++Happy birthday!!!

Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to meeee
Happy birthday to me
And here i am, berbungkus didlm selimottt..
Demam yg membencikan..
Happy new year
Xoxo
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++ngiloo

Sesungguhnya waktu demam ialah waktu yg plg susah..
Susah hati kalau sakit dihari tua nanti, siapalah nak tgk2kan nanti.
Waktu yg paling ingin bermanja juga.
Hehe.
Mungkin anda tidak,
Tapi saye rase ye..

Haissssshhhhhhhhh susah hati.

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++

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here

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++the one with the angst

funny thing about being mad at someone is, they dont even know that u're mad at her/him.. so stop je lah the madness tuh, tak dapat ape pon..

currently listening to:rose bgm
currently feeling:gerammmm hehehe
i wanna be:a supermodel!!!!!!!!!!!

++hikmah

orang kate, setiap yg berlaku itu ada hikmahnya.
alhamdulillah atas semua yg telah berlaku.

currently listening to:wali band - org bilang
currently feeling:mengantuk giler babi
i wanna be:a supermodel!!!

++testing

++Tonight

Excuse me
And I might drink a little bit more than I should tonight
And I might take you home with me if I could tonight
And baby imma make you feel so good tonight
Cause we might not get tomorrow

Tonight I will love love you tonight
Give me everything tonight
For all we know we might not get tomorrow
Let's do it tonight

Don't care what they say
All my girls they play
Nothing is enough
Till they handle love
(lets do it tonight)
I want you tonight
I want you to stay
I want you tonight

Grab somebody sexy and tell em' Hey!!!!!!!

Give me everything tonight

++the day that i die

We took a drive and
We drove through DC
To see the places we lived
Long conversations
We talked of old friends
And all the things that we did
Summer nights
Drunken fights
Mistakes we made
Did we live it right?

You know the happiest day of my life
I swear the happiest day of my life
Is the day that I died

++

ya allah apsal aku mengantoknyaa nihhhhhhhhhh

currently listening to:wali band org bilang
currently feeling:sleepy!!!
i wanna be slim!!!! :((

++

Words. Simple as they are in all their diversity. It fails us when we need it the most. And only one thing remains, its silence.

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++My Heart Cover

calming but giving me goosebumps same time..

++gerimis mengundang

Bukan sekejap denganmu
Bukan mainan hasratku
Engkau pun tahu niatku
Tulus dan suci
Senang benar kau ucapkan
Kau anggap itu suratan
Sikit pun riak wajahmu
Tiada terkilan

Hanya aku separuh nyawa
Menahan sebak di dada
Sedangkan kau bersahaja
Berlalu tanpa kata
Terasa diri amat terhina kau lakukan

Sia-sia kukorban selama ini
Jika kasihku, jika hatiku
Kau guris oh oh oh...
Dalam tak sedar ku menangis

++sampai bila

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
'i cannot live without him"??

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"better dpt laki panas baran, drpd dpt yg kaki perempuan"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"i cant find anyone better than him"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"he's the best, org lain sume x best"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"saye mmg mcm ni, cpt kesian kat org"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"tapi saye mmg baran, awak tau kan saye mmg mcm ni"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"dah mmg bukan jodoh"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"kite ade byk pilihan, try dan tgk lah dulu"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"keturunan saye mmg kedekot, x boleh nak watpe"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"i am too big to run, i am too heavy to run"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"belom puas enjoy, kite masih muda"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"sorry, henfon saye mati/x nampak henfon/ x cek sms/etc"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"saye kawan mcm biase je, dia yg concern lelebih, saye layan je"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"bini dia tu x keje, obsess sgt dgn laki dia, kitorg bukannye buat apepe"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"dia yg start, saye treat dia mcm kawan je"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"aku tanak rase sunyi je duduk rumah sorang2"

sampai bila nak kasi alasan
"for the sake of the children"

sampai bila??????????
kalo bukan kite sendiri yg mengubahnya.
no body is perfect, but, we can always try.
jgn jadi selfish sgt.

currently listening to:may-sendiri
currently feeling:tekanan
i wanna be:a supermodel

