The one with era pagi tadi

Pagi tadi aku melalak lagi, yg tahap terhinggut2 tuh.
Bukan sesiapa kacau or sakitkan hati aku pon tp sbb johara.

Ade laswik, ade caller ni ckp anak dia teringin sgt nk jumpa mak jemah. And mak jemah baikhati, harini dia jemput mak dgn budak ni dtg konti jumpa makjemah.

Aku memule tatau, ruparupanya budak ni cacat penglihatan. Katsitu mmg dah start sedih dah, tp, sbb johara dan makjemah ni dok buat buat lawak lagi, so takjadi nak bape sedihlah kan.
Tapi sekali tu, ray ke makjemah tah pi tanye, bila start xbleh nampak langsung ni?
So mak budak ni pon start cerita la.
Memule adib (nama budak tu) jatuh, pastu dahi dia bengkak. So mak dia bwkla p klinik.
Doktor tu ckap xde pape ni.. "Ibu bawak balik la adib, dahi dia boleh sembuh ni, cuma doktor rase samting wrong dgn mata adib ni, ibu kene bwk p hospital cek"

So, mak dia bwkla adib p hospital putrajaya utk cek mata adib.
Mase tu la baru tahu, mata adib ade kanser stage 3 dah. So kene operet buang mata sebelah.
Lepas beberapa ketika, (rasanya bulan april kot) 2015, doktor nasihatkan buang lagi sebelah sbb takut merebak sampai otak.
Hooii aku nangis sambil menaip..

So mak dia bgtaula adib. Adib, ok ke kalo buang mata lagi sebelah and adib ckp ok..

So dia operet buang another mata tu.
Lepas operet tu, adib bukak mata dah gelap, so dia tanye ibu dia..
"Ibu, dah siang ke? Kenapa gelap ni?"

Wohhhhh ohhh ohhh aku tatahan nangis

Pastu mak dia ckp "mmg gelap ni adib, tido ya nak, adib kena rehat" camtu

So adib tido, sampai esoknya dia bgn dia tanye lagi..
"Ibu, dah siang ke belom? Kenapa gelap ibu?"

Studio sunyi. Aku tatau kalo aku jadi johara ape reaksi aku kat situ, tp kalo aku ialah aku, ill definitely cry like mad.

Aku terus teringat segala makneka ahli keluarga aku.
Ya allah lindungi aku, ibubapaku, adikberadikku, anak2 buahku, & seluruh ahli keluargaku & teman2 rapatku.

I cant imagine if im in mak adib 's shoes, apatah lagi in adib's shoes.

Jgnlah aku diuji dgn dugaan sebesar itu.

Aamiiiinnnnnnn....





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++the one with 2015

there are many things i'm thankful for 2015 actually.
eventho it was a bad year for kochi-ku, 1 major accident, few broke-down cases or in my case, injuries to my heart (haha),
but, in terms of self satisfaction, aku agak berpuashati lah.

firstly, i am so thankful (yg sgt sgt syukur ni), for the opportunity to perform my 1st and hopefully many more to come, Umrah (makkah&madinah& also visited thaif) . alhamdulillah sgtsgt. it was such a memorable one, in fact sampai hari ni i am still terkenang2kannya and really2 pray and hope that i will get my 2nd & 3rd & 4th & many more chances again and again and hopefully one day, the opportunity comes together with the joy of a husband (wink). Amin.

2ndly, i am thankful for the opportunity to travel to germany & austria.
i will never forget how astonishing and stunning the lake at konigsee and the splendid view at obertraun krippenstein and hallstatt and i hope i will return in the future. also, with a husband if possible (wink again).

3rdly, i am thankful to finally went to ho chi minh. we didnot explore the whole city, as we intended to shop only, and as MMTK once proudly claimed, "tapayah nak melawat2 sgt sg mekong semua tu haih, byk lagi sungai cantik kite dah poie".. ahahahahha, dasar berlagak sgtttt!
but seriously, lebih kurang je mcm kat siemreap. so, we only went shopping at HCMC and i was happy with that. (ah shit, this trip deserves an entry, will do it laytah)

4thly, i am thankful to go back again to tawau, shukur nikmat. i love this city, and seafood, and damn food. those damn food! and the ticket was being sponsored, so, alhamdulillahhhhh. syukur lah nak.
and also, we went to tampi tampi, and this time i went swimming and skinny-dip jumping into the sea. that was awesome & addictive altogether. sekali buat, nak lagi dan lagi...

5th, i am also thankful for the roadtrip we did to penang. especially with the original thestujes clan (since 1994). ya allah these guys are the best! also, ofcourse alot of eating involved and who doesnt loveeeee food. penang has the best series of must try foods in malaysia! i love penang!
(ah another shit, this one pon deserves another entry demit lupa)

and also, i am thankful for the many activities organized by the company that i joined, trekking to sg chilling, treasure hunt to tioman, teambuilding at lexis PD, the ATV rides, the cooking class, the makeup class, etc etc etc

and lastly, finally, after so many yearssss, i have a new boyfriend, Far1z, and eventho he doesnt technically have a kotey huhuhu :( (ahahaha), but, he is still awesome and drives me crayzeh. ammmmm.

hicurrently listening to:faizal tahir sayang (looping for 1000th times)
currently feeling:loved~
i wanna be:richhhhhhhh. amin.

++the one with the bucket list

++ my bucket list b4 2015

• TRAVEL TO (PICK 5): USA, AUSTRALIA, GERMANY, HONGKONG, JAPAN, ANGKORWATT, KOREA, OSLO, ISTANBUL, ATHENS, PRAGUE, IRELAND
• my own home
• a husband :))
• macbook
• latest ipad
• skydiving

omg it is 2016 already!!!
i didnot finish the bucket list of course, but i can strike afew.
huhuhu

it's time to make a new list, but then, gimme some, around, 5months time, to think.
ehehe
i cant decide for many things...
for instance, there are so manyyyy places that i wanna go,
especially iceland! and norway, and newyork! i wanna go to america! :((((
and newzealand, and india (tajmahal & kashmir sahaja), and shit man! i wanna go to athens! and prague!

shit

gimme moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!

currently listening to:
currently feeling:
i wanna be: