++Prettiest Friend

++the one with sorry & thank u

Sometimes we seek impression so much that we tend to be kind to a stranger or people we dont even know sometimes dont even meet yet, more, than we do to the people we know or be friends with.
Sometimes, thank u and sorry seems to be the hardest words.
Instead, Bodoh, bongok, or bangang seems trending.
We strive hard to not look arrogant but we failed at being one to the people who is actually around.
Sometimes its not easy to just say thank u or sorry, it doesnt sounds right at the time or at the place or it sounds weird or sometimes maybe just because it is too comforting or too constants that we tend to forget to thanx or apologize..
But sometimes, really, we are just being too arrogant.
I do hope and pray that i will not forget to thanx and apologize, or Ignorant about it.
Especially to the ones i love.
Baby steps..

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++Sedih

Rase mcm nak ke perpustakaan atau kafeteria batu keras
:(
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++the one with bengang ness

sape tahu cara nak hilangkan bengang di telinga?
(rase tekanan dlm telinga ketika naik tempat tinggi/ketebang tuh)
kejadian di telinga kiri sahaja.
pelik sungguh, i didnot went to a highland nor menaiki a plane recently pon...
done lompat2, ketuk2, masukkan air, tutup hidung mulut dan hembus, ubat titik from klinik.
all xde kesan.

im on MC today.
cuti i love.
but not this bengangness.


currently listening to:fantasia bulan madu
currently feeling:sad sikit, bengang byk
i wanna be:a supermodel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

++google me!

helohai~
siapa tu yg google 'yance mmu sabahan'
yg menggunakan digi dan safari 1.3 (mungkin iphone user?)
oh dan ialah org yg same meng google 'has*fah videl cp'
hai, boleh berkenalan?
yup u found the right website..:D

*ade jugak org yg google 'videlkuchiki' lagi. 1 of them mmg yg kwn kpd kwn yg mmg suke bace blogni. so, im ok with that.

currently listening to:bunyi generator :))
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a rokstaaaaaaaaaaa

++saya mohon maaf

saya mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd cikgu2 sekolah saya yg andartu..
yg dulu saya bangge2 becerita "alah dia tu andartu, tu psl garang semacam tu"
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannnya menjadi andartu..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye pula yg andartu..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd ex ex saya yg saya pernah kecilkan hatinya..
yg dulu saya pernah dump.. yg saye tetibe hilang dan tinggalkan begitu sahaja..
yg saya pernah kutuk dgn kawan2 saya..
saya kini tahu bagaimana perasaannya di dump juga..
perasaan ditinggalkan mcm tu sahaja.. perasaan bile dpt tahu sesuatu yg memedihkan hati...
perasaan bile saye pernah dikutuk juga oleh ex saye..
mungkin ini balsannye, saye pula yg di dump..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd orang2 gemok yg dulu saye mungkin pernah kutuk..
yg dulu saye bangge sgt saye kurus walaupon makan byk giler..
yg dulu saye suke laser kat mereka "buat ape nak diet2, aku xde diet2 pon"
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannya jadi org gemok,
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannye dah diet pon tapi x kurus2 juga,
makan lagi sikit drpd org kurus, tp, still gemok juga..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye pula yg gemok..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd orang2 yg x berapa nak cantik
yg dulu saye tak pandang sgt pon
saye kini tahu bagaimane perasaannye bile xde org pandang saye..
saye kini tahu bagaimane perasaannye bile dah takde org ngorat pon saye.. mcm dulu2..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye dah tak cantik mcm dulu..
(dulu kau cantik sgt ke nyah????)

saye mhon maaf sangat
maaf kpd watak2 drama/realiti yg suaminya kahwin 2..
yg dulu saye kutuk gile2
yg dulu saye dgn beraninya berkate "bodoh nye perempuan ni, minta sahajalah cerai"
saye kini sedar, cinta itu tidak mudah..
saye kini tahu, tidak mudah meminta cerai dan memulakan hidup baru..
saye kini tahu, letting go is as hard as waking up at 5am everymorning and jog around the house..
mungkin ini balasannye.. walopon x kawen lg, tp dia x kawen dgn saye :(

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf juga kpd watak2 drama/realiti yg mencintai/merampas suami org..
yg dulu saye mmg kutuk dan anti gila..
yg dulu saye dgn beraninye berkate "bodohnye takde ke laki lain dia nak cinta"
saye kini sedar, cinta itu tidak mudah
saye kini sedar, bile2 mase Allah boleh turunkan ia sbg bala kpd saye,
sbg balasan sbb suke kutuk org,, lalu dilimpahinya cinta yg membuak2 dihati saye keatas lelaki yg telah dimiliki.. (nauzubillah min zalik)

ya allah hentikanlah hukum karma mu ini..
aku menyesal...