++tercabarnya

siapalah aku ini untuk memintal buih yang memutih
menjadi permaidani sepertimana yg tertulis dlm novel cinta
juga mustahil bagiku menggapai bintang dilangit
menjadikan hantaran syarat utk milikimu
semua itu sungguh aku x termampu

silap aku juga kerna jatuh cinta
insan sepertimu seanggun bidadari
seharusnya aku cerminkan diriku
sebelom tirai kamar aku buka untuk mengintaimu

++the one with cleanliness

Org tua2 bilang, kalo nak tgk anak dara tu pembersih or not, tinjau toilet dia.
If bersih, konfemmm..
Ni toilet pon bekulat, ade hati mengaku kau pembersih... Hek eleh.
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++Holes inside :(

When all that you've tried, leaves nothing but holes inside,
It seems like you're wired, to stay here held in time,
Cos nothing seems to change, oh no.
No nothing's gonna change, at all.
I can see it in your face, the hope has gone astray.
But if you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
Oh cos sometimes, fate and your dreams can collide.
So don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me,
Don't walk away from me.
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++K, I miss you!!

Dear k,
I really deeply impatiently miss u!!!
I miss u i miss u i miss u :(((((((((

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++the one who forgive easily

we talked alot lately. me & s.
the other day, we talked about depressions.
how we had handled depressions.
some people cant control themselves, they went higher than just crying. they went over cutting themselves up, wrist cutting for instance. sleeping pill. drugs abuse. drinking much. fighting over the urge to jump off a cliff.

some people like s, they isolated themselves in the room. they cant eat. tak lalu makan katenyer. they locked themselves up and they cried million tears. dont even have the appetite to watch tv.

me, on the other hand, eat, eat and eat. i eat, drink, sleep infront of the TV, on the couch. thanx to the iphone. no need to walk anywhere. one moment im awake, ill go digging the refridgerator to find foods. if im hungry i cant sleep. sleeping is the fastest remedy towards thinking which literally strucking migrain to the head. tv is always on the music channels mode. no heavy csi drama can do justice to the heart.

s said, maybe u r not being that broken, maybe the palat the ex did was not that max.
i said, oh man! u dont know. the palat he did was the palatnest of all the palats in the world. u'll commit suicide to these types of palats (literally again). its just that i am a person who handled it slowly. not extremely. and actually, its because i am already kebal to his palats. mcm hati kering gituh.

should i be able to feel hati basah?

i was asking myself, one day, a new man will make me happy, i promise. but, can i give him a wet heart.
am i gonna became this hati kering always?
and forgive people easily as always?
what will happen if he knows my weakness, at forgiving?
will he treat me like the ex treat me?

"Dan bersegeralah kamu kepada ampunan dari Tuhanmu dan kepada surga yang luasnya seluas langit dan bumi, yang disediakan untuk orang-orang yang bertakwa. (Yaitu) orang-orang yag menafkahkan (hartanya), baik diwaktu lapang maupun di waktu sempit, dan orang-orang yang menahan amarahnya dan memaafkan (kesalahan) orang, Allah menyukai orang-orang yang berbuat baik. Dan (juga) orang yang apabila melakukan perbuatan keji atau menganiaya diri sendiri, mereka ingat akan Allah, lalu memohon ampun terhadap dosa-dosa mereka, dan siapa lagi yang dapat mengampuni dosa selain Allah. Dan mereka tidak meneruskan perbuatan kejinya itu, sedang mereka mengetahui. Mereka itu balasannya ialah ampunan dari Tuhan mereka dan surga yang mengalir di bawahnya sungai-sungai, sedang mereka kekal di dalamnya, dan itulah sebaik-baik pahala orang yang beramal. (Qs. Ali Imran 133-136)."

insha allah. wallahualam.

plus, i'm always at the lowest confident mode all the time.
a friend said, 'ko mmg suke rase org taksuke ko, rase org benci ko, rase itu rase ini'
truth is, yes, im always feeling small. like im ugly. im slow. im poor. im this im that. i have very low self esteem. i always felt like people dont like me.
how some people can look into a mirror and said 'cantiknye saye or hemsemnye saye'
and asked me "lawa tak saye? or hebat tak saye?"
confidently.
bukan main2 or gurau2.
is beyond my capabilities.

++the one with hrc

saya tulis mengenai keinsafan pada 1december tapi saya kalah
pergi semuala ketempat berdansa itu pada 3december.
saya kalah! dgn godaan.. dan hiburan.
lagipon housemate saya pergi tidur dgn org lain.

currently listening to:pokok
currently feeling:nada mood
i wanna be:a supermodel

++Romeo Juliet Part 1

bagus banget ni donk



and find the continution at youtube...

