be:a supermodel

++aussino sale

Get this king quilt cover set at rm45.. Lembut sangat sedap..
ada juga quilt cover set berharga rm30, tapi saye memilih yg ini krn lagi suke yg jenis ade embroidery sbb lebih lemfut kainnya.

oh x sabar nak tidur ku.

++Casper

Watching casper
And still loving it!!!

currently listening to:Casper
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:

++Grey's Anatomy 7x18

*spoilers alert*
callie means music,
and so, for the 18th episode, i think there were around 9 songs alltogether
feels like watcing glee.
but i loveeeeee (the 1st 2 songs especially: chasing cars & 2am & also how to save a life)



currently listening to:chasing cars
currently feeling:sadddddddddddddddd
i wanna be:a supermodel

++Signs of Life

Break through hoping your demons can?t catch you
So many people with a good view
If you should ever be the one to hit the ground
There?s stop signs on the wrong highway

And it?s so dark looking for answers
But your headlights have already gone out
You?re looking for a spark
Can April hours spring signs of life in me?

A heart that?s been buried in the ground
Can break if it?s never found
I spent so much time digging that grave
And even if it?s pain that I feel

At least I know that it?s real
I?d rather be broken than afraid
Can April hours spring
Signs of life in me?

It?s a long ride, don?t think it?s over
It?s a fine line between disaster and a good time
Pick up the pieces and find out who you are
It?s a cool sound you know you?re hiding

For a long time, feeling the pressure
Like a landslide you have to figure out why you fell apart
Can April hours spring
Signs of life in me?

A heart that?s been buried in the ground
Can break if it?s never found
I spent so much time digging that grave
And even if it?s pain that I feel

At least I know that it?s real
I?d rather be broken than afraid
Can April hours spring
Signs of life in me?

Yeah, oh

Just slow down and take it in stride, yeah
There?s no deadlines as long as you?re alive, yeah
Alive, yeah
Alive, yeah

++confident much?

Today i went into best denki dan dgn muke penoh confidentnya bertanya kpd si service counter dlm bahasa melayu sepenohnya
"sini ada perkhidmatan mengganti bateri jam tangan tak?"

The girl gelak sampai sudah.

Confident dan rase mcm cool.

Bodoh lah.