++9

Happy anniversary my old friend!!!!

currently listening to:adira-kuada kamu
currently feeling:hnm.. sedih?
i wanna be:a supermodel

++the one with migration

not so long ago, i told bffs that i wanted to migrate.
to penang, if its not europe or ireland or something
boleh blah lah has1fah oi!
kononnya mcm nak lari drpd KL/PJ, when every little roads, every little corners, every little shoplots, every inch of the home, and even car? reminded me of him or worst, reminded me of our little memories together. gittew kekdahnye.

i told mom "mcm ok gak ek duduk penang, kawan2 pon ramai, hnmm" *hint hint*
dan mak terus lah mengeluarkan api drpd mulot hidung telinga dan buntutnya
"eyy tak payahla kau nak poie kojo kek penang tuh"
(tak payah aku ckp niat sebenar pon dia dah boleh bau ni ape kes ni)
"jauh bonaa, elokla kojo kek kl tu yo, suh imah tu pindah kl lah"
dan disambung dgn bebelan2 yg masuk telinga kanan kelua telinga kiri zassss..

tapi akhirnye, aku mmg tak pergi mane2 pon. still vacating the same old room, the same old car, the same old office and walking the same old streets and roads.

and i still live. still breathe. nangis tu mcm biasalah, tak dapat nak buat ape kan kalo tetibe nak nangis je tuh..
but still, life goes on. not that i moved like 100% totally. but, i still managed to eat sleep and pray. tak mati pon kan? (bak kate seseorg tu)

but then, itu cerita aku.

ni aku nak cerita psl kawan aku.(ya allah semoga dia x bace blog ni, aminn)
he is young. nih yg aku maleh berkawan dgn org muda nih... (walopon suke)
life, for him, hasnt been good on him lately.
being backstabbed by his friends (among others)
and kicking down frm a chemical substance, thus, resulted on a not so good exams failure, he told me he wanted to migrate.
he hates his malay friend. and he hate malaysia.
aku mmg mendidih betol kalo org nak kutuk org melayu kan. lagi mendidih kalo mngutuk malaysia.
as if u r not malay? sikit2 nak puji kawan2 omputih engkau lah kan.
but my problem is im not good at debating, takesahlah macamana di jalan yg benar pon situasi aku tuh. i am just a useless brain at debating.

alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
nanti sambung.

currently listening to:
currently feeling:
i wanna be:

++

Tak sukeeeeenyeeee dgn keje ni!!!!!!
Tensyennnnnn!!! :(( nak nangissssss
Nak tuka department!!!!!!
Esok kene pegi cyber lagi, taksuke!!!!!!!!!!
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee benciiiiiiii

* dah mcm random amokan saye dlm twitter pula, tapi ni mcm x muat ni.
currently listening to:
currently feeling:
i wanna be:

++ihatequotes

One of the most beautiful feeling in the world is when you catch someone you love staring at you

:(

++the one with the actor's studio

so, lastnite i went to this small event called

"WAMM / The Actors Studio FUSED Screening #6, "The First of 2011""

1. because i love hujan panas's trailer, which i accidentally encounter in one of the blogger's entry (who commented on my earlier entry, and then i took a tour to her blog and danggg i found this hujan panas's trailer), yesterday's yesterday, which make it one day before this event.

2. because i love beto kusyairy, whom i first crushed at the tvseries 'sepuluh',yes if u read me in the facebook, aku beriyeriye suruh semorg tengok that drama on astro beyond last raya. i love beto! i cant tell how much his faces acted very very naturally in each event, u wont be dissappointed all i can say.
and if its not for drama 'sepuluh', trust me, u'll know riteaway why i like him once u look at him, same mcm lelaki2 yg pernah guek suka. typical muke mcm tuh. heheh.