++

one part of love is sweet and easy, something we fall into and are swept away by. But the other part is hard: it requires discipline, willpower, and opening your heart again and again to someone with whom you are angry, can't stand, and do not like.

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++selamat hari raye

Alhamdulillah
Selamat hari raya!
Syukur dah selesai bayar hutang2 puasa utk tahun ini dan esok akan beraya
Sudah terbayang yong tau fu di sooka.

Alhamdulillah..

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++

"If you should ever need me Unfailingly I will return to your arms And unburden your heart And if you should remember That we belong together Never be ashamed. Call my name tell me I'm the one you treasure."

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++masa

masa...
masa utk menjadi diri yg suram
yg mencungkil2 hujung alas tilam
dan menahan rindu kepalang
masa utk sering termenung sendiri
menyedari byknya tipu helah dan rayuan dan kejadian2 susulan
dan cercaan dan kejian dan umpatan dan gelakkan
dan sesalan

masa
masa untuk jalan terus lintasi masa itu
dan lawati masa yg baru yg indah yg bahagia yg riang
yg tak memperlekehkan keadaan

masalahnya dgn masa ialah
samada selama 9 tahun kami telah bersama
atau selama setahun kami berpisah ini..
ialah it took courage to finally set down the glass..

i am becoming u now. l.

currently listening to:adira hafis ombak rindu
currently feeling:rindu sgt sgt sgt
i wanna be:a supermodel

++Ombak Rindu

Adira :
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Hafiz :
Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku

Adira :
Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hafiz :
Hujan bawa air mata ku
Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku
Agar dia tahu ku terseksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hafiz & Adira :
Hanya mampu terserah
Moga cahaya di penanti

Hafiz:
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya

Adira:
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Read more: http://www.liriklagumuzika.com/2011/10/lirik-lagu-ombak-rindu-hafizadira.html#ixzz1fMUOMXsl

++

read this on sham's wall, cant help thinking, ya rabbi, insha allah, i'll do my very best...

Sham Kamikaze
'Masih segar dalam ingatan kita peristiwa Tsunami di Acheh pada 2004. Setelah berlakunya peristiwa tersebut, sekumpulan hamba Allah secara sukarela telah membuat usaha mencari mayat. Setelah selesai kerja pemburuan mayat,mereka ada masalah utk mengecam mayat tersebut adalah orang Islam/bukan Islam. Akhirnya, mereka bermesyuarat & membuat keputusan utk mengebumikan mayat mengikut pakaian yg dipakai. Jika pakaian org Islam, maka ia akan dikebumikan mengikut cara Islam. Sama kes di Bopal, waktu malapetaka kebocoran gas ribuan mayat bergelimpangan. Yg Hindu nak dibakar, yg Islam nak di sembahyangkan. Keputusannya, lelaki berjanggut disolatkan yg lain dibakar. Bayangkan jika berlaku letupan bom di kelab2 malam atau di pentas tarian (zumba, ballet dan sebagainya) di negara kita. Bagaimana untuk mengecam mayat tersebut kerana pakaian wanita Islam dan bukan Islam sama sahaja. Moralnya, pakaikanlah pakaian orang Islam kpd kita dan anak2 kita dan mohonlah kepada Allah agar dimatikan dalam pakaian orang Islam.'
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baby steps has1fah...
salam maal hijrah & awal muharram to all..
marilah kite same2 behijrah..

++Prettiest Friend

++the one with sorry & thank u

Sometimes we seek impression so much that we tend to be kind to a stranger or people we dont even know sometimes dont even meet yet, more, than we do to the people we know or be friends with.
Sometimes, thank u and sorry seems to be the hardest words.
Instead, Bodoh, bongok, or bangang seems trending.
We strive hard to not look arrogant but we failed at being one to the people who is actually around.
Sometimes its not easy to just say thank u or sorry, it doesnt sounds right at the time or at the place or it sounds weird or sometimes maybe just because it is too comforting or too constants that we tend to forget to thanx or apologize..
But sometimes, really, we are just being too arrogant.
I do hope and pray that i will not forget to thanx and apologize, or Ignorant about it.
Especially to the ones i love.
Baby steps..