++the one with companionship

companionship - the state of being with someone; "he missed their company"; "he enjoyed the society of his friends"
fellowship, society, company
freemasonry - a natural or instinctive fellowship between people of similar interests; "he enjoyed the freemasonry of the Press"
friendly relationship, friendship - the state of being friends (or friendly)

relatively relevant.

how far, u, as a person, without specific degree in law, define a companionship?

forces of nature has it, it wont do justice to both parties..
one will step over the border and overlook and finally fall to other side of the fence.
the other one will try to avoid the other's side overflow by sliding away and run.

in the news today, the problem with the humanity is, the ones with the less feeling didnot slides, nor run. they don't bother. they're just being selfish..
they normally are the selfish types but doesn't realize it..
it is the job of the ones who overstep the border to stop and come back down.
but normally they too, doesn't realize it..

so they just stay. for the sake of the companionship.

dont let me start on the ones who suddenly fly on the fence and poop.

i was feeling that this need more elaboration, but in the end, no one agrees with anything.

currently listening to:scent of a woman
currently feeling:sad but happy but calm but urm..
i wanna be:happy. thats all.

++laugh

How long have u been laughing at me?
*sudah berapa lama kah kau mentertawakanku?
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++greys anatomy season 8 ep 6

As babies we were easy. 
One cry meant you were hungry, another you were tired. 
It’s only as adults that we become difficult. 
We start to hide our feelings, put up walls. 
It gets to the point where we never really know how anyone thinks or feels. 
Without meaning to, we become masters of disguise.

…

It’s not always easy to speak your mind. 
Sometimes you need to be forced to do it. 
Sometimes its better to keep things to yourself though, even when your hole body’s aching to come clean. 
So you shut your mouth, keep the secret and find other ways to make yourself happy.
 

- Meredith Grey (Season8, Ep.6-Poker Face)

currently listening to:p801 astro arena
currently feeling:scared
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with the reward points

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
i totally ignored and didnot redeem any of my hsbc reward points my whole life!!!
and the last i checked (actually baru je check for the first time semalam),
and i found this (picture above), i have around 15k points expired already..
and that, i think, is the point from 2 years spending kot, kan?
oh man!
and now i wonder how many more has expired before before this???
since ive used the card since 2003.

*shud be more berkira from today onward!!!, every little penny spent must make and outcome back!

**dont let me start on the bonuslink points, mmg tak penah redeem or check. :((

***the current reward points + the expired ones, can give me a nice watch,
now that it has expired, i can only redeem perfume :(((((((((((((((

currently listening to:lagu kita
currently feeling:sadddddddddddddddddddddd
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with a soulmate

the other day,,, while waiting in a qeueu for our popcorns, i ask a friend (A)...
i: "pelik kan, cemane sebiji corn tu boleh betuka bentuk menjadi sebiji popcorn tuh"
A: "sebab dia gunakan temperature yg sgt tinggi so the corn pop and betuka jadi popcorn:
...
of course i know they use a very high temperature pot to pop the corn.
plus, i am standing in front of the popcorn popper (alat membuat popcorn?)(wateva) tuh when i asked A.

then, the other day, while waiting for a movie to start (while eating the popcorns lah), i ask a soulmate (B) pula..
i: "pelik kan, cemane sebiji corn tu boleh betuka bentuk menjadi sebiji popcorn mcm nih"
B: "tulah kan! dia mcm sebiji kecik camtu, pastu jadi kembang camtu tuh"
i: "ya ya, dia mcm cemane ek, isi dlm jagung tu bermutasi dgn hot temperature tu boleh kembang jadi gitu"
B: "tuh ah, pawer org yg memula discover popcorn ni"
i: "mesti dia mcm tgh buat bubur jagung, tp tehangus, then aik, apo bondo bende kembang2 ni, eh eh sedap la puloppp"
*ketawa ketawa*

so, tell me now, how can people live with a total-opposite-chemistry-mate,
i mean yeah we can live with a total antagonist in such a way that we can actually be friend to each other,
eg: maybe with different cultures, different background, different jurusan in life, different character, or political views.
but not with different chemistry, especially if it is with regards to the conversation we have to face day to day.
without chemistry, i dont think i can lepak longer than 8hours with that person. maybe she/he can be a friend, but not a soulmate.

if u dont understand this entry, maybe we are just a friend...

currently listening to:flyfm radio (tgh iklan)
currently feeling:hungrayyyyyyy
i wanna be:a supermodel

++A Thousand Years

couldnt stop wondering what would be my reaction to receive your wedding card in hand.. :(
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

All along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

++Decorate just in case u show up :(

listen to the lyrics! listen! listen! yes you!