3. because the last artsy event i went to was in 2006? rite? i think 'wake up and smell the coffee&toast' was the last theatre i watched and that guy i went with tiba2 found me in a fren's blog
and he told me "wehh, aku mcm kenal muke ni, aku tau ni muke kau, tp, my fren dont do u justicelah, dia telah stretch kan gamba kau"
and when he found the link to my blog, he said, "eyhh, semua gamba kau mcm dah di stretchkan!!!"
if u havent noticed, all he meant was "CH3PAH, kau dah gomok!!"
(yes engkau! u sucks! nasibaik kau jawuh kat obersea, if not, aku siat2kan perot kau!!:p)

4. did i mentioned syarifah amani? yes, she is one of the actress and director of sangkar. erm, i dunno if i like her, but, i lovee 'sangkar's storyline.. and beto is also an actor in this short film. beto! kenapakah kau begitu sempurna?

5. 'kamu tu bahagia enggak, sebenarnya' is one of the dialog in 'hujan panas' and was also in the trailer, knowing me, ya allah i felt like the girl is asking me the same question dan meresap jauh ke susuk hati if not only skin.. and i cant help thinking, am i happy now? kamu tu bahagia enggak? sebenarnya??
terus, aku mahu tahu apakah lagi didlm entry hujan panas itu.
(sila bernada indonesia) (mak mmg over noxx)

6. the actor's studio is located at the rooftop of lot10, yeap, just beside that rootz club. am not sure why this is the reason i wanna watch those screenings (sangkar & hujan panas) :D
maybe i miss the old times? Nah. i just miss u.

7. and oh did i mentioned i love hujan panas more? nadiah hamzah is such a brilliant! i love her i love her! i love hujan panas!

8. eh dan oh! oh! oh! i love these kind of crowds. ramai lelaki kakoi dan cool dan hemsem, indahhh~
not the so typical lelaki2 yg tengok teater kat istana budaya (oopsss macamla kau tu divaaa sangat :D:D)

more info about the event here:
http://www.facebook.com/#!/event.php?eid=204868029527341
and as far as i can copy, here goes a summary of both screening lastnite:
1)sangkar by sharifah amani
SANGKAR tells the story of a young girl, played by Sharifah herself, who falls in love with a schoolmate (played by beto) and eventually makes the ultimate sacrifice to marry into his family. It is a simple tale of things unspoken, but in Sharifah’s hands the film is given a clever narrative that twists the past and the present together to culminate in an almost shocking climax.
2)hujan panas by nadiah hamzah
For the longest time, Zaki has dreamed about coming to America. He enrolls himself in a business course and finds himself in New York City – in an apartment with two illegal Indonesian immigrants; Ferdy and Mira, in Flushing, Queens.
As he grapples with the harsh reality of living in the city, he finds himself slowly attracted to Mira. She helps him realize the possibilities of starting life anew – possibilities that are threatened by an impending marriage and his awaited return to Malaysia.


pictures...
this is rollin' sixers opening the stage act.
i am yet to accept this kinda music, i dont feel i like it yet. aku mmg lambat sikit bab nak suke2 lagu ni heheh. maybe not my kind of music.. (i said yet, literally, sbb kdg2 tetibe lepas beberapa ketika aku boleh je jadi suke)

yuna! thats yuna rite?

and oh love your shoes!

currently listening to:sempurna
currently feeling:sleepy
i wanna be:rich and famous!!!

++ Penakut

Tak semua kau rancang akan berlaku
Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku
Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta
Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja

++HUJAN PANAS

kamu tu bahagia enggak, sebenarnya?


ya Allah, please make me free tomorrow to watch this. amin.

++He is just not that into you

U know a guy is not interested in u when he gives out his number to evryone in the group except you!

So, jgnlah nk perasan yg ko tuh hot sgt..

Hehe
huhu..

++Dreams

I had a bad dream lasnite
Of a scary+big ghost, a very significant ghost, resembling someone i once knew
The ghost look at me with this big eyes and angry
"why are u so dark? I find it hard to see u nowadays."
"whadya mean dark???"
"u used to be shining, i used to see sparks from your eyes when we speak, now its gone..
I cant see your lights. I cant see your sparks anymore."