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++Sedih

Rase mcm nak ke perpustakaan atau kafeteria batu keras
:(
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++the one with bengang ness

sape tahu cara nak hilangkan bengang di telinga?
(rase tekanan dlm telinga ketika naik tempat tinggi/ketebang tuh)
kejadian di telinga kiri sahaja.
pelik sungguh, i didnot went to a highland nor menaiki a plane recently pon...
done lompat2, ketuk2, masukkan air, tutup hidung mulut dan hembus, ubat titik from klinik.
all xde kesan.

im on MC today.
cuti i love.
but not this bengangness.


currently listening to:fantasia bulan madu
currently feeling:sad sikit, bengang byk
i wanna be:a supermodel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

++google me!

helohai~
siapa tu yg google 'yance mmu sabahan'
yg menggunakan digi dan safari 1.3 (mungkin iphone user?)
oh dan ialah org yg same meng google 'has*fah videl cp'
hai, boleh berkenalan?
yup u found the right website..:D

*ade jugak org yg google 'videlkuchiki' lagi. 1 of them mmg yg kwn kpd kwn yg mmg suke bace blogni. so, im ok with that.

currently listening to:bunyi generator :))
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:a rokstaaaaaaaaaaa

++saya mohon maaf

saya mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd cikgu2 sekolah saya yg andartu..
yg dulu saya bangge2 becerita "alah dia tu andartu, tu psl garang semacam tu"
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannnya menjadi andartu..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye pula yg andartu..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd ex ex saya yg saya pernah kecilkan hatinya..
yg dulu saya pernah dump.. yg saye tetibe hilang dan tinggalkan begitu sahaja..
yg saya pernah kutuk dgn kawan2 saya..
saya kini tahu bagaimana perasaannya di dump juga..
perasaan ditinggalkan mcm tu sahaja.. perasaan bile dpt tahu sesuatu yg memedihkan hati...
perasaan bile saye pernah dikutuk juga oleh ex saye..
mungkin ini balsannye, saye pula yg di dump..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd orang2 gemok yg dulu saye mungkin pernah kutuk..
yg dulu saye bangge sgt saye kurus walaupon makan byk giler..
yg dulu saye suke laser kat mereka "buat ape nak diet2, aku xde diet2 pon"
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannya jadi org gemok,
saye kini tahu bagaimana perasaannye dah diet pon tapi x kurus2 juga,
makan lagi sikit drpd org kurus, tp, still gemok juga..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye pula yg gemok..

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf kpd orang2 yg x berapa nak cantik
yg dulu saye tak pandang sgt pon
saye kini tahu bagaimane perasaannye bile xde org pandang saye..
saye kini tahu bagaimane perasaannye bile dah takde org ngorat pon saye.. mcm dulu2..
mungkin ini balasannye, saye dah tak cantik mcm dulu..
(dulu kau cantik sgt ke nyah????)

saye mhon maaf sangat
maaf kpd watak2 drama/realiti yg suaminya kahwin 2..
yg dulu saye kutuk gile2
yg dulu saye dgn beraninya berkate "bodoh nye perempuan ni, minta sahajalah cerai"
saye kini sedar, cinta itu tidak mudah..
saye kini tahu, tidak mudah meminta cerai dan memulakan hidup baru..
saye kini tahu, letting go is as hard as waking up at 5am everymorning and jog around the house..
mungkin ini balasannye.. walopon x kawen lg, tp dia x kawen dgn saye :(

saye mohon maaf sangat
maaf juga kpd watak2 drama/realiti yg mencintai/merampas suami org..
yg dulu saye mmg kutuk dan anti gila..
yg dulu saye dgn beraninye berkate "bodohnye takde ke laki lain dia nak cinta"
saye kini sedar, cinta itu tidak mudah
saye kini sedar, bile2 mase Allah boleh turunkan ia sbg bala kpd saye,
sbg balasan sbb suke kutuk org,, lalu dilimpahinya cinta yg membuak2 dihati saye keatas lelaki yg telah dimiliki.. (nauzubillah min zalik)

ya allah hentikanlah hukum karma mu ini..
aku menyesal...