So you decided to see me out of the blue

Should I let you come over

I think you’re doing fine

That girl in your arms

Does she know where you come from

Almost made me move out of town

You don’t want me to be around

But I stayed anyway

Just in case

Finding reasons to hate you more than before

Like how you said you would call

But never at all

Got rid off your number that I know by heart

You left your things at my place

As if I have all the space

Cause you know I don’t mind

Just come back when you think it’s time

I’m all black and white inside

Monotonous from left to right

I decorate my house with things you love

Just in case you show up

In case you show up

++breathe

my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you'd only try turning around.

currently listening to:anna nalick breathe
currently feeling:breathing
i wanna be:a supermodel

++Christina Perri - Arms

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go


I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home

++

Lololololllll

++the one with youtube

uwaaaaaaaaaaaa:(( nangih bederai derai*
my youtube account has been suspended/terminated due to the copyright infringement...
i didnot check much this email huhuhu,
never had i thought that a video recorded by myself from a live concert pon is a copyright's infringement. :((
now, whr can i dig back alllllll my old videos, i tot youtube is already my external harddisk :(
ive already emailed them (mcm dah beratus2 emel) mintak recover balik :( tapi telah dibolayan (buat mase ini)

after youtubing back my name,
this all i can save:
my favourite playlist:
http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLF77A223C664CEAAE

currently listening to:megalomaniac
currently feeling:tensiiiiiiiii
i wanna be:rich and famos amos

++that little voice

Tinyah banyunnn
Acak ayur..
God i miss that little voice!!!

(auntie ngah, bangun, masak sayur
Normally the order came from mom or sis, but new technology has it, use the little kid technique)
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++soalan

What there's to complain about
ke
what's there to complain about?

*cube tgk lirik one republic-good life

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++the one who cant dance

i can't dance!

yes, i was quite a little involved back at school (ahahaha sebenanye if compared to those tiny friends of mine je)
but that was techno. that was just some 'ace of base' simple moves, plus some other general senamrobik or cheerleading parodies.
i think it was quite basic, and i was so pissed with people who cant follow the steps, that time lah. i was that nerd.

but now? after almost 15years. i am a kayu. keras bediri teguh. kaki bangku.
i was out of the bits at all times, usually during HRC nite out or the equivalence.
berdiri tegak mcm menara klcc katenyer.

so, a few days back, someone cruel telah mengajak join this flash mob sort, and the theme is salsa dance.
they need 100 dancers.
mampooo?
imagine this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4l-agCzCUTE
ofcourse i said no (tp sebenanye hati ade mau. tp bile pikir mengenai the possibilities of the performance's wardrobe, aku pasrah)

but today, prem from flyfm mentioned that the top 10 jobs that must most definitely be avoided due to the highest possibilities of getting divorce is dancers!
pergh, terus perasaan nak join the flash mob tuh mencanak2...
adrenaline rush teruih.
gatalkah aku?

currently listening to:avril lavigne - smile
currently feeling: tah tatau
i wanna be:a supermodel

++has1fah yg sgt baik

this entry akan memuji diri sendiri.

i had a chat with an old friend and she's a friend of him too.
we havent been talking since 3-4 years ago (i think), and of course the conversation would eventually came to the question about us (me & xyz).
(altho i tried hard to swerved away from that very topic)
basically these were something like what we've been talking..
(not in the same exact wording, tp, lebih kurang lah)

she: so, ch3pah dgn xyx bile lagi?
me: oh we were over. takde jodoh takkan kemane :))
she: omg?yeke? sory sory i mmg tatau, dah lame doh x jumpe korg etc etc..
she: bebudak mmu lain2 pon da lame x jumpe.. x sangke nye...
me: takpe takpe..
she: bla bla bla etc etc etc
me: hehehe
me: hnm kalo ade kekawan single2 tu kenal2kanlah :D:D:D
she: ala ch3pah mesti senang dapat jodoh, ch3pah sangat baik..

THERE!
i shall stop copying the conversation there.
i dont want to proceed any further. and pls discuss this.

*at the end of the conversation, i did mentioned to her that one of the criteria for the man i was looking for now is a virgin.
and she said this: "lelaki yg masih virgin ialah lelaki homo je"
LOL.

**ofcourse i was jokinh about that criteria.

***and i am asking S as i am typing this, "S, aku baik kan?"
and she is laughing out loud.

damn it.

currently listening to:jikustik tetap percaya
currently feeling:sleepy
i wanna be:a supermodel

++

Sometimes you think you're already over the person but once you see him smile, you suddenly realize that you're only pretending to be over him in a desperate attempt to ease the pain

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++Nicki Minaj - Super Bass By Sophia Grace Brownlee

kepada S,
inilah video yg ku perkatakan sebentar tadi.
geram nak pelok budak ni keketat giler sampai dia xbleh begerak...

++california king bed

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I been california wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My Californa king
Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
---oohhh next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I been California wishing on the stars
For your heart for me
My Californa King
Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused, when I asked you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming
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