Then there was the sound of pachelbel's in d minor, rock version

Neee ne ne ne nenennenenee nee nenene nenene

Ops, bunyi alarm clock. I woke up crying.
Betul2 punya tersedu-sedu. I wonder the other person in the house can hear me or not.

such a sad dream to start a gloomy monday morning!
i blame on the PMS.

++

helpppppppppppppp
nak nangih!!!!!!!!!!!

currently listening to:grenade
currently feeling:sad
i wanna be:happy

++californication

“Revenge is a dish best served with my d*ck.” –Hank

currently listening to:leona lewis better in time
currently feeling:penatttt tp x boleh tidurrrrrrrr
i wanna be:sleeping rite now!!!!

++You And Me

++the one who is bored of the traffic-Jammers

Traffic jams are as boring as ever!!!

Its so typical of u to update status about how crazy the jams are,
or upload a pic of the unmovibg cars of the traffic jams.
Boring!

But, try sometjing lije the pic of people who is making out in the stuck of the jam (for instance)..
Or people who simply stop and camp out at the sidewalks eating nasi lemak,
or a horse walking in the middle of the lane between cars.
or anything else..

My point is, still face the jam.
Theres no way u can escape it eapecially in kl pj ateas, but, make the best out of it, findthe irregularities. Spice up our fb walls with sumtibg funny or nothing ordinary. Dont bore us!

No offence to those fb updater yg tegar, i know sumtines it helps to read those status about traffic jams at which areas, thank yous!!!

*none taken! (hehehe, kdg2 i can be one too)

++to japan

People in Japan and all over the world continue to watch nervously as the drama plays out at the Fukushima Daiichi Nuclear Power Station.
The biggest potential threat is the possible release of plutonium-enriched uranium fuel known as MOX, which is used in only one of Fukushima's six reactors.
Officials report that so far the containment vessel in that reactor, No. 3, appears to be holding.
But the next 36 hours will be crucial in determining whether Japan's nuclear disaster unfolds like the U.S. Three Mile Island accident in 1979

or like the meltdown at Russia's Chernobyl plant in 1986

source: EETimes

*so my response to the rumours about the acid/radioactive rain is,
yeah it might be a rumuors, but be careful, be very careful.
no more dancing in the rain ya!

currently listening to:kelly chen- a lover's concerto
currently feeling:seram
i wanna be:happy

++Better in time

(Verse)
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow i can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going
Coming
Thought i heard a knock(Whose there, Noone?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now i have realised
that i really didn't knooOooOw

If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all i know is)
I'm be oooOook

(Chorus)
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah (It'll All get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smile because i deserve too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)

(Verse)
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling

If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And i know that, time will heal it

If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All i know is)
I'm be ok

(Chorus)
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smile because i deserve too oooooh(It'll all get better in time)

(Bridge)
Since there's no more you and me (No more you and me)
This time i let you go so i can be free
And Live my life how it should be(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes i Will

++2011-03-14

oh shooooot! kenapa la mahal sangat ni kak shila???
:(

*i am sleepy like a pig!!!
slept at around 2am after chongwei won the single badminton all england, and woke up at 5.45am to avoid trafficjams
(plus i havent been at the sunway office before, takot sesat, and didnot know what to expect from the monday morning traffics, plus, i slept at sl (with mama, jgn pikir bukan2 ye) lastnite).

*i ended up arrived here at 7 freaking am. was thinking to sleep in the car first, tapi, perot ni time2 kritikal mcm ni la nak memulas2 nak teberak! pundek alam!

**congratz datuk chong wei! awesome.
***congratz to kkk and tbh too, for me, the double started strong.. only they were, err, entahlah tatau nak kate ape.hehe.
****and, ya, and finally, ill be in training the whole day today and this week. and this is my 2nd cup of free coffee while waiting for the training to start. T_T. still mengantuk!!!

currently listening to:glenn fredly januari
currently feeling:mengantuk
i wanna be:rich!