++the one with companionship

companionship - the state of being with someone; "he missed their company"; "he enjoyed the society of his friends"
fellowship, society, company
freemasonry - a natural or instinctive fellowship between people of similar interests; "he enjoyed the freemasonry of the Press"
friendly relationship, friendship - the state of being friends (or friendly)

relatively relevant.

how far, u, as a person, without specific degree in law, define a companionship?

forces of nature has it, it wont do justice to both parties..
one will step over the border and overlook and finally fall to other side of the fence.
the other one will try to avoid the other's side overflow by sliding away and run.

in the news today, the problem with the humanity is, the ones with the less feeling didnot slides, nor run. they don't bother. they're just being selfish..
they normally are the selfish types but doesn't realize it..
it is the job of the ones who overstep the border to stop and come back down.
but normally they too, doesn't realize it..

so they just stay. for the sake of the companionship.

dont let me start on the ones who suddenly fly on the fence and poop.

i was feeling that this need more elaboration, but in the end, no one agrees with anything.

currently listening to:scent of a woman
currently feeling:sad but happy but calm but urm..
i wanna be:happy. thats all.

++laugh

How long have u been laughing at me?
*sudah berapa lama kah kau mentertawakanku?
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++greys anatomy season 8 ep 6

As babies we were easy. 
One cry meant you were hungry, another you were tired. 
It’s only as adults that we become difficult. 
We start to hide our feelings, put up walls. 
It gets to the point where we never really know how anyone thinks or feels. 
Without meaning to, we become masters of disguise.

…

It’s not always easy to speak your mind. 
Sometimes you need to be forced to do it. 
Sometimes its better to keep things to yourself though, even when your hole body’s aching to come clean. 
So you shut your mouth, keep the secret and find other ways to make yourself happy.
 

- Meredith Grey (Season8, Ep.6-Poker Face)

currently listening to:p801 astro arena
currently feeling:scared
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with the reward points

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
i totally ignored and didnot redeem any of my hsbc reward points my whole life!!!
and the last i checked (actually baru je check for the first time semalam),
and i found this (picture above), i have around 15k points expired already..
and that, i think, is the point from 2 years spending kot, kan?
oh man!
and now i wonder how many more has expired before before this???
since ive used the card since 2003.

*shud be more berkira from today onward!!!, every little penny spent must make and outcome back!

**dont let me start on the bonuslink points, mmg tak penah redeem or check. :((

***the current reward points + the expired ones, can give me a nice watch,
now that it has expired, i can only redeem perfume :(((((((((((((((

currently listening to:lagu kita
currently feeling:sadddddddddddddddddddddd
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with a soulmate

the other day,,, while waiting in a qeueu for our popcorns, i ask a friend (A)...
i: "pelik kan, cemane sebiji corn tu boleh betuka bentuk menjadi sebiji popcorn tuh"
A: "sebab dia gunakan temperature yg sgt tinggi so the corn pop and betuka jadi popcorn:
...
of course i know they use a very high temperature pot to pop the corn.
plus, i am standing in front of the popcorn popper (alat membuat popcorn?)(wateva) tuh when i asked A.

then, the other day, while waiting for a movie to start (while eating the popcorns lah), i ask a soulmate (B) pula..
i: "pelik kan, cemane sebiji corn tu boleh betuka bentuk menjadi sebiji popcorn mcm nih"
B: "tulah kan! dia mcm sebiji kecik camtu, pastu jadi kembang camtu tuh"
i: "ya ya, dia mcm cemane ek, isi dlm jagung tu bermutasi dgn hot temperature tu boleh kembang jadi gitu"
B: "tuh ah, pawer org yg memula discover popcorn ni"
i: "mesti dia mcm tgh buat bubur jagung, tp tehangus, then aik, apo bondo bende kembang2 ni, eh eh sedap la puloppp"
*ketawa ketawa*

so, tell me now, how can people live with a total-opposite-chemistry-mate,
i mean yeah we can live with a total antagonist in such a way that we can actually be friend to each other,
eg: maybe with different cultures, different background, different jurusan in life, different character, or political views.
but not with different chemistry, especially if it is with regards to the conversation we have to face day to day.
without chemistry, i dont think i can lepak longer than 8hours with that person. maybe she/he can be a friend, but not a soulmate.

if u dont understand this entry, maybe we are just a friend...

currently listening to:flyfm radio (tgh iklan)
currently feeling:hungrayyyyyyy
i wanna be:a supermodel

++A Thousand Years

couldnt stop wondering what would be my reaction to receive your wedding card in hand.. :(
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

All along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

++Decorate just in case u show up :(

listen to the lyrics! listen! listen! yes you!

So you decided to see me out of the blue

Should I let you come over

I think you’re doing fine

That girl in your arms

Does she know where you come from

Almost made me move out of town

You don’t want me to be around

But I stayed anyway

Just in case

Finding reasons to hate you more than before

Like how you said you would call

But never at all

Got rid off your number that I know by heart

You left your things at my place

As if I have all the space

Cause you know I don’t mind

Just come back when you think it’s time

I’m all black and white inside

Monotonous from left to right

I decorate my house with things you love

Just in case you show up

In case you show up

++breathe

my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you'd only try turning around.

currently listening to:anna nalick breathe
currently feeling:breathing
i wanna be:a supermodel

++Christina Perri - Arms

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go


I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home

++

Lololololllll

++the one with youtube

uwaaaaaaaaaaaa:(( nangih bederai derai*
my youtube account has been suspended/terminated due to the copyright infringement...
i didnot check much this email huhuhu,
never had i thought that a video recorded by myself from a live concert pon is a copyright's infringement. :((
now, whr can i dig back alllllll my old videos, i tot youtube is already my external harddisk :(
ive already emailed them (mcm dah beratus2 emel) mintak recover balik :( tapi telah dibolayan (buat mase ini)

after youtubing back my name,
this all i can save:
my favourite playlist:
http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLF77A223C664CEAAE

currently listening to:megalomaniac
currently feeling:tensiiiiiiiii
i wanna be:rich and famos amos

++that little voice

Tinyah banyunnn
Acak ayur..
God i miss that little voice!!!

(auntie ngah, bangun, masak sayur
Normally the order came from mom or sis, but new technology has it, use the little kid technique)
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++soalan

What there's to complain about
ke
what's there to complain about?

*cube tgk lirik one republic-good life

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++the one who cant dance

i can't dance!

yes, i was quite a little involved back at school (ahahaha sebenanye if compared to those tiny friends of mine je)
but that was techno. that was just some 'ace of base' simple moves, plus some other general senamrobik or cheerleading parodies.
i think it was quite basic, and i was so pissed with people who cant follow the steps, that time lah. i was that nerd.

but now? after almost 15years. i am a kayu. keras bediri teguh. kaki bangku.
i was out of the bits at all times, usually during HRC nite out or the equivalence.
berdiri tegak mcm menara klcc katenyer.

so, a few days back, someone cruel telah mengajak join this flash mob sort, and the theme is salsa dance.
they need 100 dancers.
mampooo?
imagine this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4l-agCzCUTE
ofcourse i said no (tp sebenanye hati ade mau. tp bile pikir mengenai the possibilities of the performance's wardrobe, aku pasrah)

but today, prem from flyfm mentioned that the top 10 jobs that must most definitely be avoided due to the highest possibilities of getting divorce is dancers!
pergh, terus perasaan nak join the flash mob tuh mencanak2...
adrenaline rush teruih.
gatalkah aku?

currently listening to:avril lavigne - smile
currently feeling: tah tatau
i wanna be:a supermodel

++has1fah yg sgt baik

this entry akan memuji diri sendiri.

i had a chat with an old friend and she's a friend of him too.
we havent been talking since 3-4 years ago (i think), and of course the conversation would eventually came to the question about us (me & xyz).
(altho i tried hard to swerved away from that very topic)
basically these were something like what we've been talking..
(not in the same exact wording, tp, lebih kurang lah)

she: so, ch3pah dgn xyx bile lagi?
me: oh we were over. takde jodoh takkan kemane :))
she: omg?yeke? sory sory i mmg tatau, dah lame doh x jumpe korg etc etc..
she: bebudak mmu lain2 pon da lame x jumpe.. x sangke nye...
me: takpe takpe..
she: bla bla bla etc etc etc
me: hehehe
me: hnm kalo ade kekawan single2 tu kenal2kanlah :D:D:D
she: ala ch3pah mesti senang dapat jodoh, ch3pah sangat baik..

THERE!
i shall stop copying the conversation there.
i dont want to proceed any further. and pls discuss this.

*at the end of the conversation, i did mentioned to her that one of the criteria for the man i was looking for now is a virgin.
and she said this: "lelaki yg masih virgin ialah lelaki homo je"
LOL.

**ofcourse i was jokinh about that criteria.

***and i am asking S as i am typing this, "S, aku baik kan?"
and she is laughing out loud.

damn it.

currently listening to:jikustik tetap percaya
currently feeling:sleepy
i wanna be:a supermodel

++

Sometimes you think you're already over the person but once you see him smile, you suddenly realize that you're only pretending to be over him in a desperate attempt to ease the pain

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++Nicki Minaj - Super Bass By Sophia Grace Brownlee

kepada S,
inilah video yg ku perkatakan sebentar tadi.
geram nak pelok budak ni keketat giler sampai dia xbleh begerak...

++california king bed

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I been california wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My Californa king
Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
---oohhh next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I been California wishing on the stars
For your heart for me
My Californa King
Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused, when I asked you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming
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++ketam masak cos

jalan2 tempohari, guek ngidam ketam pulak...
lalu, pergi membeli ketam2 di tepian jalan...

sebelom guek lagi terlupa..
ini ialah recipe memasak ketam ber sos yg lazat purr purrrr bunyi itik

mulanya,
tumis bawang putih dgn halia secukop rase
setelah naik baunya/garing, masukkan ketam2 yg telah dipotong ikot suke..
(gamba sebelom ketam betuka wane tidak diambilku pula nya pon)

masak dan tutupkan dgn penutup hingge ketam bertukar warne kpd warne merah sebegini...

then, masukkan sos (cili utk pedas, tomato utk yg kureng pedas) dlm 1/2 botol,
secubit garam
sesudu cuka
air tepung jagung
kacau2 kedlm kuali ketam tadi, dan masukkan 3 bijik telur...
dan, tadaaaaa....

serius sedap tak tipu!

currently listening to:keri hilson knock you down
currently feeling: mengantokkkkkkk
i wanna be:supermodel

++

Some people just look so damn cool n kakkoi smoking/flicking their cigarettes!
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++the one with the public transport

Busok shialllll amoi sebelah aku ni x mandi
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++

#Capricorns may seem cautious and a bit cold but can be downright naughty

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++the one with pangkor 2011

shhehhhhhhhhh enuff with the soap-opera-like entries already has1fah!

today's entry is regarding pangkor 2011

as most have heard, the initial plan was to hit redang or perhentian (i, for the record, havent been to any of those 2, some of the bffs dah pergi atlis one of them)

but, the monsoon dont do us justice, from mid october towards february is a no-no entry to the eastcoast beaches, jgnkan pulau, pantai2 tepi terengganu tu pon tidak digalakkan pergi nya.

so, we discussed and discussed: penang, langkawi, telok batik, pangkor, among other.

and we conclude pangkor would be the best selection among all.

plus, this is a gathering cum our dearest mazni's bachelorette party (per se)

and it is private (only for the ex-4 stooges +pojan +imah <-ofkos plus imah because she's one of the planner)

irina couldnt make it at the very last minute due to her mom's condition. so, there we go, only 5 of us.

i hope i make this clear to those who pm/ym/sms/email me why they wasnt invited. hehehe (diva sgt statement plis)

(read: sue, oag, lond, etc)

and then, here goes the itineraries of the trip: 

1) RM50++ for the return bus trip from KL-LUMUT-KL

2) RM170 for the chalet for 3days2nites + jetty transfer + ferry ride lumut-pangkor-lumut + snorkeling trip + banana boat ride + jetski (tentatively kayak but we were tired so we exchange with jetski)

the chalet condition is OK noly, not tiptop i must say, but ok lah fot the price, but abit too small for the 5 of us to fit in only 1 chalet, i suggest 2 rooms nextime

(ofkos we dunno about this condition until we arrived, so, blasah ajelah, malas nak tuka2 etc)

3) RM120 for 5 for the 1st nite's seafood dinner (boleh makan 8 org ni sbb semua nya tak abih)

(telah disponsor oleh pengetua darjah cik imah)

4) RM100 for 5 for the 1nd nite's seafood bbq (pon boleh makan sampai 10 org ni sbb semuanya tak abis langsung byk gileeeee)

(pon telah disponsor oleh pengetua darjah yakni cik imah)  

5) as usual there were awholelot of photossssssss and u can close this window now hehehh..

currently listening to:the fray - look after u
currently feeling:happy
i wanna be:a supermodel