++Jar of Hearts

love this dance and this song too, of course.



shit, apsal the video is not available lak ni? budusnye embedded has been disabled! click out the linklah:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zHumax97TH8

++diari hatimu

lagu ini ditujukan kpd S
:p
ko mmg sengettttttttt
benciiii!!! aku benci lagu nih. apsal ko suh dgr lagu2 sedih ni?????
uwaaaaaa:((

Biarkan aku
Menjalin asmara dengannya
Yang ku cinta
Janganku dihalang
Walau pedang bukan penghalang
Gelora rindu
Buat ku merasa... terseksa
Jauh darinya
Andai aku punya sayap
Kau di bulan akan ku jelang
Kasihku dengarlah suara hatiku
Kata hati ini
Hanya dirimu seorang
Yang ku sayang
Kekasih tulis namaku
Di dalam diari hatimu
Kekasih setiap senyummu
Pengubat rindu di hatiku
Puisikan segala janji-janji kita
Bakar semua kepalsuan

++alcohol vs drugs

for me,
lebih baik terlibat dgn org yg minum alkohol
berbanding
terlibat dgn org yg berkecimpung dgn dadah
(especially the processed ones, weed boleh dimaafkan hehehe)

well, of course i dont want to be involved with any of those two.
both are addictive.

huhu

u say?

currently listening to:camelia rindu padanya
currently feeling: lega
i wanna be:rich!!!!!!!!

++the one who is tensed!!!

saye dah la kuat menangis!
the new works-related is very stressful.
i had a very upperly hard time liasing with other departments,
seems like the experienced people treat new people kerek-ly.
buli it is, kot?
like the other day, i had to work remotely from cyberjaya,
on the way back home, the traffic jam was so bad. all along the LDP.
and, phone calls were being accepted from different people nih. tensyen tensyen and tensyen, they were. serabot otak weyh.
one, even scolded me, "wah, awalnye u balik!"
dan upon releasing that phone call of mostly he didnot puas hati with me, this song was aired, [bebetul sejurus selepas saye letak telepon tau.]
"whatcha sayyyy... uuuu that u only meant welll... whatcha sayyy.. uuuuu"

perasaan yg nak menjerit dan bercakap dgn seseorang yg mempunyai pertalian hati!
tapi, tiada orang itu.

so, nangis je lah.

yeah i know. the song and the problems with working isnt politically sync.
with work problems, i cant handle breaking up problems, that's that.
so, when i am already tensed and depressed, dont sing such a heartbreak song. ia membuatkan dada berombak kuat, tsunami.
akal saya terus turun ke pangkal rahim. dan saya akan rasa sgt kecewa dgn hidop. mcm org2 yg baru dilanda tsunami.

currently listening to:watcha sayyyy
currently feeling::(
i wanna be:a supermodel

++ALhamdulillah

alhamdulillahhhhhhhhh
completed one part!
another part to go.

currently listening to:leona lewis - better in time
currently feeling:bersyukur seadanya
i wanna be:happy again

++the ratio of the dong

do u know that 'shorter guy has a shorter penis' is so WRONG ???
engko tayah ah nak membangge diri yg engko tuh tinggi weyyy,
fact is, it is not even ratio-ed-ly correct.

thats the important hiatus with malaysians. atleast to mine.
one day, i was caught dating at the bangsar area with a shorter guy than this ex-officemate of mine,
the next day, my officemate nih went bawling around office about him and told the entire admins "ko tau, org pendek ni, kote dia pendek woo"

i was like WTF???

8years later, he came to me wishing to pass over his CV.

currently listening to:i dont love u :(
currently feeling::(
i wanna be:happy

++:((

Yang dikejar tak dapat
Yang di kendong berciiran

:(

Sedih

++Viva la Vida

i dont love u boyce, i love guitars.
hold it and sing to me again.

++Fireworks

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

++hand in my pocket

perghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh